Reasons...

whoa.

2006-11-03T13:13:00.000+08:00

Never Ever Lyrics- All Saints

A few questions that I need to know
how you could ever hurt me so
I need to know what I've done wrong
and how long it's been going on
Was it that I never paid enough attention?
Or did I not give enough affection?
Not only will your answers keep me sane
but I'll know never to make the same mistake again
You can tell me to my face or even on the phone
You can write it in a letter, either way, I have to know
Did I never treat you right?
Did I always start the fight?
Either way, I'm going out of my mind
all the answers to my questions
I have to find

My head's spinning
Boy, I'm in a daze
I feel isolated
Don't wanna communicate
I'll take a shower, I will scour
I will rub
To find peace of mind
The happy mind I once owned, yeah

Vexing vocabulary runs right through me
The alphabet runs right from A to Z
Conversations, hesitations in my mind
You got my conscience asking questions that I can't find
I'm not crazy
I'm sure I ain't done nothing wrong, no
I'm just waiting
'Cause I heard this feeling
won't last that long

Never ever have I ever felt so low
When you gonna take me out of this black hole?
Never ever have I ever felt so sad
The way I'm feeling yeah, you got me feeling really bad
Never ever have I had to find
I've had to dig away to find my own peace of mind
I've Never ever had my conscience to fight
The way I'm feeling, yeah, I just don't feel right

I'll keep searching
Deep within my soul
For all the answers
Don't wanna hurt no more
I need peace, got to feel at ease
Need to be.
Free from pain - going insane
My heart aches, yeah

Sometimes vocabulary runs right through my head
The alphabet runs right from A to Z
Conversations, hesitations in my mind
You got my conscience asking questions that I can't find
I'm not crazy,
I'm sure I ain't done nothing wrong
I'm just waiting
'Cause I heard this feeling won't last that long

Never ever have I ever felt so low
When ya gonna take me out of this black hole?
Never ever have I ever felt so sad
The way I'm feeling yeah, you got me feeling really bad
Never ever have I had to find
I've had to dig away to find my own peace of mind
I've Never ever had my conscience to fight
The way I'm feeling, yeah, I just don't feel right x4

You can tell me to my face,
You can tell me on the phone,
Uh, You can write it in a letter, babe
'Cause I really need to know

You can tell me to my face
You can tell me on the phone
Uh, You can write it in a letter, babe
'Cause I really need to know

You can write it in a letter, babe
You can write it in a letter, babe

yeah boi...

2006-10-31T07:12:00.000+08:00

ok, so i'm gonna transfer blog again. because i chose to have a new life, i have a new blog. (weeeeh) haha!

just look for my LJ account. if you look closely to this blog, you'll find it here somewhere. (yan ah, hiiiiiint!) but take note, for friends only. well, some of the entries. =) so if you want to snoop my blog (hahaha), u have to add me up. ok? good. =p

yan ah...malinaw tayo diyan. haha

bye, blogger...i'm gonna miss you....*sniff*

I Do

2006-10-31T07:01:00.000+08:00

when i'm done with thinking, then i'm done with you.
when i'm done with crying, then i'm done with you.
when i feel so tired, then i'm done with you.
everybody feels this way sometimes, everybody feels this way -

and i do.
you can't hear it, but i do.
you can't hear it, but i do.

you're trying to convince me that what i've done's not right.
i get so frustrated, i stay up every night.
you ask me for an answer, and i'm so tired and i'm up in the air.
everybody feels this way sometimes, everybody feels this way -

and i do.
you can't hear it, but i do.
you can't hear it, but i'm feeling this way
just because you say

i will be ignored.
i will be denied.
i could be erased.
i could be brushed aside.
i will get scared, and i will get shoved down,
but i feel like i do beause you push me around.

i'm starting to ignore you, i've doubted you so long.
i'm tired of over-thinking, i know you don't belong.
now i'm asking questions - no one pushes me around.
everybody feels this way sometimes, everybody feels this way -

and i do.
you can't hear it, but i do.
you don't seem angry, but i do.
i do.

~*~

yea,yea, yea! hehe. =)

Debut ni anne calma later....partaaaaaay!!! =)

heartbreaks make me sick. ehk.

2006-10-30T10:53:00.000+08:00

ok, so na-aadict nako sa poems ni Pablo Neruda. wee! =)

I Do Not Love You Except Because I Love You

I do not love you except because I love you;
I go from loving to not loving you,
From waiting to not waiting for you
My heart moves from cold to fire.

I love you only because it's you the one I love;
I hate you deeply, and hating you
Bend to you, and the measure of my changing love for you
Is that I do not see you but love you blindly.

Maybe January light will consume
My heart with its cruel
Ray, stealing my key to true calm.

In this part of the story I am the one who
Dies, the only one, and I will die of love because I love you,
Because I love you, Love, in fire and blood.
- Pablo Neruda

hehe. got that from joey's blog. *thanks love! ♥

sunday morning...

2006-10-29T09:59:00.000+08:00

Don't Speak-No Doubt
You and me
We used to be together
Everyday together always
I really feel
That I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end
It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real
Well I don't want to know

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't speak I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

Our memories
Well, they can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty frightening
As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands
I sit and cry

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

It's all ending
I gotta stop pretending who we are...
You and me I can see us dying...are we?

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't tell me cause it hurts!
I know what you're saying
So please stop explaining

Don't speak,
don't speak,
don't speak,
oh I know what you're thinking
And I don't need your reasons
I know you're good,
I know you're good,
I know you're real good
Oh, la la la la la la
La la la la la la
Don't, Don't, uh-huh Hush, hush darlin'
Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush
don't tell me tell me cause it
hurts Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush darlin'
Hush, hush don't tell me tell me cause it hurts

No more.

2006-10-28T17:20:00.000+08:00

yeah, Sergio...NO MORE.

if freedom you ask, freedom you're gonna get from me. that's what you want, right? this is what you really, really want and i'm gonna give it all to you. we're both tired of pretending that we're still gonna work. good job, you convinced me that we're not anymore. and hearing the "truth" convinced me more...though it hurt more. but imma be alright. coz i'm tired of pretending that you're still happy with me. i deserve better than that.

you're not worth my tears anymore...everything's not worth it anymore. i've had ENOUGH.

i just wish that you'll be happier this way...if not, bahala ka na. i wont fall for it again..I WONT.

i hate to say this, but after i cried kanina, i realized, i dont love you anymore. nah, not true..but i'll just tell my heart that i dont love you anymore. i'll keep it from loving you. it has been through so much pain already..bumibigay na siya. tama na, ayoko na..

harsh? nah.. bitter? a little. it's still painful but i'll let it all out. i think i've cried it all out, thank you very much.

"Wag kang mangangambang
Baka wala ka nang ibang makita
Na lalake na magmahal sayo
At hinding hindi nya sasayangin ang pag-ibig mo..." -Halaga, Parokya ni Edgar

so true. i need a man who will never waste my love for him..a man who will love me the way he should love me. isang lalaki na alam ang tunay kong HALAGA.

so anyway...

i watched World Trade Center with joey awhile ago. the movie was so touching. nakakiyak pre. haha! i enjoyed it..medyo tumulo luha ko eh. buti di napansin ni joey. haha! thanks love! thanks for the pasalubong also =) i ♥ you love! =)

here's a song for you. this will be the last song i'll dedicate to you..

Much Has Been Said- Bamboo

Much has been said
Said you never leave
Why'd it have to be
Harder than it had to be
Don't you throw blame
You were part of this
Wasn't suppose to end
With us just walking away
So many times we tried
Holding on to the pain but in my baby's eyes I see my shame
Asking why you had to leave
Wasn't I strong enough to make you see
That the biggest part of this it's not about you or me
But just be wrong if we held on

So Maybe tomorrow we'll find
A taste for the old days hard lessons
We've left behind

This mirrors an open door I can barely stand to see myself I don't know what to do anymore
I'm crying out for help
Ohh lord
Much has been said
Will I never learn
Keeping my fingers crossed
Praying for my luck to turn
But I can't complain
I'm living it easy
Job's keeping me busy
Going Crazy
Can't describe the way it felt
When you left said your goodbyes
It just seems crazy for me to think
That I'll find love a second time
But we all know how it all wraps up in the end
Maybe tomorrow we'll find..
Ohh lord..
What am I leaving behind
Sweet how we see the big picture when you're life's not on the line
I know the way but do you see what I see
A tortured life always second guessing the bookie
Pot money on the table thought that was all I had to do
Never came home
Never said a word to you
No one ever said it was going to be easy

Easy start over again this time this time
Let's do it right
Start over again this time this time
Lets keep the fires burning

Nice to know you, Sergio. Goodbye..

tatlong araw

2006-10-27T19:30:00.000+08:00

ostrich land was OH-SO-FUN! =)

last wednesday, me and some of my friends went to OStrichland (as they would call it), somewhere in PAmpanga. super fun coz the 3 days we were, sobrang food trip. daming fooooooooood!!! haha! super bum kami dun! eat, sleep, eat, swim, play cards, eat, swim, play billiards, ostrich sight seeing, eat, swim and play charades (haha), videoke all night long, sleep, eat, eat and more EAT. and oh, alot of drinking. yeah boi. ehe. =) too bad we were just there for 3 days....sobrang bitin! argh! ooooh! the ostriches were so cute! and the sheeps too! baaaaaa! hahaha! =p

oh, thanks to vicka and dang for singing a very special song to me last thurs night/friday morning. =) most memorable song from the trip was HALAGA by parokya. yeah boi...mahal ko kayong dalawa. *tugsh* haha! =p

also, thanks sj for the very wonderful time in your ostrich farm...sa uulitin! =)

fun, fun FUN! =)

ok, so i missed you during my stay in Pampanga...kasi ba naman, ang labo ng pag-uusap natin. oh well. you said that "we" are still on probation...so malabo nga talaga. *sigh*

be content camie...just have faith and trust. =)

* i love you.. =) and i miss you...hope to see you soon. =)

ok, so walang kwenta yung entry ko. haha. well, i'm too tired to write. basta, check my multiply nalang if you wanna see the pics of our pampanga trip. funfun! =p

"Ang pag-ibig, ganyan talaga
Ako'y nilamon na ng pag-ibig
Ganyan talaga, masaya" --Masaya, Bamboo

heaven on earth

2006-10-24T18:05:00.000+08:00

and we're on again...yeyeye! =)

no begging, no insisting..just a lil bit of crying (hehe)...i just let it all happen. =) a deal's a deal. haha. =p

anyway, i had a very fun day today. i was with sergio's family at galle. yeah boi, bumanding kami ni tita. waha. =) while the boys were playing at Tom's World (oh, boys...tsk. hehe), tita (oh yes) and i had our bonding sessions. i went with her to look for a cocktail dress, which tita had interest with blouses instead (haha), that ended us up having a foot spa. yihee, saya. haha! =p sarap kasama ni tita...super daming kwento and stuff. i had lotsa fun hanging out with sergio's mom. *thanks tita! =)

ehe. =)

well, we're back from scratch again. well, i just hope and pray that everything will work out pretty well now. please, please, please???

* thanks so much...♥♥♥ you to bits! mwah =)

ostrichland na tom til friday...yeyeye! excited na meeeeeee! waha. ; )

slowly getting used to this

2006-10-22T21:18:00.000+08:00

oh no....

anyway, i just came from my cousin's place. i slept over there kasi yesterday. =) it was fun spending time with my cousins...i love 'em so mucheee! haha! =) chill lang sa house...astig. food trippin' too! yumyum! =)

and oh, last saturday, i went to my grandma's house naman..bday kasi ng pamangkin ko eh. one word: FOOD TRIP. sarap...even though i have a major stomach ache...i ate alot and went to the bathroom alot of times. dammit! i was so hurting last saturday.. =( good thing it kinda passed..but right now, it's still kinda aching. =( i need my meds, golly! heeeelpppp!!!

ok, as if he's gonna help me with my pain. nevermind. RAWR.

oh well, tomorrow, i'm gonna be spending time with my other bestfriend naman, JOEY. we're gonna watch World Trade Center yata eh..ewan. basta. BV coz my cousin's inviting me to go with them to Divisoria. rawr. i wanna go to Divi...but i have a date with joey. decisions...decisions....

and oh, what have you decided na? i'm still waiting...

*sigh* i miss you so damn much... =(

i so need a hug from *toot* right now...dammit!

♥..still...

Cool With You

2006-10-20T09:25:00.000+08:00

Late last night, I was going through
Some old things
When I saw a picture of you
My best friend
It reminded me of days
When you were mine
You had a way that always left me here with a smile
I want those sweet days back again
Coz baby

It's a sunny day, but you're not around
That all the rain might as well
Be pouring down
It's such a shame
Coz my heart's on the ground
Just wanna be cool with you again

Sometimes I sit by the fire
And reminisce
About the time spent in front of it
And the old flame will never be the same
Until you come back here and
Bring in the rain
I just wanna share my heart with you again coz baby

[chorus]

Bridge:I fall asleep at night and often
I see you here in my dreams (in my dreams)
Holding me (holding me)
yeah baby
But when I wake up and I realized that
You're not here with me
It hurt so much I gotta have you back baby

...yun na yun eh. haaay...

happy day

2006-10-20T07:51:00.000+08:00

i just woke up. Gawd, i'm so tired from yesterday. i went with my tita and her officemates to Smashville to play badminton. infairness, we had good games. it felt so good. atleast, it kinda diverted my mind out of...yaknow. ehe. =)

and thank you for yesterday. =) i really had fun, just watching you play. sobrang naaliw ako kasi super namiss ko yung times na ganun tayo. =) sorry, if di ako naglaro masyado...i just wanna watch you lang eh. medyo nabored ka yata, sorry din...but i still don't think what i did was wreckless..i mean walking with you halfway to the mrt station. i'm going back din naman sa gale nun eh..i have to meet my mom. oh well, if you still think that's wreckless, fine by me. i respect that... =) oh, i ♥ you..so much. still. *sigh*

haay...i so wish i could hug you and hold your hand yesterday. shit, longing mode again...rawr. =(

ok, so God is really testing me this time. now, i learned how to be patient with the thing that i really, really want and i also learned to be content. i just thank Him for whatever happened yesterday. atleast i controlled myself from my longingness, right? super tempted nakong mangulit eh. ehe. atleast, there's progress.. =) i love you Lord..super. =) please make it happen?

haay...i just pray that all will be well...for us. you and i.. *prays hard*

let it all happen... =)

hanging by a moment

2006-10-19T07:44:00.000+08:00

ok, so madrama yung title. shurrymee...hehe. =)

i'm having mixed feelings right now. i'm longing, wanting, thinking, praying and waiting all at the same time. super, i can't contain my feelings anymore. i miss you so damn much...

emo mode on *toot*

i miss waking up every morning and texting you "Goodmorning Baby!", i miss worrying about what you're doing and how you doing, i miss hugging and kissing you everytime we're together, i miss your hugs and kisses too! i miss having a good laugh with you and our other "kulitan moments", i miss going to your house and you going here at my house, i miss saying "I love you" to you and hearing you say "I love you too", i miss cuddling you and smelling you (haha), i miss calling and talking to you every night, even if we have nothing to talk about, i miss your sweet voice and how you always made me smile, oooh, i miss your smile, i miss telling people that you're my boyfriend and brag about your hot body (hehe) and how lucky i am to have you...most of all, i miss having you as my baby and all the wonderful moments we had..i miss your love... =c

dammit! i miss us... =,c

ika nga ni vicka marie.. "masarap maka-miss ng tao kung namimiss ka rin niya..."

do you miss me too?? do you miss us???

haaay...well, all i could do is wait. wait for that time that we'll be together, loving each other again...

please come back, please come back, please come back...

oh well, let's see what will happen later. =)

* i ♥ you...still.

'Yo

2006-10-18T19:43:00.000+08:00

Kismet-Silent Sanctuary
Didn’t mean to take you for granted
Didn’t mean to show I don’t care
Didn’t mean to throw away this once in a lifetime of chance
Being with you

And I’ll drive for 2 hours
To bring Butterfingers (hehehe)
I don’t mind the distance
This kismet's a dance

This time I surrender
My everything forever
Life doesn’t matter
Just our souls together

Pride no longer has room in me
On bended knees in public I cry
Your name for everyone to know that I love you, I love you
Please hear me now

And I’ll drive for 2 hours
To bring Butterfingers
I don’t mind the distance
This kismet's a dance

This time I surrender
My everything forever
Life doesn’t matter
Just our souls together

...aww...ehe. ♥

2006-10-18T10:22:00.000+08:00

ok, so i can't take it anymore. i made a friendster account..again. ehe. =)

you know my name, so just add me up. tenkshu. =)

lalalala...ewan. i'm bored. pfft.

* ♥...miss you... =c

something to ponder on..

2006-10-17T20:57:00.000+08:00

"when you hold someone, hold them like it's the last time you'll ever see them. And when they go, don't make reasons for them to stay. Only reasons for them to return."

yeah baby, so true. say hello to the new camie. uh-huh! =)

chill

2006-10-17T20:04:00.000+08:00

ok, so today, i feel happy. i dunno why, but i just cant help smiling...i feel so good. wee! =)

see, told you you're the only one who could make me happy right now...thanks. =)

God indeed answers prayers. stig.. =)

still praying hard though..for all will be well..for us. ehe. =)

"..I didn't really know not to let all my feelings show
To save some for later so our love can be greater
You said you would always love me
Remember I said the same thing, too
You don't have to be frightened, with my love
Because, I'll never give up on you ..." -Let's wait awhile, Janet Jackson

* ILY. and i miss you.. ♥

Last na toh..

2006-10-16T18:24:00.000+08:00

promise. =) oh, and i would like to thank my dad for playing senti/love/sad (?) old songs the whole day. iba rin mantrip tatay ko..rawr.

After The Love Has Gone- EWF
For awhile to love was all we could do
we were young and we knew
and our eyes were alive
Deep inside we knew our love was true
For awhile we paid no mind to the past
we knew love would last
Ev'ry night somethin' right
would invite us to begin the dance

Somethin' happened along the way
what used to be happy was sad
Somethin' happened along the way
and yesterday was all we had
And oh after the love has gone
how could you lead me on
and not let me stay around
Oh oh oh after the love has gone
what used to be right is wrong
Can love that's lost be found

For awhile to love each other with all
we would ever need
Love was strong for so long
never knew that what was
wrong oh baby wasn't right
We tried to find what we had
till sadness was all we shared
We were scared this affair would lead our love into
Somethin' happened along the way
yesterday was all we had
Somethin' happened along the way
what used to be happy is sad

Somethin' happened along the way
oh yesterday was all we had
And oh after the love has gone
how could you lead me on
and not let me stay around
Oh oh oh after the love has gone
what used to be right is wrong
Can love that's lost be found

ee-mow

2006-10-16T18:08:00.000+08:00

tsktsk. masama toh..haha.

P.S. (I'm Still Not Over You) - Rihanna
[verse 1]
Whats up?
I know we haven't spoken for a while
But I was thinkin bout you
And it kinda made me smile
So many things to say
And I'll put em in a letter
Thought it might be easier
The words might come out better
How's your mother, how's your little brother?
Does he still look just like you?
So many things I wanna know the answers to
Wish I could press rewind
And rewrite every line
To the story of me and you
[chorus]
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Still not over you
[verse 2]
Excuse me, I really didn't mean to ramble on
But there's a lot of feelings that remain since you've been gone
I guess you thought that I would put it all behind me
But it seems there's always somethin right there to remind me
Like a silly joke, or somethin on the t.v.
Boy it aint easy
When I hear our song
I get that same old feeling
Wish I could press rewind
Turn back the hands of time
And I shouldn't be telling you
[chorus]
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Still not over you
Did you know I kept all of your pictures
Don't have the strength to part with them yet
Oh no....
Tried to erase the way your kisses taste
But some things a girl can never forget
[chorus]
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Still not over you

Let Go-Ne-yo
I know its past tense
Its been a minute since
We were a couple
And, walking and holding hands
Kisses and I love yous
Doing what lovers do
Baby
But baby that was then
Cause now we don't
Talk no more
You gotta a new man
And, it shouldn't bother me
But girl its driving me, crazy
And everybody says
Boy why don't you just leave it alone
But I don't think I can
[Chorus]
I sit up all night
Thinkin' bout ya
And know it ain't right, baby
But I don't
I don't think, don't think that I
That I can let go (Don't think I can let you know)
I'm holdin' on to hope
I know its a foolish thought
Think that someday she might come back
Wish on it all the time
Knowin' it may never happen
But see I'm not a fool
Cause no we don't
Talk no more
You gotta new man
But, I'm gonna keep it safe
I've got the patience
That some lack...
But everybody says
Boy why don't you just leave it alone
But I don't think I can
[Chorus]
I sit up all night
Thinkin' bout ya
And know it ain't right, baby
But I don't
I don't think, don't think that I
That I can let go (Don't think I can let you know)
[Interlude]
I don't think I can let you go
I can't let you go
No....
I don't think that I can let you go
Let go...
And everybody says...
And I don't think I can...
[Chorus (With Ad-Libs)]
I sit up all night
Thinkin' bout ya
And know it ain't right, baby
But I don't
I don't think, don't think that I
That I can let go (Don't think I can let you know)

mali eh..tsktsk..*sigh*

oh well, i miss you..ILY...still. damnit! =,c

3LW

2006-10-16T14:42:00.000+08:00

No More
(Kiely)I'm getting little tired of your broken promises,promises
Looking at your pager seeing different numbers,numbers
Call you on your cell you hanging with the fellas,the fellas
Hanging with my girls you always getting jealous and jealous
I was with you when you didn't have no dollas,no dollas
Hanging at the crib chilling with your mama,your mama
Never fronted you never brought the drama,the drama
Now you flip the script player please

Bridge:No I? not the one (say it again say it again oh)
No I? not the one (you do or you don?)

Chorus:You do or you don? don?
You will or you won? won?
No more no more (baby I?a do it right)
You can or you can? can't be a man be a man man
No more no more (baby I?a do it right)

(Adrienne)You Treat me like a lady when you open doors and doors
But then you wanna front when your with your boys your boys
How you gonna play me when I bought your clothes your clothes
The ones that you be wearing when you with your doe's ya doe's
You know you never thought I would have the nerve the nerve
Think about it more since you at the curb the curb
Blowing up my pager saying you want a chance a chance
Listen when I say it player please

(Adrienne)I just want to know
what happened to our love
we used to be best friends
where did it go wrong
When you gonna see how good it is with me
I? tired and I? through with all your 'Listen baby'

(Kiely)Boy you promised me Kate Spade but that was last year boy in the 8th grade
But you ain? biggie baby boy so no it ain? 1 more chance when your friends around you don?
want to hold my hand and
Now you see a girl stylin and whillin by the mix
Popping out the whips the whips the 5 or 6
Yes fly chrome so pardon my tone here go a quarter go call Tyrone
(you do or you don?)

No I? not the one say it again say it again oh
No I? not the one
(I? tired of hearing baby I?a do it right)
No I? not the one
(Never again never again no no no)
No I? not the one say it again say it again oh
(I? not the one)
No I? not the one Say it again sa-say it say it again
No I? not the one Say it again sa-say it say it again
No I? not the one
(I can do better all by myself)
No I? not the one
I? not the one the oneeeeeeee

~*~

I'm Gonna Make You Miss Me
[Intro]
Hey (yeah)
Ehh (what)
Hey, yeah yeah
C'mon (c'mon)
(Here we go)

Everyday I see you
With some girlfriend, yeah
You think I could care less
About it (care less about it)
I could keep it secret
Keep playing pretend, oh
But the way I feel you, I doubt it

No more waiting, hesitating
It's gauranteed

I'm gonna make you miss me
You're gonna wanna kiss me
I'm gonna make you miss me
All of the time

Boy you wanna get with me
You know you can't resist me
I'm gonna make you miss me
'Til you are mine

You're about to find out
I get what I want
Once I've made up my mind
(Made up my mind, oh)
Gonna let you see me
Turning it on
That'll make you open your eyes
Your eyes

You'll be pulling
You'll be pulling
Passionately, cuz

I'm gonna make you miss me
You're gonna wanna kiss me
I'm gonna make you miss me
All of the time

'Til you are mine
You've gotta know that something's up
I'll show you how I could love you
I'll turn it on (I'll turn it on)
Then I'll be gone (then I'll be gone)
But only 'til you come through
And feel the way that I do, oh

I'm gonna make you love me baby (yeah, yeah)
I wanna hear you call my name (say again, say again)
Not gonna stop until you say it (say it)
All of the... (time)

I'm gonna make you love me baby (what, what)
I wanna hear you call my name (Keelay)
Not gonna stop until you say it (uh)
All of the time

I'm gonna make you miss me
You're gonna wanna kiss me
I'm gonna make you miss me
All of the time

2006-10-16T07:42:00.000+08:00

If You Forget Me
by Pablo Neruda

I want you to know
one thing.

You know how this is:
if I look at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly you
forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
remember
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.

But
if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine.

i love joey's blog. hehe. thanks love.. miss na kita. labas na tayo. hehe. =)

bitter

2006-10-15T22:33:00.000+08:00

there's so much bitterness and pain inside my heart right now...

yet, i choose to move on.

sigh...still waiting...

wish ko lang

2006-10-15T18:13:00.000+08:00

sana lang kung magcocomment kayo eh lagyan ng pangalan. i know it's you who wrote that and i'd appreciate it more if you wrote your name.

Anonymous said... I love you, goodbye...Wish I could be the one...The one who could give you love...The kind of love you really needWish I could say to you..That I'll always stay with youBut baby that's not me-You need someone willing to give their heart and soul to youPromise you forever, baby that's something I can't doAll I could say that I'll be all you needBut that would be a lieI know I'd only hurt youI know I'd only make you cryI'm not the one you're needingI love you, goodbye...I hope someday you can Find some way to understand I'm only doing this for youI don't really wanna go..But deep in my heart I know this is the kindest thing to do....You'll find someone who could be that i'll never beWho'll give you something betterThan the love you'll find with meAll I could say that I'll be all you wantBut that would be a lieI know I'd only hurt youI know I'd only make you cryI'm not the one you're needingI love you, goodbyeLeaving someone that you loveIs the hardest thing to doWhen you love someone as much as I love youOh I don't wanna leave youBaby it tears me up insideBut I'll never be the one you're needingI love you, goodbyeBaby, its not gonna work outI love you, goodbye 5:55 PM

yeah, really??? sorry na, bitter parin eh..

it's gonna be a long, long time for me to be happy again. =,c

note to myself: move on camie..MOVE ON.

Take My Heart Back

2006-10-15T09:56:00.000+08:00

It'll be alright
You said
Tommorrow
Don't you cry
Don't you shed a tear
When you wake up
I will still be here
When you wake up
We'll battle all your fears
And now I'll...

Take my heart back
Leave your pictures on the floor
Steal back my memories
I can't take it anymore
I've cried my eyes out
Oh,and now I face the years
The way you loved me
Vanished all the tears

Just a little more time was all we needed
Just a little time for me to see
Oh,the light that life can give you
Oh,how we get such a free
So now I'll...

Take my heart back
Leave your pictures on the floor
Steal back my memories
I can't take it anymore I've cried my eyes out
Oh,and now I face the years
The way you loved me
Vanished all the tear

breaking free

2006-10-15T09:21:00.000+08:00

i've decided to let go...=c

last friday, we (blockmates) had this sem-ender inuman session at Drew's katip. sergio was there...at first, i was so trying to pretend that i'm ok and stuff. yun yung napagusapan eh. pretend that we're not a couple anymore right? anyway, ang habang pagtitiis yun super..then finally, after having too much alcohol in my system already, i gave up. bumigay nako. super thanks kay kyla for saving me from my misery. she somehow enlightened me that time. thanks dear. :) that moment was too mucht hat i don't wanna make kwento it anymore. yun.

my barkada (vicka, melai & dang plus SJ--i love you so much guys!) witnessed those dramatic moments i had. so, after Drew's we went to Cantina para makapag-chill and maglabasan ng sama ng loob. i love my barkada. they always make me happy. =) after Cantina, we went to Cafe B-something (i forgot) to eat crepe's! well, they had crepe's while i had some tea becasue i was too drunk and wasted already. then finally, we went to dang's place para mag-sleepover. yun naman. super, big open-up session na etoh.

i just arrived home from dang's place. i stayed there ulit yesterday. nag-glorietta/greenbelt naman kami and esquinita-eastwood-then back to esquinita during the night. i love dang. sobrang bonding kami kahapon. it's like those sex and the city talks..haha. basta yun. i love you duday! tom ah? *mwah*

sa lahat ng taong pinagkatiwalaan ko nung friday, please? alam niyo na yun. super i trust you guys..

and to you, i know you read my letter na. i meant everything i wrote there. right now, i'm struggling with all of my emotions. i miss you, i still want you...i still want us. but i'm gonna be ok..i have to. what you asked from me, i gave it to you. i'll just wait for our time again...i'll wait for the time you're gonna come back. i know you are, but now isn't just the right time. God knows when and i'll just trust Him. everything's so hard for me right now that i just wanna break down and cry. but i'm so tired of crying coz it wouldn't give you back to me right? i know God gave me this challenge to learn from my mistakes. and i iknow i i could and will get through this coz He wouldn't give me something like this if He knows i couldn't handle it. Right?

Still hurting, still wanting...i so friggin' miss you already. =c even if you're gone, i'll still prove to you all the things i said before. though if i'm doing this without you, i'll keep on proving and showing to you that i've already changed. NO MATTER HOW LONG THIS WILL TAKE I WILL FUCKIN' WAIT.

and i hope it's worth it. =c

is it wrong if i say I still love you? coz i really, really do...*tear*

"sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same "

2006-10-13T10:16:00.000+08:00

It Ain't Over 'til It's Over Lyrics-Lenny Kravitz
Here we are still together
We are one
So much time wasted
Playing games with love

So many tears I've cried
So much pain inside
But baby It ain't over 'til it's over
So many years we've tried
To keep our love alive
But baby it ain't over 'til it's over

How many times
Did we give up
But we always worked things out
And all my doubts and fears
Kept me wondering, yeah
If I'd always, always be in love

So many tears I've cried
So much pain inside
But baby It ain't over 'til it's over
So many years we've tried
And kept our love alive
'Cause baby it ain't over 'til it's over

So many tears I've cried
So much pain inside
Baby It ain't over 'til it's over

ALL CRIED OUT- Allure (featuring 112) [edited. hehe]
Allure: All alone on a Sunday morning
Outside I see the rain is falling whoa
Inside I'm slowly dying
But the rain will hide my crying, crying, crying
And you, don't you know my tears will burn the pillow?
Set this place on fire 'cause I'm tired of your lies
All I needed was a simple hello
But the traffic was so noisy that you could not hear me cry
I, I gave you my love in vain
My body never knew such pleasure
My heart never knew such pain
And you, you leave me so confused
Now I'm all cried out
Over you
112: Never wanted to see things your way
I had to go astray
Oh why was I such a fool, [baby], oh yeah
Now I see that the grass is greener
Is it too late for me to find my way home?
How could I be so wrong?
Allure: Leaving me all alone
112 &Allure: Don't you know my tears will cause an inferno?
Romance often fades
Why should I take the blame?
You were the one who left me neglected
112: I'm so sorry baby
Allure: Apology not accepted
Add me to the broken hearts you've collected
112 &Allure: I, I gave you all of me
How was I to know
That you would awaken so easily?
And I, I don't know what to do
Now I'm all cried out
Over you
I, I gave you my love in vain
My body never knew such pleasure
My heart never knew such pain
Allure: And you, you leave me so confused
Now I'm all cried out
Now I'm all cried out
Over you
112: Please forgive me
Please forgive me, [baby]

confused

2006-10-13T07:25:00.000+08:00

good morning sunshine, time to face a new day..

so what we've agreed upon, it would be put to a test later. our block's having this "sem-ender" inuman at Drew's. so magkikita nanaman kami. haay...i just hope i have the enough strength to control myself and wish that it will turn out fine. *prays*

mahirap pala yung ganito noh...you're gonna prove something but the other's very uncertain. so sad.. =c

sana kasi hindi matigas ulo ko eh. para hindi naging ganito. it's complicated na nga before..naging much more complicated na ngayon. haay...REGRETS..i hate.

oh well, let's see if this will work for me. for us. wish me luck..

* ILY. and i miss your love for me...super.. =c

i need a hug..super.. =c

Dilemma

2006-10-12T18:24:00.000+08:00

First of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY RUJA!!! i miss u hugga...loves! =)

ok, so today, i've decided to be (very) patient and have a lot of trust. =)

i'm not supposed to say it right now, basta ganun na yun..

now, all i need to do are TRUST him, and do whatever i can just to prove that i am so willing...

i'll waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiitttttttttttttttttttttttttt for as long as you want me to. and i'll just truuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuussssssssssssstttttttttttt that everything will turn out fine for us.

And I'll trust God that He would find time for us to get back together..well, officially. no matter how long it takes, i'll wait...

oh, and of course, i'll trust you. whatever you'll do after we talked, i'll trust you. yupyup.

so many questions in my mind right now....so many "what if's"...*sigh* pero ok lang. tiwala nalang. kakayanin...sasaya naman after eh...right???

life nga naman...haay...oh wel, game na toh. steady lang...sana.. =c

*♥♥♥...still and always... =)

love ko si vicka.. =)

2006-10-11T20:45:00.000+08:00

vicx, the best ka. aylabyu pre! =)

vicka (10/11/2006 7:34:55 PM): eto sasabihin ko sayo
camie (10/11/2006 7:34:58 PM): i know, that's why i so wanna share this to you
camie (10/11/2006 7:35:03 PM): what?
vicka (10/11/2006 7:35:10 PM): i personally don't think he's worth it anymore
vicka (10/11/2006 7:35:21 PM): kasi palagi nalang ganyan e
camie (10/11/2006 7:35:31 PM): actually, i realized that kanina
vicka (10/11/2006 7:35:34 PM): tas di niyo naman kailangan ng kontrata no
vicka (10/11/2006 7:35:47 PM): kasi...inappropriate
vicka (10/11/2006 7:35:56 PM): you're in a relationship. not a business.
camie (10/11/2006 7:36:09 PM): i know..siya lang naman may pakana niyan eh
camie (10/11/2006 7:36:17 PM): kasi daw i dont remember my promises
camie (10/11/2006 7:36:20 PM): tss
vicka (10/11/2006 7:36:32 PM): arguements come pero paulit ulit na na parang walang pinatutunguhan e
camie (10/11/2006 7:36:33 PM): now, i can't commit a mistake??? kahit maliit lang???
vicka (10/11/2006 7:36:40 PM): ayun nga sakto
camie (10/11/2006 7:37:11 PM): pero vicx, naiinis ako kasi super galit ako sakanya dahil sa pananakit niya pero why am i still longing for him???
vicka (10/11/2006 7:37:25 PM): nasanay e..
vicka (10/11/2006 7:37:27 PM): ganun ata talaga
vicka (10/11/2006 7:37:37 PM): the longing stays there for a while
vicka (10/11/2006 7:37:47 PM): attachment brings longing
vicka (10/11/2006 7:37:56 PM): kamusta naman yung mga words of wisdom ko dyan hahaha

eto pa..

vicka (10/11/2006 7:49:25 PM): oo. sabi nga ni st augustine, if he comes back, he's yours. if he doesn't, he never was
vicka (10/11/2006 7:49:37 PM): end of the sem naman e
vicka (10/11/2006 7:49:37 PM): heal during the sembreak
vicka (10/11/2006 7:49:37 PM): kahit onti
vicka (10/11/2006 7:49:45 PM): tas tapangan sa pasukan
vicka (10/11/2006 7:49:49 PM): pero malay mo umayos

ayan naman..aylavyew veekuh mureeh! shet, natitibo nanaman ako sayo. hahaha!

*toot* sad mode again...haaay...please????

crazy

2006-10-11T20:07:00.000+08:00

I hope you're reading this. because i just want to let you know that...

Crazy- KC and Jojo

[Intro]I'm goin', I'm goin' crazy baby
Ooh, I don't know what, what
I'm doin'

See, baby I apologize
For all the things
That I've done, that I've done
See I know that I've been a fool
For far too long

Baby you don't have to
Go and run away
Just come back to [mama]
Please baby, baby won't you stay
If you really love me
Then why are you leavin' me?

I can't think
Think about this crazy day
I lose sleep
Just to daydream about you, baby

I'm goin' crazy, crazy, crazy
Just thinkin' about you lately
I'm goin' crazy, crazy, crazy
Just thinkin' about you baby
I'm goin' crazy, crazy, crazy, crazy
Thinkin' about you lately

I'm goin' crazy, crazy
When I can't touch you
Crazy, crazy
When I can't hold you
Crazy, crazy
When I can't see you again

Said I'm goin' crazy
Said I'm goin' crazy
Baby, baby, baby, baby
Said I'm goin' crazy

I finally realize
That you are my true love
And I had a lot of time to think
And you're all I seem
To keep think, to keep thinkin' of, yeah

And now I know I need ya
Each and every day
I can't live without ya
So don't run away
Baby you said that you love me
So why are you leavin' me?
Why, why, why, why?

If I can't see you, I can't see you
If I can't see you, if I can't see you
If I can't see you, if I can't see you again
I would go
If I can't see you again, I'll go crazy

I will go crazy
oh, oh, I go crazy
I go crazy
I go crazy
Matter of fact, I'm goin' crazy

I go crazyI go crazy
Crazy, crazy, crazy, crazy, crazy
I'm goin' crazyI think I'm goin' crazy
I think I'm goin' crazy
I think I'm goin' crazy
Let's go crazy

...Hindi ko na kayaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!! *whew*

*please???

2006-10-11T07:40:00.000+08:00

Good morning sunshine...time to face the day with tears in your eyes... =c

WHY????

Harder To Breathe-Maroon 5

How dare you say that my behavior is unacceptable
So condescending unnecessarily critical
I have the tendency of getting very physical
So watch your step cause if I do you'll need a miracle

You drain me dry and make me wonder why
I'm even here
This Double Vision I was seeing is finally clear
You want to stay but you know very well I want you gone
Not fit to funkin' tread the ground that I'm walking on

When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You'll understand what I mean when I say
There's no way we're gonna give up
And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe

What you are doing is screwing things up inside my head
You should know better you never listened to what I said
Clutching your pillow and writhing in a naked sweat
Hoping somebody someday will do you like I did

When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You'll understand what I mean when I say
There's no way we're gonna give up
And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe

Does it kill
Does it burn
Is it painful to learn
That it's me that has all the control

Does it thrill
Does it sting
When you feel what I bring
And you wish that you had me to hold

it's time..

2006-10-10T23:23:00.000+08:00

i finally gave up. after begging you for a very long time, i just give up. =c

i guess you're right..things aren't working for us anymore. i got too possesive with this relationship. i wanted it to work so much that my love weakened it. i ran out of trust. i guess all that i gave was too much..i'm sorry..

you hurt me. i'm so regretting alot of stuff..i'm out of words how to describe the pain i'm feeling right now..it's just too..PAINFUL. ayoko na...

moving on is such a hard and painful thing to do for me right now..but i know i'm gonna make it. God give me the strength..please?

i cancelled my friendster account na. it's too much for me already. bitter na sa bitter pero ayoko na..those memories will just kill me. =c

i dunno what to write anymore. i'm just too hurt and tired. gotta go..

* i loved you so much..i never loved any guy the way i loved you. i'm sorry it didn't work out for us..i'm really sorry... =c

Time- Neyo
How come you don't make time for me anymore
That's the last thing she said to you
And now when you call she don't answer anymore
Or the line is busy and you can't get through
In the time it would take you to learn from your mistakes
In the time it would take to dial the phone
In the time it will take you to realize her greatness, she'll be gone, she's moved on
To someone who takes the time
Her love wasn't a priority to you
You had other things on your mind
And now that it's much to little and so far too late
The busy signals all that's left behind
You're all alone
In the time it would take you to learn from your mistakes
In the time it would take to dial the phone
In the time it will take you to realize her greatness, she'll be gone, she's moved on
To someone who takes the time
Hey, no one knows what they have until they don't
And by then it doesn't matter anymore
You're all alone
In the time it would take you to learn from your mistakes
In the time it would take to dial the phone
And the time it would take you to realize her greatness, she'll be gone (she'll be gone)
In the time it will take you to realize her greatness, she'll be gone, she's moved on
Hang up the phone...

it's complicated

2006-10-09T07:59:00.000+08:00

i had a very interesting weekend...uh-huh. last sat, i went to sergio's place. i made kulit him nanaman about you know....and we had this super intimate (as in a serious one) talk. had this contract signing and am content of what i got again...i think.

i had so many realizations last saturday. everything just came into my mind. i was quiet coz i was thinking all of them...but i'm still insisting for this. even though there were more conditions. i accept and agree. coz I TRUST YOU. just pls. dont take that for granted. please...

yesterday, my dad and i went to our sunday worship. grabe, ang ganda nung service. as in SAPUL sakin. singing part palang, i was teary eyed na. tapos may sinabi yung pastor na super napaiyak ako. my dad didn't mind me. he knows yata why i was like that. anyway, i made a covenant with God yesterday. I'm gonna lift our relationship up to Him. He's the only one i could trust with our relationship. bahala na Siya kung anong gusto niyang mangyari satin...i'm just gonna follow Him. Oh, if you'e wondering why i still keep on insisting us, I asked something kay God. Basta, it's just between the two of us. I just want this relationship to last coz i promised i'm gonna love you til i can.

i just hope that everytime you say "I love you", you mean it. not just for the sake of it. i trust that you still do..I TRUST YOU.

haay..everything's so different. ang tigas kasi ng ulo ko eh! punyeta. basta, eto na toh. pag nagkamali pa, ayaw ko na rin. pagod nako eh. basta...*prays*

* I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! thanks baby...hugs. *mwah*

"...(baby I'm a fool)Am I stupid?
(baby I'm a fiend)Addicted to it
(baby I don't know)But your my get right when it's rong
(baby it's your smile)Makes me happy
(baby it's your touch)So relaxing
(whatever it is)Without it i just can't go on
And I want you to know that

I just can't help myself
I just can't help myself
I don't need nothin' else
All I need is you
Why don't you just
Stay with me
Why don't you just
Stay with me
Why don't you just
Stay with me
Why don't you
justStay with me..." ---Stay, Ne-yo

SMILE

2006-10-06T18:58:00.000+08:00

Though your heart is aching
Smile
Even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by

If you smile
With your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile
What's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worth while
If you just

Smile
Though your heart is aching
Smile
Even though it's breakin'
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by

If you smile
Through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

That's the time
You must keep on trying
Smile
What's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worth while
If you just smile.

Cant We try?

2006-10-06T17:09:00.000+08:00

I see your face cloud over like a little girls
And your eyes have lost their shine
You whisper something softly
I'm not meant to hear
Baby tell me what's on your mind
I don't' care what people say
About the two of us from different worlds
I love you so much that it hurts inside
Are you listening
Please listen to me girl

Can't we try just a little bit harder
Can't we give just a little bit more
Can't we try to understand
That it's love we're fighting for
Can't we try just a little more passion
Can't we try just a little less pride
I love you so much baby
That it tears me up inside

I hear you on the telephone
With god knows who
Spilling out your heart for free
Everyone needs someone they can talk to
Girl that someone should be me

So many times i've tried to tell you
You just turn away
My life is changing so fast now
Leaves me lonely and afraid

Can't we try just a little bit harder
Can't we give just a little bit more
Can't we try to understand
That it's love we're fighting for
Can't we try just a little more passion
Can't we try just a little less pride

I love you so much baby
That it tears me up inside
Don't let our love fade away
No matter what people say
I need you more and more each day

Can't we try just a little bit harder
Can't we give just a little bit more
Can't we try just a little bit harder
Can't we give just a little bit more
Can't we try just a little more passion
Can't we try just a little less pride
Love you so much baby
Tears me up inside

tsk

2006-10-06T16:44:00.000+08:00

Naiinis ako.

oh, i'm not gonna use my friendster anymore. wala lang. nakakawalang gana na kasi eh. i'm just getting frustrated with what i'm seeing there. haay. i'm just gonna check it if there are messages there. i'll know if i'm gonna check my email. so yun. bye-bye friendster..

exam day

2006-10-05T14:41:00.000+08:00

i had my hk 93 finals exam kaninang 7am. fudge. i didn't follow the direction on the 3rd part of the exam. TRUE/FALSE modified but instead of corecting it, write the word that makes the statement wrong. so what i did is i corrected the statement. oh ha...galing. tsktsk! i hate myself! so now what???? haay...bahala na si Lord sa grade ko. HE knows naman all the efforts that i made sa subj na yun. sana kausapin niya si mam to give me a fair grade. 3 is fine..well, 2.75 is better. =) hehe.

i went home, studied for badminton (yes, we had a badminton WRITTEN exam. haha) then went to school early coz sergio asked me to (he's still sick. =c) then sinamahan si boyfriend, then went to class to take the exam, then sinamahan ulit si boyfriend na tulog sa bleachers, then went home. si boyfriend? pumasok sa swimming class niya coz may "pasmaton" (?) sila. sayang, i couldn't watch him coz i have to do something here sa bahay. rawr. edi sana, todo alaga ako sakanya right? haay...oh well.

i'm really worried about him. baka kasi mabinat siya and stuff. aww..sick baby..wawa naman,, =c basta, i promise to take care of you tom okie? *huuuuuug!*

i need to sleep. i lack sleep already. i could see dark circles around my eyes na. eek! tumatanda nako..nooooooooo!!!

*i love you so much! *mwah* ♥

9 months!!! ♥

2006-10-04T20:14:00.000+08:00

yipee! 9 months already! uh-huh uh-huh! i'm just so happy!! =)

even though we worked the whole afternoon, i had fun with him. had lunch with him sa katipunan then seeing him get sick (again) and taking care of him...happy mehn..yehes. :)

oh, we had this HK 92 interclass compet. sobrang STRESS. haay..still, enjoy naman siya. masaya! :p

i love you baby! and what i have to say to you today, they're all in the letter. i know you read it already but still! hehe. looooooooooooooovvvvvveeeeee!!!! ♥♥♥

Finals sa first aid bukas. PUTANGINA. don't ask. ehk.

2006-10-03T19:02:00.000+08:00

"...Now on second thought maybe we'll give
This love another try
'Cause I can't see you with no one else
I'm selfish I can't lie
So let's go, let's go slow
You know all you need to know
It could end one day but
Let's just say we'll see how far it goes ..."
---Pls Baby Don't-Sergio Mendes

what a day

2006-10-03T16:36:00.000+08:00

yesterday, Ateneo lost. boooo! i hate it. i'm still devastated about it. pota, bitter...haaay...

bitter...sobra..

SO ANYWAY..

i had a rough morning kanina. i so hated myself for doing those things. I REALLY HATE MYSELF. i keep on messing it up. now im stuck with a deal that's so unfair for me. oh well, atleast i still got what i want. i think i deserve that deal. God, help me..coz i'm still trying to understand everything.

I'm happy that things are ok now for the both of us..but there's still sadness inside me. starting today, everything's gonna be different...i think. haay..

that's my life. i was about to give up na nga kanina. but there's something inside me that keeps on pushing me to still hang-on and never give up. Naaawa nako sa sarili ko pero i need, have and want to do this. LOVE pare. i'm having emotional conflicts inside me right now...i need help. i want to be different. i want to show him i've improved. I REALLY WANT TO CHANGE!

i'm so desperate...shit. i'm just gonna hope that what we've agreed upon will work fine for us.

all i need to do now is to hope and believe. i just wish i have the enough faith to do that.

sad..yet happy.. =S

i love you so much..

this one's for you VICKA. =)

2006-09-30T16:43:00.000+08:00

just keep pokin'. =p

honooo....

2006-09-30T16:21:00.000+08:00

ok. Juniors division. Ateneo won. (aymzowprowdovyew guyz!) yeah boi. =)

it's a sign baby! *prays*

ANIMO ATENEO! (oh yeah. feel like you're an ATENISTA. =p )

loves et. ;)

kahit sa TV nalang ako nanonood, feel ko parin. naka-ATENEO shirt ako ngayon mehn. f na f ko. sureee na... haha! =p

Seniors game na...it's time. =)

haha! GO ATENEO!!! ♥

yey!

2006-09-29T09:21:00.000+08:00

still, no classes..yeah boi. nacancel nanaman exam ko for today. wee! i loved the typhoon..it made my academic life..uhh..peaceful..? haha!

pero yesterday was a total disaster..no communications whatsoever..ang hirap mehn. labo ng signal ng sun, malabo rin ang globe--lag palagi. tapos yung phone namin, biglang dead. bad trip coz nung ako na yung gagamit, boglang nawala. amp..sa sobrang inis ko kahapon, i just slept. nakatulugan ko tuloy yung kaisa-isang katext ko nun...si sergio. hehe. sorry baby! *mwah*

i dunno if i'm gonna go out later..wala pang tubig samin..pota. kating-kati nako. but take note! HINDI AKO MABAHO. hahaha! =p

*bakit mo binaba yung phone kanina?? sinagot ko lang yung callwait eh..haay..oh well, i just hope na tumawag ka ulit coz i can't make any outgoing calls. BV. rawr. anyway, i love you! ♥

stormy (and VERY windy) day

2006-09-28T08:46:00.000+08:00

yey! no classes today! =) that means, cancelled yung lahat ng exams ko today! weee!!! haha! i was too lazy to study kasi yesterday...it was so cold and i wanted to sleep all night long! God answered my prayer...thanks Lord! =) sana tom din walang pasok para wala narin ako exam sa hk 109..haha! =)

the only problem is, it's gonna be super boring here sa house. yikes..kung hindi ba naman kasi malakas yung hangin eh siguro makakalabas pako. hahaha! even the storm couldn't stop me from going out..haha! =p

cancelled 2nd game ng Ateneo-Ust. aww..sa sat nalang daw. can't wait can't wait!! =)

i'm running out of things to write. gotta go. ♥

* i loooooooove you!!! hugs&kisses ♥♥♥

dancing in september

2006-09-27T16:37:00.001+08:00

F.U.N. =)

i got to UP at around 8am because we had this first aid thingy for the Judo Interclass competition. astig ng mga babae sa hk...ang lalakas eh! hehe. they always won compared to the boys..hay nako..mahiya naman kayo! haha! =p i dunno if hk got the most gold medals..SANA. =)

after that, Dancing in September naman. yeah. =)

i danced with my advance streetdance class. yeah boi, break dancin' ka buh?! haha! sergio watched..yipee!! too abd di na nakaabot si joey love..tagal kasi eh. aww...don't feel guilty love. ok lang tlaga. sorry na rin kung kelangan ko ng umalis kagad. i have so many exams tom kasi eh. next time, promise. =)

baby, thanks for watching! it is very much appreciated that you watched my performance. =) yey! love love ko baby ko! *mmmmmwaaaaaahhh* ♥♥♥

haay..buong araw na may exam bukas. rawr...time to study. pfft. =

ONE BIG FIGHT!

2006-09-25T17:24:00.000+08:00

haha! i just love saying that. =p

yesterday, i went to watch the UAAP finals game between ATeneo and UST with my love, joey! =)

the game was soooooooo exciting! intense is the word that could best describe it. =) sobrang astig ng ateneo kasi last 1 sec...nagkamiracle shot from kramer. yeah boi..we believe! haha! =)) it was so funny coz i was the only one who's wearing blue and cheering for ateneo in the "yellow crowd". oh ha, sinong makapal ang mukha at mayabang diyan?! hahaha! pero it was fun naman..i enjoyed watching alot with Joey. =) thanks love! *mwah*

oh, i got my tiger ears already..and the "book". hmm..interesting.. =p

Sergio's back from davao. yey! he got us (my family and i. hehe) pasalubongs (plural kasi marami. haha)! he got my mom a pearl bracelet, my dad some pastries and me? tantantan....a pearl necklace! it was so niiiiiiiiiceeee! loved it! he wore it nga sakin eh..and i was surprised to see that necklace. biro mo, he's not that type who gives material stuff (or any stuff at that matter. hehe) pero he gave me a necklace...awww....sweet. =) thanks so much baby! i REALLY loved it! =) oh, magiging akin din yung bracelet..hahaha! =p

super saya ko ngayon kahit na hindi ko nakuha kay sergio (ahem!) ang gusto ko...hahahaha! disappointed baby. tsktsk. =p

*i loooooooooooove you!!! and i'll always will! *mwah*

*** a very clumsy moment: kanina, in school sergio and i went to the ISSI bldg. to do something *ahem* and when we're going back to the gym na, while walking down the stairs i fell! super poised pa pagkahulog ko...tapos si sergio di ako sinalo. tsktsk..bad baby. di man lang ako sinave...*sigh* nice boyfriend. haha. so ngayon ang sakit ng hips ko pati ng neck ko (huh?!). oh well..funny talaga. wala lang. =p

coolness

2006-09-24T09:42:00.000+08:00

saturday night

2006-09-24T08:49:00.000+08:00

last night was a fun. i got home very, very late because bries' mom doesn't want us to leave yet. ehe. anyway, i was so surprised because there weren't that much guests and there were so many vacant tables. the UP people are just a few..those who are expected didn't come. aww..and the party started so late. i got so hungry.. =c hehe. when bries finally got down, she was beautiful. loved her gown..and the program was fun as well. too bad sergio was not there at the 18 roses thingy..ang touchy nung mga descriptions sa mga tao. and oh, i was so amazed because i got to see and talk again with most of my batchmates in miriam...i missed them so much! so bonding naman ako with some of them while waiting for dinner...aww.. =)

the program was great...the mCHS PEpsquad HArdcourt performed a dance number with bri ( aww...i missed you guys so much!) na super nainggit kami ni anne. haha! dibale babes, we're gonna dance together again next time! =) and the band of Gem and his friends was super good. loved their music. =)

all in all, the party wasn't that bad after all. though there were not that plenty of guests, it was still a blast and i could tell bries enjoyed it. =) i love you, love! HAppy birthday! ♥

later, i'm gonna watch the finals of the UAAP with Joey...Ateneo vs UST. yeah! GO ATENEO!!! wee!! haha! =p

*i miss you! yey! uwi kana later... =) i love u so much!! ♥

hollywood partey

2006-09-23T18:21:00.000+08:00

ok, so in just a few moments, i will be going to my good friend Bries' "hollywood party". it's ehr 18th bash kasi, hollywood yung theme. it took me 4 hours sa mall para lang maka oput up ng attire ko for the party. oh, ha, san ka pa...glam na ito. haha!

oh, and i learned something. thanks to vicka. tadaaaaa!!! ---> ♥♥♥

ayan naman, wiling-wili nako sa kakagawa niyan. kyot. ♥ =p

* baby, i so wish that you're here tonight..para di parents ko ang kasma ko sa party ni bri. =c oh well. pasalubong ko! gusto ko bearcat. cuddly bearcat! yey! haha! =p aymeezyewzowmats! uwi ka na..pls? ehe. =) i loooooooooove you!!!♥♥♥♥

yeah boi. love the hearts. ♥♥♥

since sergio's way down south..

2006-09-22T12:17:00.000+08:00

sound trip nalang tayo. yehey. haha! =) (pagbigyan..may PMS kasi eh. haha)

Breaking Up Is Hard To Do
Renee Olstead(Renee Olstead)

Don't take your love away from me
Don't you leave my heart in misery
If you go then I'll be blue'
Cause breaking up his hard to do

Remember when you held me tight
And you kissed me all through the night
Think of all that we've been through
Breaking Up Is Hard To Do

They say that breaking up is hard to do
Now I know, I know that it's true
Don't say that this is the end
Instead of breaking up I wish that we were making up again
We were making up again

I beg of you
Don't say goodbye
Can't we give our love just one more try
Come on baby, let's start a new'
Cause breaking up is hard to do

~*~

A Love That Will Last
Renee Olstead

I want a little something more
Don't want the middle or the one before
I don't desire a complicated past I want a love that will last

Say that you love
Say im the one
Don't kiss and hug me and then try to run
I don't do drama
My tears don't fall fast
I want a love that will last

(Chorus) I don't want a just a memory
Gives me forever
Don't even think about saying good-bye
Cuz i want just one love to be enough
And remain in my heart till i die

So call me romantic
Oh i guess that must be so
Theres something more that you oughta know
I'll never leave you
So don't even ask
I want a love that will last

Forever
I want a love that will last
I want a love that will last

(Chorus) I don't want a just a memory
Gives me forever
Don't even think about saying good-bye
Cuz i want just one love to be enough
And remain in my heart till i die

So theres little more that i need
I wanna share all the air you breathe
I'm not the kinda girl to complicate the past
I want a love that will last

Forever
I want a love the love that last
Always
I just want a love that will last
Want a love that will last

love this song

2006-09-22T12:09:00.000+08:00

NEVER MY LOVE
The Association

You ask me if there'll come a time
When I grow tired of you
Never my love
Never my love

You wonder if this heart of mine
Will lose its desire for you
Never my love
Never my love

What makes you think love will end
When you know that my whole life depends
On you (on you)
Never my love
Never my love

You say you fear I'll change my mind
And I won't require you
Never my love
Never my love

How can you think love will end
When I've asked you to spend your whole life
With me (with me, with me)

PMS sucks!

2006-09-22T12:04:00.000+08:00

i'm having my menstrual cramps right now...it's so painful! i didn't go to school na nga coz i couldn't walk and stay standing that long. rawr. i hate this day! actually, yesterday din. long story basta it's all this stupid dysmennorhea's fault...*sighs*

anyway, last wed. our advance ballroom class had this ballroom dance compet. held at the college of social work. grabe, experience talaga siya. that was the first time i entered a competition that i danced ballroom. super kinakabahan talaga ako. my parents watched...just them. sergio wasn't able to watch becasue of some reasons..and for me, they were kinda lame. but oh well, i understood naman so i didn't make kulit him to still go and watch. i was so jealous of my other classmates coz their boyfriends were there and supporting them. mine, wala. but i still appreciated his effort to text me before the compet. yeah..but still, that kinda made me hurt. la lang...maybe becasue i'm too inggit of my classmates. oh well. thank God, i dealt with that in a positive way.

my partner and i made it through the semi-finals round. too bad we didn't win. but it was ok.. we had fun naman eh. yey! :)

oh, oh! the high school kids were sooooo GOOD. as in! haha, la lang! :) congrats to all the winners! :)

i arrived home very, very late so the next day i was so sabog. plus a sudden menstrual cramps just tops everything off. how cool could my day get yesterday..pfft.

ok, so enough of my PMS moments. sergio's at the airport right now with his family. they're going to davao and stay there til sunday. aww...missing baby.. =p you guys take care there ok? pasalubong ko! haha! kiddin'. oh, be a good baby...please?

i love you so much!! and i'm very sorry for being very masungit and for irritating you yesterday. PMS, pls understand nalang.. *mwah* lovelove!

loves et. =)

2006-09-18T20:53:00.000+08:00

[baby] Sergio: baby baby baby =)
camie: what?
[baby] Sergio: may poem ako for you..
[baby] Sergio: wait..
camie: game
camie: !
[baby] Sergio: You came from my dreams,Filling my heart.Walking beside me,Holding me closeThe gentleness you bestowed upon meThe closeness we shareLeaves me in awe of you.
So many truths of dreams and desiresHeld so tight.Hidden just below the surfaceA heart no longer silentThe need to share the realityOf such purity of essence
You see me as I amI wear no mask before youStanding vulnerable, shy, soft, and lovingNo pretending, it is very realYou're not my imagination,But what was missing from my soul
A piece of cloth,Woven so close.Threads intertwinedEach touched by the other.Held tight, each making the other strongWith every thread, it becomes more completeOne in the same, each enhancing the other
Do we stand and questionThe purity of this moment
[baby] Sergio: Together in sight of a common goalOr merely brushing it aside, and settlingWith a mere existence
Will we have the courageTo open our hearts,Letting our souls reach out,Sharing completely
Knowing this could be ... that last chanceCould we just walk away ?Or reach for all the dreams to come true
camie: you just never fail to make my smile, do you?
camie: aww..love it. san mo naman nakuha yan?
[baby] Sergio: hehe.. thats what i do best baby! mwah

~*~

yeah.. =) love you! <3

ho-hum

2006-09-18T19:29:00.000+08:00

i'm bored...yep..when did i never get bored? rawr.

i want my tiger ears na! joey love, where are they?? game nako maging tiger..haha! RAWRRR. (with matching hand gesture)

game nakong mangakit ng isang tao diyan..let's get it on, babe! haha! hussssssshhhhhhh...

see, bored bored BORED! ehk.

**i looooooooove you! congrats sa pagkapanalo sa PS2 game kanina! videogame freak..eek! haha! *mwahmwah*

life's good.. (yeah boi)

2006-09-17T20:22:00.000+08:00

oh, so, so good! yupyup! i'm just so happy..why? we're ok na! =) all i need pala is palamigin ang ulo niya...woooohooooo!! yeah boi..aylaveet. =)

anyway, last night we went to our blockmate Danya's debut at Albergus Resto. [belated] happy birthday dearest!! =) it was a fun night..the food was ok.. hehe =) saya nung mga taga-hk..sobrang kulit! we had fun just by entertaining ourselves..haha. loves et. after that, i went home narin kagad...i was so darn sleepy na kasi. rawr. sergio and i went home na..uish. =) he spent the night here ;)

kanina naman, i went to araneta coll. to watch the UAAP basketball semis with my dahling Joey. =) ok, so i thought yung womens game lang ang papanoorin namin..but noooo! di na kami umalis ng araneta coz we stayed na to watch the other women's and juniors game plus the Ateneo-Adamson and Ue-Ust games..coolnees. sumakit ang ulo at major energy level down to the highest level ako..haha! di gna seryoso...ang hyper ko nung morning pero pagdating nung ue-ust game, wala na..bangag nako. hahaha!

congrats to all the winners! oh, oh! i so missed this: GO ATENEO!!!! haha! missed cheering that. =p

i gotta end this na. i'm super tired and my head's kinda hurtin' already..hehe. lovelove! *mwah*

* i loooooooooooooooooooooooooovvvveeeee you baby!! =) i'll never let you go! uish! =p *mwah*

hanging on

2006-09-16T06:21:00.000+08:00

i just couldn't do it.

last night, vicka and i were talking about a probable solution to our problem. so i tried talking to him right after that. but when i heard his voice already, something stopped me from saying to or asking him what i was about to ask. i just can't..di ko kaya. i realized as we were "talking". so i decided to end our conversation and sobrang init na rin ng ulo mo and i don't want it to get worse. i just couldn't bear to prolong this agony..*sigh*

at hindi ko parin matake yung profile mo sa friendster...shit, natatakot ako.. =c

atleast, im not making kulit you anymore. i'm not making "habol" or something. i just want you to calm down and no matter how long that will take, i'm willing to wait. i know you don't want to talk to me right now so i'm just gonna shut up as well. i hope you're satisfied na with that...

i'm tired of messing up everything. i'm tired of wanting to correct that mess at that instant. if you want to prolong this, fine. i just want us to be ok and get back to normal..

oo, 1 week kitang ginanito. sorry na..di ko naman kasi ineexpect na maging ganito yung week natin eh.

Oh God, pls give me the strength to hang-on to this..coz i'm about to let go already and i really don't wanna do that. please, just give us another chance..

thanks vicka for lending me your ears last night..i really needed someone to listen. soulmates din tayo..haha. =) thanks din sa kabangagan mode kagabi..ALPP..the best, bentang benta eh. hahaha! =)

*i'm really sorry about everything...i know that i caused this problem and i'm going to fix it. just trust me..pls? that's all i need..

to sergio

2006-09-15T22:44:00.000+08:00

Love
by Pablo Neruda

What's wrong with you, with us, what's happening to us? Ah our love is a harsh cord that binds us wounding us and if we want to leave our wound, to separate, it makes a new knot for us and condemns us to drain our blood and burn together. What's wrong with you? I look at you and I find nothing in you but two eyes like all eyes, a mouth lost among a thousand mouths that I have kissed, more beautiful, a body just like those that have slipped beneath my body without leaving any memory. And how empty you went through the world like a wheat-colored jar without air, without sound, without substance! I vainly sought in you depth for my arms that dig, without cease, beneath the earth: beneath your skin, beneath your eyes, nothing, beneath your double breast scarcely raised a current of crystalline order that does not know why it flows singing. Why, why, why, my love, why?

haaay...

2006-09-15T21:50:00.000+08:00

one thing that i learned this day...

keep your friggin' mouth shut.

yeah boi. that's the one.

bring it on, babe.

losing it..

2006-09-14T18:04:00.000+08:00

ok, so i'm starting to lose myself lately. i always get irritated, hot-tempered and so angry that fast, do some scandalous things (and i mean, scandalous), i always shout, hit, push, insist what i want...basically, i'm having tantrums and guess what??! i'm 19 already.

now, my boyfriend's complaining na "nasasakal ko na daw siya". shitty, what's happening to me?! i'm not like this naman before eh...i keep on repeating my unintentional mistakes and i just couldn't learn how to control myself...

total self-destruction. jeezaz!

i desperately need a cure for this. i need to get myself together and return to the old, normal, camie that i am. i need to regain my boyfriend's trust in me...i need help!!!

i need someone to slap me on the face and tell me, "grow the fuck up, Camie!!"

he/ she who does that, is my one true friend. =)

so, please...save me from this hell inside me...

*i'm REALLY sorry... =c

help!

2006-09-13T22:19:00.000+08:00

shit, my boyfriend's being an ass again. jeezaz!

long story. no time to tell. rawr.

*save me..pls?

good morning

2006-09-13T07:30:00.000+08:00

i hate it when the first thing that happens with your morning is a nag from your parents. yup. that happened to me awhile ago and it was the lamest nag ive ever heard. broken umbrella. how cool could my morning get? sheeze..

i broke [for the nth time] my new [take note] umbrella yesterday when i was in school. i didn't mind coz what's new? my umbrella keeps on breaking itself. funny coz i didn't do anything for it to break or something..but it just did. when i told my mom that i broke it, she was so cool with it. but my dad...haha, funny. he kept on nagging me and telling me how clumsy i am and stuff. never expected that from my dad. jeeezaz!

oh well. time to buy a new one for the nth, nth, NTH time. yey...new umbrellas coming up! =p

anyway, i went to sergio's place yesterday after knowing that i err, we didn't have our hk 92 class. he got sick after we ate lunch at the SC [screw you, sc! haha!] so i accompanied him going home. stayed for awhile at his place and went back to north ave. to meet up with my parents at sm north.

upon arriving there, we [my parents and i] decided to meet at the new mall bldg. of SM. so from the mrt station to this building i walked. pota...it was a VERY long walk that when i arrived there, i was so craving for a drink. but when i saw the shoes and the clothes there [we met at the hypermarket downstairs], i forgot about everything and just have to scan these pieces. haha. after that, went straight to my cousin's place, ate dinner, watched a bit, then went home already.

later, i'm going to have a ballroom practice with my partner for our dance compet next week. haay...katamad... pfft. =

* i looooooooooooooooooove you!! *mwahmwah*

what a day..

2006-09-11T21:59:00.000+08:00

what a day. as in lahat ng energy ko used up..take note, i didn't dance. rawr. don't wanna make kwento anymore coz i really didn't like the things that happened kanina. thankfully, everything's ok already..thank you. =)

for all those i made "damay" with my "kasungitan modes" kanina, I'M SORRY...really. marami kayo, alam ko. i didn't mean na idamay kayo. sorry..

i'm really so thankful that everything turned out very well for us. i was about to give up...as in this close...whew. thanks baby. =)

anyway, we watched the UAAP Cheerdance Competition yesterday. wala, talo. haha. oh well, they were expecting it. minadali eh. dibale.. =p

i don't know why but i just don't feel like blogging today..haay..oh well...towel. [ngek]

"i choose to be different."

2006-09-10T06:58:00.000+08:00

last friday was my [other] bestfriend's 20th birthday. [belated] HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOEY!! yuck, you're out of your "teen" already...tanda mo na! but i hate you coz you still look young! argh! haha..kiddin' love. =) anyway, we had brunch at philcoa with sergio. we ate so many food! well, kami lang pala ni serge yun. haha. =) then, she stayed with us sa UP for awhile and went to school already. aww...i missed you so much joey girl. hope that sergio and i made your day special....somehow. hehe. =) *mwah*

oh, and that afternoon, i finally wathced the devil wears prada. yupyup! i'm so glad that ive finally watched that movie..after a week of making kulit to everyone. haha. yey! =p and oh, the fun part there was that i watched it all by myself. hehe. ayaw kasi akong samahan ni sergio eh..i was so desperate na kasi. haha! so there i was, inside the movie house, with couples surrounding me, enjoying my holy kettle corn. very, very fun. =p the movie was good..Anne Hathaway was so hot! especially her clothes, super! hehe. too bad i wasn't able to catch the start of the movie..pero ok lang. steady parin. =)

and because of that movie, i caught a fever and a "severe" side stitch at the right side of my body...rawr. but it was still worth it. =p

ok, so later i'm gonna watch the UAAP cheerdance compet at the araneta coll. hmm...so what's in it for the UP Pep squad today? i dunno..let's just see later during the compet.

*loooooooooooovvvvvveeeee!! hehe. *mwah*

save me..i'm bored.

2006-09-06T17:40:00.000+08:00

yeah..as in REALLY. BORED. =

wednesdays sucks..most especially when you're just stuck here sa house, with no gimmicks whatsoever. rawr.

i still want to watch the devil wears prada. super desperado nako. help me..

* i love you! mwahugz! <3

<3

2006-09-05T18:18:00.000+08:00

yesterday was so fun!! it was our 8th monthsary and it was the first time that we were back together in school! oh yeah! =) 8 months na...yea boi...going strong. =) we had our lunch date at teriyaki boy, katipunan. then, nung afternoon, after our classes, we went out. actually, DOTA muna with the two hk boys for an hour then we went somewhere na. we were supposed to watch the devil wears prada, but due to an unexpected incidence (sergio got sick), we went to his house nalang para makapag-rest na siya. it was late na when we arrived at their house and it was raining so hard..so i stayed for awhile. but yung awhile na yun medyo tumagal so they let me stay for the night their. siyempre, natuwa naman si sergio boy. hehe. =) so there..he was sick and i took care of him. aww.. =)

we went to school kanina. i went with him sa infirmary para makapag-med cert. we had no classes sa hk 92. tapos, sa katipunan, we had a little misunderstanding that led to a mild fight. hehe. but all was well afterwards. didn't go to my afternoon classes becasue i went with him ulit pauwi sakanila. after a long, quiet and masungit drive, when we arrived sa house nila, we were ok na. thanks to sergio and his uniqueness of how to make me not mad and feel better. hehe. ;) bummed around a bit then i went home narin. =)

fudge, i didn't attend classes nanaman sa UP fil. oh well, thursday...promise! =)

nakaktamad na kasi eh. i dunno but i really want to dance but i'm friggin' lazy to attend classes. rawr. sana mawala na yung feeling natoh. =

*i love you so much! and i hope that you're feeling better na. don't forget your meds ok?! *looooove*

happy. very, very happy. =)

yey!

2006-09-03T11:33:00.000+08:00

after 5 days of longing for him (haha)...i got to be with him! yey! =)

i dont wanna make kwento na. basta, ang super saya! the whole afternoon with him...yeyeye! =) loves it. i looooooooooooooooooooove him!! =) and i super duper uber missed him! haha =)

anyway, after that, i went to my cousin marlo's place. birthday niya kasi eh. [belated] HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARLO!!! much love!! =) his "party" was fun...and dami niyang friends. hehe. food trippin' and inuman sessions...i loved it. went home na at around 2:30am..all wasted and sh*t. haha! i just woke up actually and i have a terrible head ache. yawch! =p

later, i'm going to my tito. he's in the hospital kasi eh...Anaphylactic shock. yehes...first aid. ;)

* baby, baby, baby!!! i really had fun yesterday! just watching you sleep and stuff..weee! i love you!!!! *mwahmwahmwah* and oh, congrats! *hug* =)

day 5

2006-09-01T19:03:00.000+08:00

ok, so it's very weird coz i've been blogging about the days i'm not with sergio. la lang..pansin ko lang. God, i miss him that much just to write about some stuff that aren't that important naman. haay...i miss spending time with him. rawr..

anyway, school was ok. quite boring as usual. besides not having my bf around, i didn't saw bries as well. aww..too bad for me. anyway, i was so desperate to watch The Devil Wears Prada that i made kulit my blockmates to come and watch it with me. but nooo...not successful. nobody even bothered to ask me when and where. haha. poor me..*sniff*

seriously, i'm so desperate to watch that movie. i dunno why but it causght my attention and made kulit my system to watch it. i read the book na...it was nice. that's why i wanna watch that movie ASAP to see if it's as good as the book. haha.

i need a (movie) date. are you intersted to be my date??? PLEASE????

*baby, i miss spending time with you na...nakakainis kasi ang tagal matapos ng week na to. argh. oh well, induction mo na bukas...goodluck! i know you'll do good..kaw pa. i love you so much! *mwah*

movie with me...please? ;)

day 4

2006-08-31T16:56:00.000+08:00

ok, so my day went ok. i get to see sergio even for awhile...yey!!! hehe. he asked if we could meet because he needed the solicitation money na. hoo, palusot..you wanted to see me as well. haha! =p we met at AS. he looked so harrased na...poor baby. i so wish im allowed to go with you to take care of you the whole day...pero di eh. you have work and i have classes. wawa baby ko...dibale, i promise next week, you're gonna be well taken care of by me! for a week! hehe. well, i just wish that you'll always gonna take care of yourself...3 days nalng baby! lapiiiiit naaaaaaa!! haha! can't wait to be with you again. uh-huh! excited na me. =)

i went home early today. my mom was in UP and after i met sergio, i decided to go home with my mom. i didn't go to my badminton class because my mom didn't allow me to go na. i didn't rehearse din today becasue i have so many school works to do. rawr. promise sir van, next week. babawi ako. =) and di narin kasi ako pinayagan ng mom ko eh. rawr. iba talaga tong week na toh...very...lonely. oh well, i just can't wait for next week! =p

tomoroow's gonna be a brand new day. hope it's gonna be a happy day for me. =)

i love you and i miss u so damn much. i can't help it anymore...i want you by my side na talaga. rawr. ingat ka ok? *mwah*

day 3

2006-08-30T15:36:00.000+08:00

just got home from our cwts project at Cupertino School, somewhere inside La Vista subd. it was a very fullfiling day for us..especially, for me. we taught some exercise and philippine games to the special children students of that school. it was very fun yet very tiring. the kids were very amazing. they were full of energy and very friendly. i cant help but smile everytime i talk to these children. they made my day special today. thanks guys. hope u had so much fun coz i did. =)

day 3 and i'm starting tomiss sergio badly. =c he's not texting nor calling me anymore. well i guess, he's very busy na with all the projects their group have. i understand that but i just can't help missing my baby badly...pfft. =|

i so wish this week will end soon....VERY SOON. i can't wait to see him, be with him, kiss him, hug him, fight with him (haha), etc. again. haaay...wait, wait, wait...my patience is being tested again. rawry.

* i miss you so much....sorry, but i can't help it. i love you baby..ingat ka diyan. =)

day 2

2006-08-29T15:43:00.000+08:00

its a tuesday..day 2. well, it was a boring day.. i didn't go to my 8:30am class because i was throwing up the whole morning. fcuk this stupid stomach ache. argh. anyway, then i didn't have my 2:30pm class because our teach (ooh, shortcut. haha) was too lazy (i think) to attend our class today. yeah boi. i love UP teachers. if they dont feel like teaching, they wont. loves et. hehe. =p so i went home and now, i'm too lazy to go back to UP and attend rehearsals with UP filipiniana. well, my mom didn't allow me to go out again so steady lang. all i have to do now is to text sir van that i'm not going to attend rehearsals (again) today.

sh*t..i'm so not into doing anything this week. i'm too lazy to do anything..and i can't find any excuses to back that up. i just miss sergio...yeah, we text each other but i miss seeing him. and take note, 2nd day palang siya wala. takte. pfft.

oh well. ma reason nako kung bakit hindi ako makakarehearse ngayon. wala nakong pera at aalis pako bukas for our proj. for CWTS. nice.. =)

i wish that this week's gonna be that fast. i miss my baby too much already..

**uwi ka naaaaaaaaaaaa!!!! rawr. i love you. =p

day 1

2006-08-28T17:15:00.000+08:00

ok, so it's the first day of my "no boyfriend for a week". how was it? hmm...a bit unusual. hehe. =)

i'm not used to not seeing sergio for hk 102 class, not having early lunch with him at around 10, not having to scold at him for not telling where the heck he is and stuff like that. weird...seriously. but he texted me at around 11am to go to as before 12nn. unfortunately, i wasn't able to go there coz i went home ng mga 10:30. malay ko ba.. =c oh well. tapos, the meds he asked me to get from his mom arrived kanina at around 3pm. i panicked a little becuase i have no idea how to get those 2 boxes of heavy (as in) meds to sergio who's at the AS that time. a little panick thing occured and finally, i took a cab and brought them to AS na. when we met, we're kinda quiet. well, i know for sure he was tired and i was tired also. there, understood. well, medyo sinungitan ako nung kasama niya pero ok lang. care ko. hehe. ;) then after some minutes of thinking how to get those inside AS, i said goodbye to him and we kissed. then i went home narin.

haaay...that was just the first day and i miss him so much already... *sigh*

6 more days to go...sad...*frown*

hell month

2006-08-26T08:09:00.000+08:00

yup...but not because of my school, but because of my boyfriend. weird noh?

and since inoorasan moko kagabi and you're too sleepy to hear me out, i'm just gonna write everything that i want to say last night.

i know for sure that this month will be a "hell" month for the both of us. he has this induction thing and he said that the whole month he's going to be very busy. i said, ok and understood that. i let him do the things that he needed to do. i let him go to wherever he is needed even if he doesn't tell me kagad. i didn't mind. and when we talk at night, kahit na puro lait ang nakukuha ko (coz nagmamarunong ako..daw) i just accept it. i just say to myself, "baka super pagod lang toh...pabayaan ko na. shut up nalang." all of that i do, even if that's not my usual self, just because i understand your situation right now.

and for him, it's not like that. oo, i nag, i react, i usually make aguements with you and stuff but do you know why i do that? kasi you are not listening to me. you always say na pagod ka and youre sleepy...and you're like that when you're sleepy...ok, i know, i get that. but did it ever occur to you that i'm also like that when i'm worried about you? kasi naman, you don't even say where you're going and don't even reply to my texts...ako, i alot kahit konting time just to worry about you and ask where the heck you are. sana naman nagrereply ka kagad. so that i wont be waiting and looking for you all over the place. well, i already told you about that and thank you for doing it now. another thing, yung about yesterday, i was so tired and sleepy because i didn't have enough sleep, i was cramming and panicking the other night and i had a call time ng 6am...i'm sorry for being masungit. all i want lang naman kasi was to have some time alone with you..di mo ba gets yun? oo, you need to bond with your brods, pero cmon man, next week, magakakasama kayo and even if you're working you'll still have this bonding thing. all i was asking for was like 30 mins yesterday...compared to 23 hours and 30 mins and more you're going to have with them for the next few days. i'm sorry kung nadamay ko mga friends mo sa kasungitan ko. i was being quiet na nga eh. and i'm sorry if i didn't mingle with them yesterday. what do you expect? i was irritated na nga. i am masungit when i'm irritated...and if your friends have any problems with that, i'm so sorry..i'm just like that. kahapon lang naman yun eh...i bet the next time we're going to meet di nako ganun. nagkataon lang.

did you know what pissed me off yesterday? because i was expecting something from you, knowing that we're not gonna be together for the whole week next week. yeah, you texted me..you want to see me. i appreciate that. pero sana naisip mo man lang na 1 week tayo di magkikita and you could have spent some alone time with me. wala eh. nakita mo lang na medyo masungit ako, wala na. di na umeffort. oo nakakainins na masungit ako, pero sana man lang, kahit minsan, do something about that...make me feel better. maglambing ka naman..pero hindi eh. wala. naglaro ka nalang with your friends and you just asked if i was ok. yun.

maybe you're right...maybe all of this is because of you and your induction thingy. maybe i just couldn't fully understand what is instore for us this month. but i am trying to really understand all of them. i am actually. and for you, i'm not much of a help this month and i dont support you with your induction thing. but you're wrong. i do love to help you (even if you did not give me a chance to prove it) and you do have my full support. kasi naman, you always say na puro salita lang ako. di mo kasi napapansin, kaya kinukulit kita, kasi pnuprove ko sayo na kaya kong gawin lahat ng sinabi ko. but no..you're just too tired and sleepy to see that.

oh well, 1 week tayong di magkikita. it's the start of the week that i'm worried of. but i know you're going to be fine and you'll do good in your induction. i just pray that when you come back, everything will be alright na.

i love you so much..those are not just words. i mean them.

boredom

2006-08-24T15:13:00.000+08:00

i'm totally bored. i have no classes na and i'm here at some internet caf at the bahay ng alumni...doing nothing. iw as supposed to do the handouts for hk 109 but unfortunately, i didn't receive the email of bries. sorry bri! cud u email it to me again? hehe. oh well..i just have to wait for it...*sigh*

i'm checking my friendster, multiply and blog all at the same time. how to kill time...perfect.

oh, yesterday, sergio was at my place. actually, he slept there last tues night because it was my mom's birthday (happy birthday mom! <3 ) and she let sergio sleep at our place. aww...how sweet. haha! came home late last tues..ate dinner at around 11pm na coz it was friggin' traffic papasok sa fairview. and slept at around 1am na. haha. coolness. =)

*** love you so much, baby love!!! *mwahmwah* =)

ok, so next week will be one hell of a week for me. no sergio for one week... =,c *sniff* imma miss my baby... *sad*

what makes camie happy? =)

2006-08-22T16:36:00.000+08:00

1. God/Christianity (i just love attending sunday worships)

2. Sergio <3 ('nuff said. =) )

3. Dancing

4. white chocolates/ chocolates

5. sylvester the cat

6. the color orange (bright bright!)

7. flowers (more on the tulips)

8. the number 4

9. my barkada/bestfriends

10. unlimited ice cream!

11. puyatan moments with my bf

12. phone calls by sergio

13. inuman sessions with my barkada

14. lunch dates with sergio

15. flip flops

16. lip gloss

17. sweet nothings of sergio

18. clothes

19. accessories

20. camwhoring

21. going to sergio's place (adventure)

22. hanging out with sergio at his/my plcae ;)

23. tight hug

24. soft kisses

25. warm smiles from everyone (hehe)

and so much more..hehe. =)

partay!

2006-08-21T10:11:00.000+08:00

last saturday, i went to dang's post-birthday party at Esquinita. but before going there, i went to sergio's place. la lang..just to prove something to him. haha. we just chilled (haha) there...bummed around and stuff. =) tapos, akala ko you're really not coming with me...i was surprised nalang that he took a bath, and his parents kept on asking me where that place is and how to get there and stuff...in fairness, napangiti mo ako. hehe. =) so, we were all dressed up and we went to timog na.

we took the mrt and we arrived at the gma-kamuning station at around 8:45pm. we waited for issa kasi sumabay kami papunta dun sa place. when we arrived there, nandun na sila dang and melai. so all of us had our dates except for...melai. aww...she was so pissed off sa date niya coz ayaw talagang pumunta. so, nagbonding nalang sila ni sergio. hehe. =) we had so many drinks and food..we just talked and talked and talked...alot. =) we had some pictures too. after that drinking session, we went to starbuck's just to have coffee and chill. after that, we went home narin.

sergio slept at our place. medyo kasi 2am na kami nakauwi eh. hehe. it's fun that he slept here...la lang. =) we were so sleepy and wasted na kasi. the next day, he also went with us sa lunch thingy namin sa bahay ng tita ko. he met my tita, tito and grandma who came from australia. after eating, he went home narin kasi may fiesta pa sakanila. aww... =)

super thanks baby for coming with me last saturday and yesterday. i had SOOOOOOO much fun! i looooooooooooooooove you so much! *mwah mwah*

basketball game

2006-08-16T17:05:00.000+08:00

i just came from UP. i watched my baby's basketball game (05 vs 02). it was a close game but unfortunately, our batch lost. infairness, nag-OT pa sila ah..oh well. my baby did great...i'm impressed with his basketball skills. hehe. =)

and oh, i just realized something today. i was sop stupid for thinking of that for the past months. now, nakita ko na ng malaitan, i have nothing to worry about pala. haha. sergio knows this..let's just keep it to ourselves. hehe ;)

today yung shoot for zsa-zsa zaturna...too bad i wasn't allowed to join that. layo kasi eh...pagsanjan..pfft. =S pero super sayang yung 8,ooo pesos na bayad dun! 8 shoots kasi, 1,ooo per shoot. damn it...oh well. may dadating pa na opportunity yan...sana..hehe. =)

*nice game baby.. =) you were awesome kanina. i had fun watching you play and get so sweaty...so hot. haha! and oh, now i know i have nothing to worry about. but you still have NO right to do something bad behind my back..okay??? haha. i love you soooooo much!!! *hugs&kisses*

i have no friggin' idea...haha

2006-08-13T18:09:00.000+08:00

i'm here at my grandma's place somewhere in kamias. we just came from medical city becasue my lolo was confined there naman. haay...heaven talaga dun sa place na yun. haha! =) went to CCF before that and attended a supposedly 1 hour and 30 mins service that turned out to be a 2 hour service...tiring yet motivating...inspiring din. hehe. =)

yesterday i went to sergio's place. we ate lunch at kfc katipunan then we went na to his house. nahuli pa nga kami ng mmda sa may malapit na sakanila coz naispatan ako ng isang mmda na hindi naka-seat belt. haha..stupid. so we're fined 250 pesos. oh yeah. =S baby, promise i'm gonna pay that fine. sorry... =)

oh well. hehe. still love YOU though.. =)

one week

2006-08-12T12:39:00.000+08:00

ok. updaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaattttttttttttteeeeeee!!! =)

this week's been a hell. super tiring with all the dance rehearsals and the worrying (dont ask) that ive been through. but i cud say that i went all through that quite good...not. i look and feel awful na nga eh. rawr..

let's start it off with the never-ending wirrying moments that im going through since this month started. yep...the long waits for texts, replies and call from him just make this month very interesting and tiring for me. yeah...the sleepless nights and the "puyats" that i've been having coz i kept on waiting for his texts, etc. kahit inaantok na ako super at yung eyes ko ay super bulgy na, wala...hintay parin. pota..haha. haaay...

tapos, yung UPfil trainings pa. i got a lump on my lower back and some bruises sa knees and elbows ko. take not: elbows...both of 'em. haha. ewan. pesteng no matter what yan..core na gna eh ngkaganito pa katawan ko. rawry...exhausting yet super fun naman yung dance..hehe. *wink*

tapos ngayon, bagong issue naman...JEALOUSY. haha. mahabang story...basta napagod ako sa kakatampo at kakaisip ng mga stuff...rawr. in fairness, i was so jealous because of her, it, them, ewan na di nalang ako nagsalita and stuff. wow, something new...

and he's playing dota right now...katabi ko siay actually. haay...supposed to be my day with him...yeah, watching him play dota. sigh sigh sigh...well, atleast, he's not doing some stupid stuff...right? and we're gonna have lunch after this..ang tagal ng oraaaaaaaaaaaassss.... =c

don't blame me for still thinking about some stuff...i don't know how and what to react to what i've read sa inbox mo...yeah, i trust you but why am i still doubting??? assurance baby...i think i NEED that...

nagger

2006-08-07T16:33:00.000+08:00

eeek! today, i just realized how it is to be a nagger. yep, as much as i don't want to be just like my mom, to my surprise, i was being like my mom. eeek! it just freaks me out... :S

ok, so here's the story. yesterday kasi, sergio wasn't reaplying to all of my texts the whole day. as usual, i got SO pissed off. the whole day yesterday i was acting like a bitch and it's like i hated everything yesterday...plus the fact that i called him a dozen of times last night when our conversation was suddenly cut off by the network and when i called him again, he wasn't answering his phone na. oh, i bet that his missed call list contains one entry...me. i got pissed off by that again and i fell asleep with that feeling.

SO, kaninang morning, i woke up so pissed. i went to school and was late for my 7am class because of the stupid traffic in commonwealth...so that just added to my pissed off thingy. hooray for me. anyway, after my hk 93 class, hk 102 naman. sergio didn't come to class so that made me worry and pissed off again...after class, i called him and asked where he was. he said that he's still at home and he just woke up. eto ang the best...my goodmorning greeting to him was *tantantan* a solid, high-pitched, morning breaker NAG. yep...i nagged at him endlessly that morning. siyempre, nabwiset naman si sergio. so when he arrived in school, ayan, masungit. total kasungitan. nabad trip nanaman ako...so, medyo nagkalabuan kami nung morning. he went na to his class and i sat at the benches outside. during my quiet time alone, i just realized how pathetic i was that morning. yuck, nagger si camie. sobrang iniiwasan ko kayang matulad sa nanay kong nagger din. nakakabwiset eh. but it turned out that i'm just like her. yikes...freakiness.. =S

anyway, after an hour and 30 mins of waiting, we finally cooled down na. ok na approach namin sa isa't-isa and nag move on na kami. i went to my badminton class na and he played basketball narin. yey. =)

baby, i understand why you were so masungit kanina...i'm sorry for ruining your morning because of my nagging... =c sorry baby..won't happen again, promise. =) and oh, one thing lang, magreply ka kasi diba? para di ako nabibwiset at nadadamay pa tuloy kita. just a simple, one-liner reply or text would be ok to me. okie? *mwah* i love you so much! i'm really sorry...
ok, so time to move on now. midterms namin tom sa hk 109. musta naman, 100 items...wow. oh well, gotta study na. toodles. =p

sunday

2006-08-06T11:08:00.000+08:00

it's a sunday morning...and it's so freaking hot! argh! i'm here at an internet place near our house..sobrang init dito. and puro kids..haha! still, ang init...rawr.

anyway, birthday ni DANG ngayon!....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANGY!!!! enjoy your day! *mwah* i love you duday!!! and i miss u! kelan celebration natin??! haha! *mwah*

2nd day ng UPCAT ngayon. good luck sa lahat ng magtatake. and nasa UP nanaman si sergio...hmm...naglunch na kaya siya? musta naman kaya siya dun?? shux, i just cant help not to worry about my baby...*sigh* oh well, i just hope that he's being a good boy there. haha! =p

baby, please take care there ok? and don't tire yourself too much...baka mastress ka lalo diyan, magkasakit ka...dont forget to eat ok?? *mwah* i love you so much! and i can't wait to hear from you.. =)

haay..this day sucks. BORING. :S

2006-08-05T09:50:00.000+08:00

finally...my internet's ok na. during the rainy days, it was kinda whacked. rawr. so, updaaaaaaaate!!! haha. =)

last sunday, we (UP Filipiniana) had a show in ateneo. we danced for a mass in commemoration of the feast of St. Ignatius. (oh yeah) there were a lot (as in) of people...and food! haha! after our performance, they gave us free food! lots of them actually. =) sobrang pig out..saya. haha. after that, my mom and dad picked me up in katipunan and we went home. i was tired...of eating. hehe. =)

this week's fun....got to spend it with my baby. loves et. uber. haha! =)

oh, yesterday was our 7th monthsary. yep, 7 months and still going strong! oh yeah!! =) we practically spent the whole day together...ate lunch at Wok Dis Way (as in, EAT LUNCH. haha) and just hanged around...*wink* had lots of fun with him. too bad nung hapon he had to go to do his thingies and stuff. aww.. =c oh well, i'm mjust so glad that we reached 7 months...who would ever thought of us still going strong?? with all the fights & misunderstandings we had before...we're just soooooo happy. yey! =)

*** i love you soooooo much sergio!!! i always do. =) thanks for yesterday! *mwah*

UPCAT today and tom...sergio's in UP, helping..haay...this month's gonna be so sad for me..he's so busy for his induction thingy and a week of not seeing him will just sucks...haaay...oh well. can't wait for this to end...

=)

tiredness

2006-07-29T19:46:00.000+08:00

i never felt this tired for the past 3 months...rawr. something new but i like it. hehe.

been rehearsing for our show tom in ateneo. yep, actually, we're gonna dance for the mass of those Jesuits. feast day kasi ni St. Ignatius. =) so kanina, we rehearsed there. the dancing was ok...learned some new dance for tomorrow's performance. but! the fan dance in that singkil dance was....aaaargggh! struggle, super. hehe. we ended at around 6pm na..almost the whole afternoon ung rehearsals..rawr..

i have 2 blisters and a toe-sprain on my left foot. toe-sprain...yeah. so super sakit tuloy ng left foot ko. musta naman ang mga turns and grande jetes dyan..*sigh*

haaay...and he's not replying...sad, sad, sad... pfft. =(

oh well, i still loooooooove him!!! i love you, i love you, I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE YOU, SERGIO! =p *huuuugg!*

why are we living so far away from each other kasi eh..rawr..

and oh, i saw your shoutout..hmm...disappointed??? of what? is it because of yesterday when we didnt do....something?? haha! aminin..!=p

hahaha! la lang. *mwah*

sigh..

2006-07-27T19:49:00.000+08:00

you know how it feels when you didn't see a person for a long time and you so miss him then finally, you guys see each other but never have the time alone with each other? diappointing noh? VERY actually.. =c

ok, so here's the deal. i missed him so much coz i didn't see him for 4 days. i got so excited when i saw him awhile ago in school. i was so thinking that we're gonna have some time together, since we missed each other so much. ok, so i was only WISHING. he asked if he could play billiards with our other blockmates..i said yes, eveb though deep inside i didn't want to. i did that coz he might complain that im being selfish again and stuff. and it was something new..atleast, not DOTA. still hoping that i could have some time along with him, i texted him and asked one of our classmates to tell him to come back at around 11am. but noo...he left his cell in his locker and our classmate forgot to tell him my message. *sigh* so there i was, waiting for no one. when he arrived at around 11:30 ( he had a 11:30 class), nakasimangot ako. i was kinda irritated coz i was so into being with him just for 30 mins only coz we won't have any time to be together after that. i had a class at 1 and he had a class at 4. then, i had training ng 4. super malabo na talaga na magkita kami. so super naghanap talaga ako ng time just to be with him coz i missed him so damn much. but no. he thought that i was mad or something..na inaaway ko nanaman siya. i just let him go to his class and i had lunch nalang...alone. well, atleast we saw each other for awhile pa before my class. after that, wala na. we didn't see each other na. i trained and he went to his meeting..

i was so damn disappointed. not at you (well, a little) but with circumstances. pero eto lang, sana you had the initiative to be with me..you know, just the two of us. matagal tayong di nagkita. sana man lang inuna mo muna ako bago sakanila.. =c

oh, pls don't think that i'm mad or something. i'm not. and i'm sorry if i acted that way kanina. i just want to let my bad feelings out through this blog. but i'm ok now.. =)

i love you so much baby.. =) *hug & kiss*

2006-07-26T09:48:00.000+08:00

Martyr Niyebera
Kamikazee

Kinukumpleto mo ang araw ko
Sa tuwing inaaway mo
Pag gising sa umaga
Mukha mo ang nakita
Wala pang nagawa naka simangot na

At pag sapit ng gabi
Tampo lalong lumalaki
Ang gusto ko lambingan
Ngunit may unan na namamagitan

(chorus)
Ang almusal ay sigawan
Ang hapunan natin ay tampuhan
Ang merienda pagdududa

Pero mahal kita
Wala ng hahanapin pang iba
Handa akong mag tiis
Kahit na away away away na to

Nahuli lang ng ilang minuto
Di na kikibo
Na trapik lang sa kanto
Di naman gwapo
Naisip mo agad nang chicks ako

Simple lng naman
Ang pinag-mulan
Pinahaba ang usapan
Di naman kailangan
Mahabang away nanaman

(chorus)

Kahit na sabihin
Na naliligo ka sa sampay
Di mo masasabi
Na hindi kita minamahal
Ang daming mong babae
Wala ka pang trabaho
Ngunit kahit ganun
Ay nandito lang ako
Nandito lang ako

(chorus)

~*~

sergio asked me to listen to that song. i asked why, he just said that i should listen to that song. then he asked me if i checked my friendster lately..i said no and asked him why? he said again that i should listen to that song...

so, i got very curiuos and i checked my friendster. then i went to his account. now i know why he asked if i checked my friendster lately..i was surprised to see a line from that lyrics on his shoutout. first thing came to my head, the song. this has got to do something with the song that he asked me to listen to. so instead of downloading it in limewire, i just downloaded its lyrics. yup, the line that i saw as his shoutout was there..so i read the whole lyrics...

nice. that's all i can say.

now i wonder, do you really think that we're like that? la lang..you don't usually do that kasi eh. i mean, asking me to listen to songs that is somehow connected to us...*sigh*

i dunno...i'm scared right now. i'm scared that he might just leave me again. and what scares me more is that i think i'm not gonna go after him na if that happens...coz i got tired of running after him whenever we have "break-ups" or "cool offs"...

come to think of it, maybe it's just ME..maybe, i'm just thinking too much or maybe i just miss him so damn much and not seeing him for 5 days already makes me think like this...*sigh*

"all will be well"

oh, i know you're gonna read this, so feel free to comment..and pls write your name. thanks..

SONA

2006-07-24T18:02:00.000+08:00

ok, so we don't have classes today. and its raining very hard. what does this mean?? BOREDOM. yep, complete boredom. i'm stuck here at home doing nothing..there's nothing good to watch on tv, no dvd's left for me to see, no food to eat (yup, starvation people) and my boyfriend's not in the mood to talk to me...i think. haay...life of a bum really sucks. most especially on rainy days..rawr. boring dude..*sigh*

anyway, it's my cousin alisa's birthday today...HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST!!! much love from your dear ate.. <3 too bad she's not having any "handaan" or something..atleast makakalabas ako ng bahay...aww...*sigh again*

i can't wait to go to school tom. kahit na super basa nanaman ang UP dahil sa ulan. atleast, there would be alot of people to hang around with and so many food to eat. and oh, i could also spend some QUALITY (emphasis) time with sergio baby..yey! haha. =) * i love you!! ;p

i know, i know...my entry's kinda whacked. senseless is the right word. sorry na me.. =p

bye na nga. toodles. =p

busy week

2006-07-23T18:29:00.000+08:00

wow..finally, update. =) this week's been quite busy. with all the schoolworks and dance practices...i couldn't find time to go online and update my blog. sorry..

anyway, i went to bulacan kanina. it was kind boring coz i went with my parents and a tita with their "field work". the place was cool though..the sights and everything..nice. =)

i had lunch with vicka marie yesterday in katipunan. saya! bonding nanaman kami. hehe. well, we met at up at around 12 and nagpahatid kami kay boyfriend hanggang katipunan. too bad sergio wasn't able to come with us..infairness, nagtampo ako nun. well, a little. hehe. anyway, suepr pig out kami ni vicx. la lang. nakakatuwa lang. haha! hope we'll have more "lunch dates" to come dear! kasi naman eh..suepr conflict mga breaks natin. rawr. haha. aylavyew! <3

oh, i also spent the night last friday at sergio's place. la lang..*wink*

and i went to his place last wednesday. we were supposed to go to greenhills coz i have some "cellphone issues" but due to the very bad weather *ahem*, di kami natuloy. so we just stayed home and bummed around. saya nga eh..super lamiiiig! hahaha! :))

thank God, there will be no classes tom for us UP peeps. thanks, SONA. haha! suepr tinatamad akong pumasok eh...with the rain and everythang..i just wanna snuggle up here sa bed ko. but i wish my baby's here..para masaya! hehe. =p

* ilove you, i love you, i love you, I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE YOU!!! *mwah* huuug! ;)

post birthday blues

2006-07-16T18:56:00.000+08:00

ok..officially, i'm 19 years old already. amp..super tanda ko na. my last eyar of being a teenager. grr! now, i'm really gonna enjoy my year this year. last hirit na eh. haay...and time flies so fast these days..*sigh*

hehe. nagdrama.. =)

anyway, my party yesterday/last night was so fun. all of my friends were here: MC barkada, UP friends...and i was surprised that there so many UP friends who came. coolness. well, an enexpected guest came and at first i was so furious about it. after one serious talk/convincing from my bf, ok na 'ko. can't do anything about it eh. anyhoo, my family was also here too..titos, titas, cousins plus their bf's (well, except for one.) it was one hell of a celebration with all the food and inuman sessions we had. wee! :) yeah...and sergio got so drunk nung gabi na...pinainom namin ng madaming tequilla eh. di sanay. hehe. aww...i had to take care of my baby tuloy nung nagsiuwian na mga cuz ko. cute-cute ng baby ko..parang...baby. hehe. =) well, i'm glad that he's ok na. had lunch with him kanina sa katip. wee! :) and oh, he gave me a basket of flowers for my birthday..tapos sinurprise pa niya ako nung morning. isn't that sweet and romantic or what??! haha! i love you so much baby!! thanks! =)

vicka (and sj), dang, issa, melai and joey: SUPER THANKS!!! you all made my bday extra special! *mwah* love you all so much!!!! *hugs and kisses* <3

UP people (dont wanna name it coz you're kinda many. hehe): thanks thanks! you made my day special too! sobrang saya niyo kagabi! hehe. hope u guys had fun and enjoyed the "drinks". haha! *mwah* love you too! see u in school! :)

oh, i have to tell one thing though...honestly, my bday was happy...but not that happy. well, everybody who came knows why. i just didn't like that idea. nagtatampo ako a little..but steady lang. wala nako magagawa eh. oh well. its done already...must go on with life now. hehe. :)

i got my hs yearbook na. FINALLY. it's nice naman...atleast, matino na ngayon. hehe.

oh, dang, i'll give yours when joey and i sees each other na. k? i'll text you. *mwah* :)

anothher week ahead of me...*gasp*

wee!!

2006-07-15T06:28:00.000+08:00

happy bday to me...happy bday to me...happy birthday, happy birthdaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay....happy birthday to ME!!!!! =)

yey!!

haha! ok, so today's my birthdy...eek! i'm 19 already. ang tanda ko na, ampu..haha! oh well, still pretty though. haha! kapal! =p

anyway, yesterday was so sweet. sergio gave me this heart-shaped, glittery box that has about a hundered of little notes in it. those cute little notes are the reasons why he loves...a hundred of 'em. aww...so sweet. super, when i was reading them i can't help smiling..saya. =) thanks baby! *mwah* i love you so much! <3

so, may "party" ako later here sa bahay...i can't wait for that. all of my friends are coming. yey! excited na me. wee!! =)

what more could a girl ask for??? ;)

love

2006-07-12T20:44:00.000+08:00

love..love...love. such a nice word. a wonderful feeling. its like you're in a trance...and you don't wanna snap out of it. its addictive. its so lovely. and what's magical about it is that it makes you so happy..so, so happy.üüü

yesterday was the day 2 of sergio's sweetness thingy. yep. last monday, a card. yesterday, 3 letters. err, should i say, lovely and sweet letters. =) he didn't give it directly to me. the first two letters were put inside my locker. then the last one was given to me by one of the "ates" at the kiosk. i was surprised to receive those letters...sergio rarely writes letters. and what's so sweet about them is that they contain poems. lovely poems that i think he wrote it himself. (right? hehe) =) that made my day...hanggang sa training, or before my training binasa ko siya. para ganahan akong sumayaw. hehe. trully inspiring.. loves 'em. ;)

kanina naman, i went to his place. la lang..lovers bum. hehe. =p i went there at around 9am...nothing to do, actually. just snuggled and stuff. ;) hehe. it was so nice just being with him and actually do nothing. you know, nakahiga lang kayo tapos wala lang...kwentuhan and stuff. i felt super special kanina. just knowing that he's beside me makes it special. with all the hugs and the kisses...saya! see, we don't need to really do something or go out somewhere...just being together can be so much fun for us. FUN FUN! hehe. ;)

that's why i love him soooooooo much! he never fails to make me happy and feel special. he never fails to surprise me with things, simple things that will actually make my day. his love is all i need to be inspired to go and live another day in my life. and i'm so lucky to have someone like him..i'm happy that i met him. :)

i love you, baby...so, so, very, very much! hehe. *mwah*

2006-07-10T21:15:00.000+08:00

Funny how people react to certain things. like for example, when someone scanned someone else's blog and read something about him or her, he or she automatically feels that the author of the blog is pertaining to that certain person. well, yeah they do actually. ;) and its so amazing coz when that reader gets so affected by it, he or she bothers the author for some clarifications, even though it was already clarified in that blog entry. haha, weird. =p

ok, so i was referring to you. got a problem with that? yeah? then get yourself a blog and start writing about me..rather than saying some things behind my back. you know, it amazes me how you react to my blog entry...you're so affected by it. so, need i clarify things to you pa ba? cmon boy, it was easily said there. read again. =)

id prefer more when people tell me personally if they have some issues with me rather than hearing them from others...most especially when you know that it was my close friend you told it to. id rather not stoop down to that level where you just pretend to be my friend and when i turn my back, bad things come from your mouth...

simply amazing. haha.

anyway,i got a card from sergio kaninang morning. yeah..and i was really surprised. the content of the card was so sweet...i loved it. it made my day. (though someone had to ruin it that instant...steady lang.) uhm, baby...i really appreciated what you've done this day. looking forward this week...MY WEEK. haha! i love you so much sergio!! you just never fail to make me feel so darn special...yey! =)

Happiness. need i say more?? <3

2006-07-08T18:20:00.000+08:00

" Tease me, please me, indulge me, abuse me..."

haha. loves et. yummy. ;)

anyway, i watched the opening of the UAAP '69 kanina at the araneta colliseum. i was with sergio and some of our blockmates. it was fun at first..happy-happy. then, nung pagkatapos na...ayan na. magulo nanaman. everything went complicated again..shit. =|

bakit ganun? all i ever asked is just to spend some time with you...you know, chill and hang-out lang. is that too much to ask??! i never ask for any material stuff from you..never made palibre and all that...just some time with you, that's just what makes me happy. cheezy na kung sa cheezy pero just being with you completes my day. i miss you when i'm not with you kaya nga i make it a point to spend my available time with you eh..lalo na yung sinabi mo na next month, 1 week or almost a month tayong di masyadong magkikita..nilulubos ko na nga eh. sorry ha..demanding yata para sayo yun eh...i'm really sorry...

and oh, i'm really sorry too if i scratched you accidentally kanina..nainis nanaman ako. i wanted to shout kasi para di kita masaktan but i can't. nasa mall tayo eh..nakakahiya. sorry na talaga...=,c

you know, sobrang i wanna quit na with my life. why? i always hurt the people that i love. and what's so sad is i keep on doing the same mistakes at di talaga ako madala. i dunno why...maybe sa sobrang ayoko silang mawala sakin, nagiging selfish ako na unconsciously nasasaktan ko na pala sila. i'm REALLY sorry for that...=,c what sucks more is that i always end up losing my love ones. and im so helpless about it. kaya nga super gusto ko ng magquit sa life eh..wala namang progress na nangyayari...lagi ko nalang siya nasasaktan and the more i wanna change and avoid that, the more na nasasaktan ko siya.. =,(

sana magkasakit nalang ako, yung tipong nakamamatay...la lang. kasi i'm scared to kill myself naman so i just wish that my body kills itself nalang..diba? insanity..fuck...

baby, i'm really, really sorry...am i still your girlfriend? i hope so...coz i'd go crazy again of you're gonna break-up with me..swear..

i love you so much..that's why i'm so sorry...please???

half way

2006-07-04T18:18:00.000+08:00

today, sergio and i celebrated our 6th monthsary..yey! =) we never thought that we would last this long...with all the fights and misunderstandings we had for the past months..coolness. aww.. =p

i had so much fun this day. just a simple celebration with sergio...we were just together. sweet. =) he first gave me a letter...with a poem that he made himself. aww..kahit na super mushy yung poem, super sweet parin! thanks baby! *mwah* then he gave me a cake. i was surprised coz i thought he will never give me a cake with what i did on our 3rd monthsary..hehe. another sweet thing. yey. ;) i gave him a letter and a necklace..replacement yun sa nasira kong necklace niya. =p all in all, this day was super. it was so special because we celebrated our monthsary with no fights whatsoever. wee! love it. ;)

thanks so much baby for this day! i super, duper enjoyed celebrating our monthsary with you. =) i hope we would have many more monthsaries to come..anniv. na next ha? hehe. i love you oh-so-much sergio! i never stopped thanking Gid that he gave me someone like you. <3 *mwah* huuuuggg!!!

LOVELY. oh yeah! =p

anyway, last saturday i watched the UP Streetdance concert with joey girl. it was fun being with her...we were in awe with the dance routines of the UP street. super kita sa mga mata namin na manghang-mangha kami. hehe. cute. tapos, we ate dinner pa afterwards...aww..i miss those days. =) anyway, thanks joey for coming with me! next time ulit! *mwah* love u and missed u! =)

sunday was an adventure day for me. i went to sergio's house. oh, ha, san ka pa?! pinuntahan ko siya. hehe. =p it was his mom's bday din kasi eh...=) happy birthday mom, err, tita! (belated) =) anyway, it was a fun day...super hang-out lang sa room niya. snuggled and stuff. hahaha! =) super happy nga rin siya eh...i could tel. =p hehe. *mwah* loveyou loveyou loveyou!!! =)

shux, super naiinlove na talaga ako kay sergio...woopee! hehe. =)

hyperness mode on *toot*

ayan...HAPPY!!! =)

2006-07-01T10:13:00.000+08:00

The Scientist by Coldplay
Come up to meet you,
Tell you I'm sorry,
You don't know how lovely you are.

I had to find you,
Tell you I need you,
Tell you I set you apart.

Tell me your secrets,
And ask me your questions,
Oh let's go back to the start.

Runnin' in circles,
Comin' up tails,
Heads on the science apart.

Nobody said it was easy,
It's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be this hard.
Oh take me back to the start.

I was just guessin',
At numbers and figures,
Pullin' the puzzles apart.

Questions of science,
Science and progress,
Do not speak as loud as my heart.

Tell me you love me,
Come back and haunt me,
Oh on I rush to the start.

Runnin' in circles,
Chasin' up tails,
Comin' back as we are.

Nobody said it was easy,
Oh it's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be so hard.
I'm goin' back to the start.

Ahhooooooooooooooooo
Ahhooooooooooooooooo
Ahhooooooooooooooooo
Ahhooooooooooooooooo

happy..finally.

2006-07-01T09:52:00.000+08:00

sergio ann i are finally ok. we are back together. yey! i'm so happy that he finally gave me another chance..thanks baby! imma prove to you that it's gonna be worth it this time. I PROMISE. =)

we talked last thursday night. he asked if i was home already and when i told him yes, he called at my house. it was hard to convince him at first...i poured out my emotions and told him everything that i feel after that cool-off thing. it was a long talk until he finally agreed to give it another shot. i was so overjoyed at that moment. i thanked him and told him that i'm not gonna let him down this time. i'm gonna stick to my words na. =)

i'm really thankful that he gave me another chance. i'll never screw this up this time. SWEAR.

yesterday was a happy day. sergio and i are sweet again and all that..i never felt so much happiness like that for 3 days..hehe. =) i love him so much that i don't wanna lose him again..NEVER. =)

thank God everything's fine now. thank you Lord. so much. =)

so, right now he's in katipunan playing dota. well, dota's still irritating to me but the heck, i allowed him to play. rather than seeing other girls, right? hehe. =p

i love you so much sergio...*mwah* =)

yey!!

day 1

2006-06-29T11:03:00.000+08:00

god, its so hard for me to look at him and not even touch him or hug him like we used to. it's so freakin hard that we're classmates and we're not seated together anymore. it's just so freakin' hard for me to say hi or smile at him..it's so hard sergio...SO HARD..

i cried when i saw him. i just couldn't help it. i'm breaking into pieces and i couldn't contain myself anymore... =c

atleast, he gave my bag to me. that was sweet..but it isn't enough.. =,c

haay...hanggang kelan pa kaya na ganito tayo??? pagbigyan mo na kasi ako and i'll prove to you that your love is gonna be worth it this time. i swear...

what more on the following days...how much hurt can it get...

to sergio..

2006-06-28T13:50:00.000+08:00

Tonight I Can Write -Pablo Neruda

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

Write, for example, "The night is shattered

And the blue stars shiver in the distance."

The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

I loved him, and sometimes he loved me too.

Through nights like this one I held in his arms.

I kissed him again and again under the endless sky.

He loved me, sometimes I loved him too.

How could one not have loved his great still eyes.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

To think that I do not have him. To feel that I have lost him.

To hear the immense night, still more immense without him.

And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.

What does it matter that my love could not keep him?

The night is shattered and he is not with me.

This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance.

My soul is not satisfied that it has lost him.

My sight searches for him as though to go to him.

My heart looks for him, and he is not with me.

The same night whitening the same trees.

We, of that time, are no longer the same.

I no longer love him, that's certain, but how I loved him.

My voice tried to find the wind to touch his hearing.

Another's. He will be another's. Like my kisses before.

His voice. His bright body. His infinite eyes.

I no longer love him, that's certain, but maybe I love him.

Love is short, forgetting is so long.

Because through nights like this one I held him in my arms.

My soul is not satisfied that it has lost him.

Though this be the last pain that he makes me suffer.

And these the last verses that I write for him.

~*~

my heart's aching whenever i say "i love you" and he doesnt say anything nor respond..does he still love me??? well, i know he still does but why are things like this? i'm really sorry for what i did yesterday..i crossed the line again. i broke my promise. but can you forgive me again? di ko talaga kaya yung ganito..can we be like before, with all the love and happiness??? nagsisisi nako sergio..i need you now. i need someone who'll hug me and kiss me even on the cheeks. and i couldn't find another person to that but you. i love you so much sergio..pls love me the way you love me before..coz i know you do. you were just hurt with what i did yesterday. i'm sorry if i'm full of mistakes. im sorry if i keep on messing it up. but not having you screws everything up. i woulnd't be happy again. you're my happiness right now sergio..do want to take that away from me? just give me my super last chance..and i'll prove everything that i say right now. i'll show you that i mean everything that i say. please??

goin crazy

2006-06-27T17:19:00.000+08:00

yesterday, sergio waited for my badminton class to finish. aww..that was so sweet. then, after my class, he invited me to go with him to his swimming class. too bad i didn't come with him coz i have to learn some dance for the "initiation" thing for pep. i'm sorry baby...next time. =)

we had this "initiation" thing for pep. parang welcome to the family ek-ek nila. yeah. so, we cheered first sa casaa, then sa as steps, then sa may fc. it was so funny coz people don't actually care about what we were doin. bries and i joined the monday group coz..la lang. trip lang. hehe. too abd sergio haven't got the chance to see it. aww..he went "somewhere" daw. ok...hehe. =p and oh, i forgot to invite vicka as well. shit..i'm getting forgetful already. nyah. =S

i didn't train yesterday and today. mondays are no training days for me and today, well. long story. to cut it short, nag-away nanaman kami ni sergio to the point na nakipag-break siya sakin. fucker. i was really chasing him kanina. i was so crazy...i even slashed myself. creepy. i wasn't my self kanina. i didn't go to my last 2 classes and i even dared to go the middle of the street and tried to get hit by a car. fuck. i'm was a sick, paranoid, psycho girl kanina..nakakhiya kay sergio. shit...anyway, i calmed down naman when we were in LKB na. but then again, my mind's full of shit things. i really wanted to quit life kanina. i wanted to kill myself. i was having a emotional breakdown and it was so not me..

but all is well now. he didn't go to class and pinuntahan ako sa gym when i was alone there. he took back all that he said and kami na ulit. he told me that he really loves me so much. that was a relief. akala ko talaga he doesn't love me anymore..that's why i was being a psycho kanina. thank God everything's fine na.. =)

*baby, i'm REALLY sorry about what i did kanina. i know, it was my last chance and i said that if i did that again, breakan mo nako. fuck. forget that. di ko kaya eh..nakita mo naman kanina diba? i'm sorry baby...medyo dinemonyo ako kanina and i made a big deal out of a small ish. sorry..i love you so much and that's my happiness right now. pls don't take that away from me..pls? i dunno what to do if i lose you now..i'll be going crazy for pete's sake. i'm really sorry baby..thanks for taking back what you said kanina. thanks for saying that you still love me. thanks for loving me despite these...i won't do this again. this i swear na talaga. i'll act mature na with things and i wont irritate you na. and i wont get irritated that easily na. PROMISE talaga. i love you so much sergio..that's why i'm like this. call me crazy, but it's true. you're the reason for my happiness and your love is all that i need. thanks baby..*mwah* i love you.. =)

nadala na talga ako. this time, it's for real.

oh, to one certain person: if you have any problems with my childishness, why don't you try telling that to me personally. you don't have the fuckin' right to judge me..you don't know a shit about me. how dare you to poison my boyfriend's mind with your pathetic ideas...you're supposed to be a friend not an intruder. you don't intrude someone else's relationship and don't give fuckin' advices that you can't even apply to your self. if you're insecure coz people have loved ones, i'm so sorry for you. how can someone love you with what you're doing??? good for you, boy..good for you... =) this time, it's my words against yours.

weekend blast

2006-06-25T21:41:00.000+08:00

my weekend was so fun. =)

yesterday, our classmate kyla had her debut at KKK resto at west ave. most of my blockmates were there. so fun! the food, the people, the place...my boyfriend. yeah, Very fun. =p i was part of the 18 treasures thingy. i, err should i say we (camie & sergio) gave kyla a scrapbook. i had a hard time thinking of what to say about our gift. hehe. anyway, after the program, everyone just started singing. i got sleepy. hehe. =) after the party, we decided to have coffee at starbuck's. after having a java chip frappe and caramel belgian waffle (my fave!), we went home already. but before going to our house, we brought Gica home first. ang layo ng bahay ni Gica! hehe. we had a hard time going here sa bahay from their place. we just asked for directions. haha! we arrived home at around 1:30am and slept narin shortly after. oh, he slept over here. la lang. hehe. ;)

kanina was fun too! my parents went out and we were left alone here sa house. we just bummed around. nothing to do..yeah. sure. haha! ;) had breakfast and lunch together. so sweet. =) he left at around 2pm. aww...his scent was left nga sa room where he stayed eh. i mise him already tuloy.. =c hehe. oh well, tom's a new day and another day for us! yey! =)

thanks for sleeping over here, baby..=) i had SO much FUN. =) i hope there would be alot of next times..haha! i'll see u in school tom dearie. i love you so damn much! *mwah*

i just love him more and more each day...haaay...*happy*

stress

2006-06-24T08:49:00.000+08:00

the past week has been so tiring for me. damn. last tues, i started training with the UP Pep Squad. i also trained last thurs and yesterday. shit...kapagod. my body's so sore! i never realized that this sem was a very tiring sem for me. my HK subjects..my pep training. haggardness..rawr. oh well, atleast i'm still enjoying what i'm doing. goodluck nalang sa katawan ko. super feel ko bibigay na siya. nooo...hehe. :)

i was surprised last night when i saw sergio at the Aldaba hall. wow, he picked me up sa training ko. aww..sweet! :) hehe. he was with doy. they had a meeting kasi eh and it ended alte narin. anyway, after dressing up, we ate dinner at McDo philcoa. after eating, things were ok then after awhile, medyo nagkainitan nanaman kami ni sergio. i was, again, being stubborn. pero nakakainis talaga siya coz alam na nga niyang i was irritated na, sige, tuloy pa sa paghihirit. and the fact kasi na he picked me up from training diba? di dapat he should bring me home narin knowing that i'm gonna commute alone and it was kinda late and he knows it. but no...he let me commute parin. he was with me naman so ok lang pero still the fact na it was late na. he said that he was planning to bring me home naman talaga but he was waiting for me to ask him that. hello??! diba dapat automatic na yun na it was so late and you should bring me home??! you shouldn't wait for me to ask you that! given na yun na "responsibility" ng isang boyfriend. if you've done that earlier, i mean without arguing with me, that you could have gotten home earlier diba?? initiative. haay..ewan. well, the good thing is he said sorry when we arrived here at my house na. i was still a little irritated but finally i forgave him na. i said sorry narin and we said goodbyes na after. we were both tired and i understand that. i'm really sorry for being stubborn and hot headed last night. i love you so much.. =)

today's the debut of our classmate, kyla. Happy Birthday Kyla! much love! =) the prob is, i still dont have a gift to think na i'm one of the 18 treasures..haha! and i didnt go to our cwts today. my body's so sore. =c oh well. i gotta go. i have to do some errands pa. ciao. <3

body ache

2006-06-21T10:00:00.000+08:00

i have a major body ache right now. my right butt cheek definitely hurts..rawr. i need a hug..pls??? hehe. =)

anyway, yesterday was the start of my training with the UP Pep Squad. yep. THE UP Pep Squad. haha. it was fun training with them. they were warm naman pala eh. they welcomed me and were so nice to me. cool. =) my friend Joey even watched me train with them yesterday. kaso she had to leace early...aww. hehe. thanks dearie! *mwah* anyway, we danced streetdance yesterday. it was so fun coz the routine was so cool to dance. in fairness, i had to memorize a long routine in that very instant. walang turo-turo..sunod lang. haha. well, i got to memorize most of the steps naman..di kasi uso sakanila ang mag mark eh. rawr. pero it was still fun. we also polished the liftings..and for the first time, i felt how to be a lifted by strong men. haha! it was so cool! nafeel ko kung pano maging flyer. yey! though the training was kinda tiring and i was so hungry the time it finished and i got home, it was so fun. =)

another good thing is sergio and i are ok na. super i dont want that to happen again. i felt so mnay emotions. that it frove me crazy...well, mild crazy lang. hehe. i love u so much baby! i cant afford to lose you now..=) huuuuuug! *mwah* and oh, thanks for the uhm..you know, yesterday. haha. *wink* love u my baby porkchop.. =) haha!

thank God walang training ngayon. my body's sore. hehe..

it's been a month since that day..there is still guilt..sad..haay.. = c

love hurts

2006-06-19T21:07:00.000+08:00

"Once in your lifetime, experience love in its purest form-- try never demanding, dont ask, seek and call 4 attention. When that person commits a mistake, readily forgive without question. When he asks, give and then give some more. Never question or doubt his intentions. Accept what he offers, understand his negligences. Love fully. Love gently. You will experience this love but once. He will experience this love just once."

That was from Joey girl. I dunno if she wrote that or got it somewhere. hehe. Thanks dear..you made me feel better. :) i miss you..

All i ever wanted is for things to get back to what they used to be...very happy. I just want you to be happy..and feel content with everything that i'm giving you. in return, i just want appreciation. all i ever want is for us to be happy together again..what we were before you read my past blogs. that's all..

wishes can come true...right?