Friday, May 26, 2006

trust vs love

"Love makes you psychotic. love makes us think of things that are very unsual...especially when we're hurt and heartbroken. Love makes us "hallucinate" which makes us crazy. Love makes us paranoid....to the point of killing or hurting ourselves. Freaky as it is...indeed love makes us psychotic." -from my previous blog. (http://cumeel.blogdrive.com)

honestly, love made me psychotic these days. and i never thought that i could hurt the one i love. i'm so sorry for that, baby.. =c

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last night, we had our sleepover at melai's place. too bad we were only 5: camie, melai, vicka, issa & dang. aww.. =( we missed you ruja and hayde!! lalng. anyway, we ate dinner outside melai's house. i dunno the name of the place kasi eh. hehe. then, we went to Abbabu because dang was still hungry. takaw ni danggit! haha! after Abbabu, we went back to melai's place for some real action! haha!

first, we played poker. it was interesting but got a little boring coz vicka always wins. argh. after poker, we played pusoy dos. this time, si vicka naman laging talo. haha! =p after pusoy dos, we decided to do some camwhoring. two words: SUPER FUN. we played dress-up and took pictures of ourselves. we even wore melai's gowns and took some more pics. super! hehe. dapat walang tulugan, but i gave up. at 4:00am..i decided to take a "nap". pero sila, ang tigas! di parin tulog. but at 4:30am, we decided to go upstairs na and call it a night. gumive-up na ang mga tao. finally. haha. woke up at around 7:30am and went to UP na with vicka, issa and dang. =)

i met sergio at UP at around 10am. we drove my friends to AS and dropped them off there. then we drove somewhere in Bahay ng Alumni. we had a very serious talk. we talked about our relationship's current situation. i don't wanna ellaborate more on this. sorry. basta, it was a long talk and finally, gumive in na si sergio sakin. i felt relieved. muntikan na. buti nalang sobrang bait ng boyfriend ko at again, pinagbigyan ako. that's why i love him so much. he's very patient with me..thanks baby. =)

ok, i know i promised alot of things before sau but this time, eto na talaga. i promise not to be psychotic again, i promise to listen to you and give you a chance to say what you feel, i promise to show some initiative towards our relationship and i promise that i'll be the camie you knew and loved before you read my past blog and we had this talk. I PROMISE you that. =)

it's gonna be so hard to keep all of those promises but because i love you and you mean so much to me, i am GOING TO KEEP ALL OF THEM. swear. =)

i read my past blogs na, baby..i think i know what you mean na. i'm really sorry...=c

basta, i love you so much and i'm willing to do what you want me to do. PROMISE. =) and believe me when i say that you make me very, VERY happy. Loving you and being with you are my HAPPINESS right now..please, please don't take that away from me..

god..i missed you so much! i had so much fun kanina baby..thanks! <3>
* melai's sleepover pictures, check out: http://camiewamie.multiply.com

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