sigh..

you know how it feels when you didn't see a person for a long time and you so miss him then finally, you guys see each other but never have the time alone with each other? diappointing noh? VERY actually.. =c

ok, so here's the deal. i missed him so much coz i didn't see him for 4 days. i got so excited when i saw him awhile ago in school. i was so thinking that we're gonna have some time together, since we missed each other so much. ok, so i was only WISHING. he asked if he could play billiards with our other blockmates..i said yes, eveb though deep inside i didn't want to. i did that coz he might complain that im being selfish again and stuff. and it was something new..atleast, not DOTA. still hoping that i could have some time along with him, i texted him and asked one of our classmates to tell him to come back at around 11am. but noo...he left his cell in his locker and our classmate forgot to tell him my message. *sigh* so there i was, waiting for no one. when he arrived at around 11:30 ( he had a 11:30 class), nakasimangot ako. i was kinda irritated coz i was so into being with him just for 30 mins only coz we won't have any time to be together after that. i had a class at 1 and he had a class at 4. then, i had training ng 4. super malabo na talaga na magkita kami. so super naghanap talaga ako ng time just to be with him coz i missed him so damn much. but no. he thought that i was mad or something..na inaaway ko nanaman siya. i just let him go to his class and i had lunch nalang...alone. well, atleast we saw each other for awhile pa before my class. after that, wala na. we didn't see each other na. i trained and he went to his meeting..

i was so damn disappointed. not at you (well, a little) but with circumstances. pero eto lang, sana you had the initiative to be with me..you know, just the two of us. matagal tayong di nagkita. sana man lang inuna mo muna ako bago sakanila.. =c

oh, pls don't think that i'm mad or something. i'm not. and i'm sorry if i acted that way kanina. i just want to let my bad feelings out through this blog. but i'm ok now.. =)

i love you so much baby.. =) *hug & kiss*