tiredness

i never felt this tired for the past 3 months...rawr. something new but i like it. hehe.

been rehearsing for our show tom in ateneo. yep, actually, we're gonna dance for the mass of those Jesuits. feast day kasi ni St. Ignatius. =) so kanina, we rehearsed there. the dancing was ok...learned some new dance for tomorrow's performance. but! the fan dance in that singkil dance was....aaaargggh! struggle, super. hehe. we ended at around 6pm na..almost the whole afternoon ung rehearsals..rawr..

i have 2 blisters and a toe-sprain on my left foot. toe-sprain...yeah. so super sakit tuloy ng left foot ko. musta naman ang mga turns and grande jetes dyan..*sigh*

haaay...and he's not replying...sad, sad, sad... pfft. =(

oh well, i still loooooooove him!!! i love you, i love you, I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE YOU, SERGIO! =p *huuuugg!*

why are we living so far away from each other kasi eh..rawr..

and oh, i saw your shoutout..hmm...disappointed??? of what? is it because of yesterday when we didnt do....something?? haha! aminin..!=p

hahaha! la lang. *mwah*

sigh..

you know how it feels when you didn't see a person for a long time and you so miss him then finally, you guys see each other but never have the time alone with each other? diappointing noh? VERY actually.. =c

ok, so here's the deal. i missed him so much coz i didn't see him for 4 days. i got so excited when i saw him awhile ago in school. i was so thinking that we're gonna have some time together, since we missed each other so much. ok, so i was only WISHING. he asked if he could play billiards with our other blockmates..i said yes, eveb though deep inside i didn't want to. i did that coz he might complain that im being selfish again and stuff. and it was something new..atleast, not DOTA. still hoping that i could have some time along with him, i texted him and asked one of our classmates to tell him to come back at around 11am. but noo...he left his cell in his locker and our classmate forgot to tell him my message. *sigh* so there i was, waiting for no one. when he arrived at around 11:30 ( he had a 11:30 class), nakasimangot ako. i was kinda irritated coz i was so into being with him just for 30 mins only coz we won't have any time to be together after that. i had a class at 1 and he had a class at 4. then, i had training ng 4. super malabo na talaga na magkita kami. so super naghanap talaga ako ng time just to be with him coz i missed him so damn much. but no. he thought that i was mad or something..na inaaway ko nanaman siya. i just let him go to his class and i had lunch nalang...alone. well, atleast we saw each other for awhile pa before my class. after that, wala na. we didn't see each other na. i trained and he went to his meeting..

i was so damn disappointed. not at you (well, a little) but with circumstances. pero eto lang, sana you had the initiative to be with me..you know, just the two of us. matagal tayong di nagkita. sana man lang inuna mo muna ako bago sakanila.. =c

oh, pls don't think that i'm mad or something. i'm not. and i'm sorry if i acted that way kanina. i just want to let my bad feelings out through this blog. but i'm ok now.. =)

i love you so much baby.. =) *hug & kiss*

Martyr Niyebera
Kamikazee

Kinukumpleto mo ang araw ko
Sa tuwing inaaway mo
Pag gising sa umaga
Mukha mo ang nakita
Wala pang nagawa naka simangot na

At pag sapit ng gabi
Tampo lalong lumalaki
Ang gusto ko lambingan
Ngunit may unan na namamagitan

(chorus)
Ang almusal ay sigawan
Ang hapunan natin ay tampuhan
Ang merienda pagdududa

Pero mahal kita
Wala ng hahanapin pang iba
Handa akong mag tiis
Kahit na away away away na to

Nahuli lang ng ilang minuto
Di na kikibo
Na trapik lang sa kanto
Di naman gwapo
Naisip mo agad nang chicks ako

Simple lng naman
Ang pinag-mulan
Pinahaba ang usapan
Di naman kailangan
Mahabang away nanaman

(chorus)

Kahit na sabihin
Na naliligo ka sa sampay
Di mo masasabi
Na hindi kita minamahal
Ang daming mong babae
Wala ka pang trabaho
Ngunit kahit ganun
Ay nandito lang ako
Nandito lang ako

(chorus)

~*~

sergio asked me to listen to that song. i asked why, he just said that i should listen to that song. then he asked me if i checked my friendster lately..i said no and asked him why? he said again that i should listen to that song...

so, i got very curiuos and i checked my friendster. then i went to his account. now i know why he asked if i checked my friendster lately..i was surprised to see a line from that lyrics on his shoutout. first thing came to my head, the song. this has got to do something with the song that he asked me to listen to. so instead of downloading it in limewire, i just downloaded its lyrics. yup, the line that i saw as his shoutout was there..so i read the whole lyrics...

nice. that's all i can say.

now i wonder, do you really think that we're like that? la lang..you don't usually do that kasi eh. i mean, asking me to listen to songs that is somehow connected to us...*sigh*

i dunno...i'm scared right now. i'm scared that he might just leave me again. and what scares me more is that i think i'm not gonna go after him na if that happens...coz i got tired of running after him whenever we have "break-ups" or "cool offs"...

come to think of it, maybe it's just ME..maybe, i'm just thinking too much or maybe i just miss him so damn much and not seeing him for 5 days already makes me think like this...*sigh*

"all will be well"

oh, i know you're gonna read this, so feel free to comment..and pls write your name. thanks..

SONA

ok, so we don't have classes today. and its raining very hard. what does this mean?? BOREDOM. yep, complete boredom. i'm stuck here at home doing nothing..there's nothing good to watch on tv, no dvd's left for me to see, no food to eat (yup, starvation people) and my boyfriend's not in the mood to talk to me...i think. haay...life of a bum really sucks. most especially on rainy days..rawr. boring dude..*sigh*

anyway, it's my cousin alisa's birthday today...HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST!!! much love from your dear ate.. <3 too bad she's not having any "handaan" or something..atleast makakalabas ako ng bahay...aww...*sigh again*

i can't wait to go to school tom. kahit na super basa nanaman ang UP dahil sa ulan. atleast, there would be alot of people to hang around with and so many food to eat. and oh, i could also spend some QUALITY (emphasis) time with sergio baby..yey! haha. =) * i love you!! ;p

i know, i know...my entry's kinda whacked. senseless is the right word. sorry na me.. =p

bye na nga. toodles. =p

busy week

wow..finally, update. =) this week's been quite busy. with all the schoolworks and dance practices...i couldn't find time to go online and update my blog. sorry..

anyway, i went to bulacan kanina. it was kind boring coz i went with my parents and a tita with their "field work". the place was cool though..the sights and everything..nice. =)

i had lunch with vicka marie yesterday in katipunan. saya! bonding nanaman kami. hehe. well, we met at up at around 12 and nagpahatid kami kay boyfriend hanggang katipunan. too bad sergio wasn't able to come with us..infairness, nagtampo ako nun. well, a little. hehe. anyway, suepr pig out kami ni vicx. la lang. nakakatuwa lang. haha! hope we'll have more "lunch dates" to come dear! kasi naman eh..suepr conflict mga breaks natin. rawr. haha. aylavyew! <3

oh, i also spent the night last friday at sergio's place. la lang..*wink*

and i went to his place last wednesday. we were supposed to go to greenhills coz i have some "cellphone issues" but due to the very bad weather *ahem*, di kami natuloy. so we just stayed home and bummed around. saya nga eh..super lamiiiig! hahaha! :))

thank God, there will be no classes tom for us UP peeps. thanks, SONA. haha! suepr tinatamad akong pumasok eh...with the rain and everythang..i just wanna snuggle up here sa bed ko. but i wish my baby's here..para masaya! hehe. =p

* ilove you, i love you, i love you, I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE YOU!!! *mwah* huuug! ;)

post birthday blues

ok..officially, i'm 19 years old already. amp..super tanda ko na. my last eyar of being a teenager. grr! now, i'm really gonna enjoy my year this year. last hirit na eh. haay...and time flies so fast these days..*sigh*

hehe. nagdrama.. =)

anyway, my party yesterday/last night was so fun. all of my friends were here: MC barkada, UP friends...and i was surprised that there so many UP friends who came. coolness. well, an enexpected guest came and at first i was so furious about it. after one serious talk/convincing from my bf, ok na 'ko. can't do anything about it eh. anyhoo, my family was also here too..titos, titas, cousins plus their bf's (well, except for one.) it was one hell of a celebration with all the food and inuman sessions we had. wee! :) yeah...and sergio got so drunk nung gabi na...pinainom namin ng madaming tequilla eh. di sanay. hehe. aww...i had to take care of my baby tuloy nung nagsiuwian na mga cuz ko. cute-cute ng baby ko..parang...baby. hehe. =) well, i'm glad that he's ok na. had lunch with him kanina sa katip. wee! :) and oh, he gave me a basket of flowers for my birthday..tapos sinurprise pa niya ako nung morning. isn't that sweet and romantic or what??! haha! i love you so much baby!! thanks! =)

vicka (and sj), dang, issa, melai and joey: SUPER THANKS!!! you all made my bday extra special! *mwah* love you all so much!!!! *hugs and kisses* <3

UP people (dont wanna name it coz you're kinda many. hehe): thanks thanks! you made my day special too! sobrang saya niyo kagabi! hehe. hope u guys had fun and enjoyed the "drinks". haha! *mwah* love you too! see u in school! :)

oh, i have to tell one thing though...honestly, my bday was happy...but not that happy. well, everybody who came knows why. i just didn't like that idea. nagtatampo ako a little..but steady lang. wala nako magagawa eh. oh well. its done already...must go on with life now. hehe. :)

i got my hs yearbook na. FINALLY. it's nice naman...atleast, matino na ngayon. hehe.

oh, dang, i'll give yours when joey and i sees each other na. k? i'll text you. *mwah* :)

anothher week ahead of me...*gasp*

wee!!

happy bday to me...happy bday to me...happy birthday, happy birthdaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay....happy birthday to ME!!!!! =)

yey!!

haha! ok, so today's my birthdy...eek! i'm 19 already. ang tanda ko na, ampu..haha! oh well, still pretty though. haha! kapal! =p

anyway, yesterday was so sweet. sergio gave me this heart-shaped, glittery box that has about a hundered of little notes in it. those cute little notes are the reasons why he loves...a hundred of 'em. aww...so sweet. super, when i was reading them i can't help smiling..saya. =) thanks baby! *mwah* i love you so much! <3

so, may "party" ako later here sa bahay...i can't wait for that. all of my friends are coming. yey! excited na me. wee!! =)

what more could a girl ask for??? ;)

love

love..love...love. such a nice word. a wonderful feeling. its like you're in a trance...and you don't wanna snap out of it. its addictive. its so lovely. and what's magical about it is that it makes you so happy..so, so happy.üüü

yesterday was the day 2 of sergio's sweetness thingy. yep. last monday, a card. yesterday, 3 letters. err, should i say, lovely and sweet letters. =) he didn't give it directly to me. the first two letters were put inside my locker. then the last one was given to me by one of the "ates" at the kiosk. i was surprised to receive those letters...sergio rarely writes letters. and what's so sweet about them is that they contain poems. lovely poems that i think he wrote it himself. (right? hehe) =) that made my day...hanggang sa training, or before my training binasa ko siya. para ganahan akong sumayaw. hehe. trully inspiring.. loves 'em. ;)

kanina naman, i went to his place. la lang..lovers bum. hehe. =p i went there at around 9am...nothing to do, actually. just snuggled and stuff. ;) hehe. it was so nice just being with him and actually do nothing. you know, nakahiga lang kayo tapos wala lang...kwentuhan and stuff. i felt super special kanina. just knowing that he's beside me makes it special. with all the hugs and the kisses...saya! see, we don't need to really do something or go out somewhere...just being together can be so much fun for us. FUN FUN! hehe. ;)

that's why i love him soooooooo much! he never fails to make me happy and feel special. he never fails to surprise me with things, simple things that will actually make my day. his love is all i need to be inspired to go and live another day in my life. and i'm so lucky to have someone like him..i'm happy that i met him. :)

i love you, baby...so, so, very, very much! hehe. *mwah*

Funny how people react to certain things. like for example, when someone scanned someone else's blog and read something about him or her, he or she automatically feels that the author of the blog is pertaining to that certain person. well, yeah they do actually. ;) and its so amazing coz when that reader gets so affected by it, he or she bothers the author for some clarifications, even though it was already clarified in that blog entry. haha, weird. =p

ok, so i was referring to you. got a problem with that? yeah? then get yourself a blog and start writing about me..rather than saying some things behind my back. you know, it amazes me how you react to my blog entry...you're so affected by it. so, need i clarify things to you pa ba? cmon boy, it was easily said there. read again. =)

id prefer more when people tell me personally if they have some issues with me rather than hearing them from others...most especially when you know that it was my close friend you told it to. id rather not stoop down to that level where you just pretend to be my friend and when i turn my back, bad things come from your mouth...

simply amazing. haha.

anyway,i got a card from sergio kaninang morning. yeah..and i was really surprised. the content of the card was so sweet...i loved it. it made my day. (though someone had to ruin it that instant...steady lang.) uhm, baby...i really appreciated what you've done this day. looking forward this week...MY WEEK. haha! i love you so much sergio!! you just never fail to make me feel so darn special...yey! =)

Happiness. need i say more?? <3

" Tease me, please me, indulge me, abuse me..."

haha. loves et. yummy. ;)

anyway, i watched the opening of the UAAP '69 kanina at the araneta colliseum. i was with sergio and some of our blockmates. it was fun at first..happy-happy. then, nung pagkatapos na...ayan na. magulo nanaman. everything went complicated again..shit. =|

bakit ganun? all i ever asked is just to spend some time with you...you know, chill and hang-out lang. is that too much to ask??! i never ask for any material stuff from you..never made palibre and all that...just some time with you, that's just what makes me happy. cheezy na kung sa cheezy pero just being with you completes my day. i miss you when i'm not with you kaya nga i make it a point to spend my available time with you eh..lalo na yung sinabi mo na next month, 1 week or almost a month tayong di masyadong magkikita..nilulubos ko na nga eh. sorry ha..demanding yata para sayo yun eh...i'm really sorry...

and oh, i'm really sorry too if i scratched you accidentally kanina..nainis nanaman ako. i wanted to shout kasi para di kita masaktan but i can't. nasa mall tayo eh..nakakahiya. sorry na talaga...=,c

you know, sobrang i wanna quit na with my life. why? i always hurt the people that i love. and what's so sad is i keep on doing the same mistakes at di talaga ako madala. i dunno why...maybe sa sobrang ayoko silang mawala sakin, nagiging selfish ako na unconsciously nasasaktan ko na pala sila. i'm REALLY sorry for that...=,c what sucks more is that i always end up losing my love ones. and im so helpless about it. kaya nga super gusto ko ng magquit sa life eh..wala namang progress na nangyayari...lagi ko nalang siya nasasaktan and the more i wanna change and avoid that, the more na nasasaktan ko siya.. =,(

sana magkasakit nalang ako, yung tipong nakamamatay...la lang. kasi i'm scared to kill myself naman so i just wish that my body kills itself nalang..diba? insanity..fuck...

baby, i'm really, really sorry...am i still your girlfriend? i hope so...coz i'd go crazy again of you're gonna break-up with me..swear..

i love you so much..that's why i'm so sorry...please???

half way

today, sergio and i celebrated our 6th monthsary..yey! =) we never thought that we would last this long...with all the fights and misunderstandings we had for the past months..coolness. aww.. =p

i had so much fun this day. just a simple celebration with sergio...we were just together. sweet. =) he first gave me a letter...with a poem that he made himself. aww..kahit na super mushy yung poem, super sweet parin! thanks baby! *mwah* then he gave me a cake. i was surprised coz i thought he will never give me a cake with what i did on our 3rd monthsary..hehe. another sweet thing. yey. ;) i gave him a letter and a necklace..replacement yun sa nasira kong necklace niya. =p all in all, this day was super. it was so special because we celebrated our monthsary with no fights whatsoever. wee! love it. ;)

thanks so much baby for this day! i super, duper enjoyed celebrating our monthsary with you. =) i hope we would have many more monthsaries to come..anniv. na next ha? hehe. i love you oh-so-much sergio! i never stopped thanking Gid that he gave me someone like you. <3 *mwah* huuuuggg!!!

LOVELY. oh yeah! =p

anyway, last saturday i watched the UP Streetdance concert with joey girl. it was fun being with her...we were in awe with the dance routines of the UP street. super kita sa mga mata namin na manghang-mangha kami. hehe. cute. tapos, we ate dinner pa afterwards...aww..i miss those days. =) anyway, thanks joey for coming with me! next time ulit! *mwah* love u and missed u! =)

sunday was an adventure day for me. i went to sergio's house. oh, ha, san ka pa?! pinuntahan ko siya. hehe. =p it was his mom's bday din kasi eh...=) happy birthday mom, err, tita! (belated) =) anyway, it was a fun day...super hang-out lang sa room niya. snuggled and stuff. hahaha! =) super happy nga rin siya eh...i could tel. =p hehe. *mwah* loveyou loveyou loveyou!!! =)

shux, super naiinlove na talaga ako kay sergio...woopee! hehe. =)

hyperness mode on *toot*

ayan...HAPPY!!! =)

The Scientist by Coldplay
Come up to meet you,
Tell you I'm sorry,
You don't know how lovely you are.

I had to find you,
Tell you I need you,
Tell you I set you apart.

Tell me your secrets,
And ask me your questions,
Oh let's go back to the start.

Runnin' in circles,
Comin' up tails,
Heads on the science apart.

Nobody said it was easy,
It's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be this hard.
Oh take me back to the start.

I was just guessin',
At numbers and figures,
Pullin' the puzzles apart.

Questions of science,
Science and progress,
Do not speak as loud as my heart.

Tell me you love me,
Come back and haunt me,
Oh on I rush to the start.

Runnin' in circles,
Chasin' up tails,
Comin' back as we are.

Nobody said it was easy,
Oh it's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be so hard.
I'm goin' back to the start.

Ahhooooooooooooooooo
Ahhooooooooooooooooo
Ahhooooooooooooooooo
Ahhooooooooooooooooo

happy..finally.

sergio ann i are finally ok. we are back together. yey! i'm so happy that he finally gave me another chance..thanks baby! imma prove to you that it's gonna be worth it this time. I PROMISE. =)

we talked last thursday night. he asked if i was home already and when i told him yes, he called at my house. it was hard to convince him at first...i poured out my emotions and told him everything that i feel after that cool-off thing. it was a long talk until he finally agreed to give it another shot. i was so overjoyed at that moment. i thanked him and told him that i'm not gonna let him down this time. i'm gonna stick to my words na. =)

i'm really thankful that he gave me another chance. i'll never screw this up this time. SWEAR.

yesterday was a happy day. sergio and i are sweet again and all that..i never felt so much happiness like that for 3 days..hehe. =) i love him so much that i don't wanna lose him again..NEVER. =)

thank God everything's fine now. thank you Lord. so much. =)

so, right now he's in katipunan playing dota. well, dota's still irritating to me but the heck, i allowed him to play. rather than seeing other girls, right? hehe. =p

i love you so much sergio...*mwah* =)

yey!!