day 1

god, its so hard for me to look at him and not even touch him or hug him like we used to. it's so freakin hard that we're classmates and we're not seated together anymore. it's just so freakin' hard for me to say hi or smile at him..it's so hard sergio...SO HARD..

i cried when i saw him. i just couldn't help it. i'm breaking into pieces and i couldn't contain myself anymore... =c

atleast, he gave my bag to me. that was sweet..but it isn't enough.. =,c

haay...hanggang kelan pa kaya na ganito tayo??? pagbigyan mo na kasi ako and i'll prove to you that your love is gonna be worth it this time. i swear...

what more on the following days...how much hurt can it get...

to sergio..

Tonight I Can Write -Pablo Neruda

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

Write, for example, "The night is shattered

And the blue stars shiver in the distance."

The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

I loved him, and sometimes he loved me too.

Through nights like this one I held in his arms.

I kissed him again and again under the endless sky.

He loved me, sometimes I loved him too.

How could one not have loved his great still eyes.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

To think that I do not have him. To feel that I have lost him.

To hear the immense night, still more immense without him.

And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.

What does it matter that my love could not keep him?

The night is shattered and he is not with me.

This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance.

My soul is not satisfied that it has lost him.

My sight searches for him as though to go to him.

My heart looks for him, and he is not with me.

The same night whitening the same trees.

We, of that time, are no longer the same.

I no longer love him, that's certain, but how I loved him.

My voice tried to find the wind to touch his hearing.

Another's. He will be another's. Like my kisses before.

His voice. His bright body. His infinite eyes.

I no longer love him, that's certain, but maybe I love him.

Love is short, forgetting is so long.

Because through nights like this one I held him in my arms.

My soul is not satisfied that it has lost him.

Though this be the last pain that he makes me suffer.

And these the last verses that I write for him.

~*~

my heart's aching whenever i say "i love you" and he doesnt say anything nor respond..does he still love me??? well, i know he still does but why are things like this? i'm really sorry for what i did yesterday..i crossed the line again. i broke my promise. but can you forgive me again? di ko talaga kaya yung ganito..can we be like before, with all the love and happiness??? nagsisisi nako sergio..i need you now. i need someone who'll hug me and kiss me even on the cheeks. and i couldn't find another person to that but you. i love you so much sergio..pls love me the way you love me before..coz i know you do. you were just hurt with what i did yesterday. i'm sorry if i'm full of mistakes. im sorry if i keep on messing it up. but not having you screws everything up. i woulnd't be happy again. you're my happiness right now sergio..do want to take that away from me? just give me my super last chance..and i'll prove everything that i say right now. i'll show you that i mean everything that i say. please??

goin crazy

yesterday, sergio waited for my badminton class to finish. aww..that was so sweet. then, after my class, he invited me to go with him to his swimming class. too bad i didn't come with him coz i have to learn some dance for the "initiation" thing for pep. i'm sorry baby...next time. =)

we had this "initiation" thing for pep. parang welcome to the family ek-ek nila. yeah. so, we cheered first sa casaa, then sa as steps, then sa may fc. it was so funny coz people don't actually care about what we were doin. bries and i joined the monday group coz..la lang. trip lang. hehe. too abd sergio haven't got the chance to see it. aww..he went "somewhere" daw. ok...hehe. =p and oh, i forgot to invite vicka as well. shit..i'm getting forgetful already. nyah. =S

i didn't train yesterday and today. mondays are no training days for me and today, well. long story. to cut it short, nag-away nanaman kami ni sergio to the point na nakipag-break siya sakin. fucker. i was really chasing him kanina. i was so crazy...i even slashed myself. creepy. i wasn't my self kanina. i didn't go to my last 2 classes and i even dared to go the middle of the street and tried to get hit by a car. fuck. i'm was a sick, paranoid, psycho girl kanina..nakakhiya kay sergio. shit...anyway, i calmed down naman when we were in LKB na. but then again, my mind's full of shit things. i really wanted to quit life kanina. i wanted to kill myself. i was having a emotional breakdown and it was so not me..

but all is well now. he didn't go to class and pinuntahan ako sa gym when i was alone there. he took back all that he said and kami na ulit. he told me that he really loves me so much. that was a relief. akala ko talaga he doesn't love me anymore..that's why i was being a psycho kanina. thank God everything's fine na.. =)

*baby, i'm REALLY sorry about what i did kanina. i know, it was my last chance and i said that if i did that again, breakan mo nako. fuck. forget that. di ko kaya eh..nakita mo naman kanina diba? i'm sorry baby...medyo dinemonyo ako kanina and i made a big deal out of a small ish. sorry..i love you so much and that's my happiness right now. pls don't take that away from me..pls? i dunno what to do if i lose you now..i'll be going crazy for pete's sake. i'm really sorry baby..thanks for taking back what you said kanina. thanks for saying that you still love me. thanks for loving me despite these...i won't do this again. this i swear na talaga. i'll act mature na with things and i wont irritate you na. and i wont get irritated that easily na. PROMISE talaga. i love you so much sergio..that's why i'm like this. call me crazy, but it's true. you're the reason for my happiness and your love is all that i need. thanks baby..*mwah* i love you.. =)

nadala na talga ako. this time, it's for real.

oh, to one certain person: if you have any problems with my childishness, why don't you try telling that to me personally. you don't have the fuckin' right to judge me..you don't know a shit about me. how dare you to poison my boyfriend's mind with your pathetic ideas...you're supposed to be a friend not an intruder. you don't intrude someone else's relationship and don't give fuckin' advices that you can't even apply to your self. if you're insecure coz people have loved ones, i'm so sorry for you. how can someone love you with what you're doing??? good for you, boy..good for you... =) this time, it's my words against yours.

weekend blast

my weekend was so fun. =)

yesterday, our classmate kyla had her debut at KKK resto at west ave. most of my blockmates were there. so fun! the food, the people, the place...my boyfriend. yeah, Very fun. =p i was part of the 18 treasures thingy. i, err should i say we (camie & sergio) gave kyla a scrapbook. i had a hard time thinking of what to say about our gift. hehe. anyway, after the program, everyone just started singing. i got sleepy. hehe. =) after the party, we decided to have coffee at starbuck's. after having a java chip frappe and caramel belgian waffle (my fave!), we went home already. but before going to our house, we brought Gica home first. ang layo ng bahay ni Gica! hehe. we had a hard time going here sa bahay from their place. we just asked for directions. haha! we arrived home at around 1:30am and slept narin shortly after. oh, he slept over here. la lang. hehe. ;)

kanina was fun too! my parents went out and we were left alone here sa house. we just bummed around. nothing to do..yeah. sure. haha! ;) had breakfast and lunch together. so sweet. =) he left at around 2pm. aww...his scent was left nga sa room where he stayed eh. i mise him already tuloy.. =c hehe. oh well, tom's a new day and another day for us! yey! =)

thanks for sleeping over here, baby..=) i had SO much FUN. =) i hope there would be alot of next times..haha! i'll see u in school tom dearie. i love you so damn much! *mwah*

i just love him more and more each day...haaay...*happy*

stress

the past week has been so tiring for me. damn. last tues, i started training with the UP Pep Squad. i also trained last thurs and yesterday. shit...kapagod. my body's so sore! i never realized that this sem was a very tiring sem for me. my HK subjects..my pep training. haggardness..rawr. oh well, atleast i'm still enjoying what i'm doing. goodluck nalang sa katawan ko. super feel ko bibigay na siya. nooo...hehe. :)

i was surprised last night when i saw sergio at the Aldaba hall. wow, he picked me up sa training ko. aww..sweet! :) hehe. he was with doy. they had a meeting kasi eh and it ended alte narin. anyway, after dressing up, we ate dinner at McDo philcoa. after eating, things were ok then after awhile, medyo nagkainitan nanaman kami ni sergio. i was, again, being stubborn. pero nakakainis talaga siya coz alam na nga niyang i was irritated na, sige, tuloy pa sa paghihirit. and the fact kasi na he picked me up from training diba? di dapat he should bring me home narin knowing that i'm gonna commute alone and it was kinda late and he knows it. but no...he let me commute parin. he was with me naman so ok lang pero still the fact na it was late na. he said that he was planning to bring me home naman talaga but he was waiting for me to ask him that. hello??! diba dapat automatic na yun na it was so late and you should bring me home??! you shouldn't wait for me to ask you that! given na yun na "responsibility" ng isang boyfriend. if you've done that earlier, i mean without arguing with me, that you could have gotten home earlier diba?? initiative. haay..ewan. well, the good thing is he said sorry when we arrived here at my house na. i was still a little irritated but finally i forgave him na. i said sorry narin and we said goodbyes na after. we were both tired and i understand that. i'm really sorry for being stubborn and hot headed last night. i love you so much.. =)

today's the debut of our classmate, kyla. Happy Birthday Kyla! much love! =) the prob is, i still dont have a gift to think na i'm one of the 18 treasures..haha! and i didnt go to our cwts today. my body's so sore. =c oh well. i gotta go. i have to do some errands pa. ciao. <3

body ache

i have a major body ache right now. my right butt cheek definitely hurts..rawr. i need a hug..pls??? hehe. =)

anyway, yesterday was the start of my training with the UP Pep Squad. yep. THE UP Pep Squad. haha. it was fun training with them. they were warm naman pala eh. they welcomed me and were so nice to me. cool. =) my friend Joey even watched me train with them yesterday. kaso she had to leace early...aww. hehe. thanks dearie! *mwah* anyway, we danced streetdance yesterday. it was so fun coz the routine was so cool to dance. in fairness, i had to memorize a long routine in that very instant. walang turo-turo..sunod lang. haha. well, i got to memorize most of the steps naman..di kasi uso sakanila ang mag mark eh. rawr. pero it was still fun. we also polished the liftings..and for the first time, i felt how to be a lifted by strong men. haha! it was so cool! nafeel ko kung pano maging flyer. yey! though the training was kinda tiring and i was so hungry the time it finished and i got home, it was so fun. =)

another good thing is sergio and i are ok na. super i dont want that to happen again. i felt so mnay emotions. that it frove me crazy...well, mild crazy lang. hehe. i love u so much baby! i cant afford to lose you now..=) huuuuuug! *mwah* and oh, thanks for the uhm..you know, yesterday. haha. *wink* love u my baby porkchop.. =) haha!

thank God walang training ngayon. my body's sore. hehe..

it's been a month since that day..there is still guilt..sad..haay.. = c

love hurts

"Once in your lifetime, experience love in its purest form-- try never demanding, dont ask, seek and call 4 attention. When that person commits a mistake, readily forgive without question. When he asks, give and then give some more. Never question or doubt his intentions. Accept what he offers, understand his negligences. Love fully. Love gently. You will experience this love but once. He will experience this love just once."

That was from Joey girl. I dunno if she wrote that or got it somewhere. hehe. Thanks dear..you made me feel better. :) i miss you..

All i ever wanted is for things to get back to what they used to be...very happy. I just want you to be happy..and feel content with everything that i'm giving you. in return, i just want appreciation. all i ever want is for us to be happy together again..what we were before you read my past blogs. that's all..

wishes can come true...right?

after a tiring day in school..

sergio was here awhile ago...=) our classes ended quite early that's why we decided to hang-out here at my house. almost 3 hours of bumming around...cool. i had a nice time with you, baby. =) i had fun. hehe. ;) i love you so much!! looooooooove!!! *mwah* =-*

anyway, it was a tiring and hot day for me. weird coz the sky was a bit dark and the weather was a little gloomy..it was so darn hot! i was almost dehydrated the whole day! hehe. thank God my last class didn't take that long...i love sir j! ang bilis lagi ng 1st day sakanya. hehe. ;)

bries is already training with the UP Pep. inggit me..haha! oh well, i'll just talk to coach lala if i could start training narin..medyo 1 taon niya ako kinulit last school year eh. i'll give it a try this time. atleast, i'm with bries na. safer. hehe. ;) and i'll make paalam narin to my mom...maybe she'll approve of it this time. hehe. :)

darn...classes on a saturday. f*ck this cwts..bakit naman kasi weekend eh. i so wanna sleep the whole day tom..argh..

oh well, gotta go. i'm gonna think of what i'll eat pa for dinner. my parents are out kasi and they might go home late. sad. hehe. toodles. <3

here we go again...i did it again last night. why do i have to spoil everything??? i thought we were ok na..damn..

when i arrived home, we were ok na. tapos, when he called, we were ok at first but things got a little off again. we started this petty argues and turned out pretty bad. we had to put down the phone with me crying and him so irritated again..

he proposed that we have a cool off muna. as usual, i disagreed. it was a hard process convincing him to not have this cool off. i got crazy, felt insane, cried alot and had my face & eyes all sore and painful. i asked him to call me on our landline because i really need to talk to him, hear his voice and say what i really feel that time. he eventually agreed and called. we talked and i tried convincing him to not to cool off with me. it was so hard because he had all these reasons and he was very sure of what he was doing. but i still tried until i said that this will be my last chance. if i screw up again, he have the right to break up with me without me disagreeing to him again. finally, we got things straight and we were ok again. we talked peacefully na and we were sweet again. thank goodness.. =)

ok, last chance. my last chance. i really had to stick to my word. i wont screw up again. i promise..no, i swear. i just can't afford to lose him..i just cant. i love him so much that it would really hurt me and drive me crazy if i lose him. funny as it sounds but its true. i would be very awful and it would be really hard. i just thank God for sergio's patience with me. i'm so lucky to have him.. =)

baby, i'm so sorry for what happened yesterday. i know i got a little carried away and i shouldn't have reacted that way. i know ive been stubborn and hard headed and i always forgot what we've talked about sa bahay ng alumni. actually, i didn't forget what we've talked about...im just too hard headed and i let my emotions come first..kaya i always cry. it's not your fault why i always cry..well, yeah sometimes but it's me who's makingg myself cry most of the time. i'm really sorry baby...you mean the world to me, sergio. you're very special and important..i love you so much.. =)

paranoia

i did a very stupid thing kanina. i felt so stupid becasue i promised myself that i will never do that again. but no...i still did it. knowing what the consequences are...haaay...i hurt my baby again...i'm so sorry... =,c

being an only child can be interesting. atleast you'll get whatever you want and walang kaagaw. you'll never have a fight with any siblings and all the attention is focused in you. yeah, it's fun to be an only child...depends on the circumstances.

when you're used to being selfish, childish and dependent when you were a child, you tend to bring those characteristics when you're grown up already. and when its time for you to change those attitudes, it becomes very hard. some people don't actually get it, but adjusting to situations when you're used to being adjusted to is a very difficult task to do. you go things the hard way and sometimes you tend to be emotional about your decisions. it sucks because people misunderstand you and they might get the wrong impression of you being "guilty" or "affected" in fact that you're just trying to prove something and the person won't just listen to you. we grow up in different kinds of situations and its really hard to adjust to different nature. but we try to do it just to not be judged or criticized by some people. we try to improve ourselves because we are proving to the world that we can be independent and certain about things even if we're used to being dependent and getting what you want all the time.

one thing i learned from my relationship with sergio is that you cannot get everything that you want. somethings require sacrifice on my part. and i should understand that my partner does not have the same perspective in life and i should respect that. i'm glad that he taught me those things, though we're going through it the hard way. i know i cna be stubborn sometimes but i admire his patience. and i'm really sorry if sometimes i test your patience...and i know that sometimes i cross the line. sorry baby... =c

i'm lucky to have my boyfriend right now...with all the bad things i've done and all the forgiveness i received from him..i'm just so lucky. from now on i will never act like that again. i'll consider your options and i'll know when to stop my "kadramahan". i'll tell you when i'm bothered by something and tell you if i get jealous...i wont keep you guessing this time baby..that i promise. if i break that promise again, you have the right to leave me. hard as it may be for me, i deserve that.

oh yeah, i need a psychiatrist. my emotions can sometimes be too much and it's getting hard for me already. it triggers my paranoia and i hate it when that happens...i tend to hurt myself.

*i love you so much, baby.. =) sorry for being childish again. i'll never let you down this time. promise. =) thanks for still loving me despite these..i'll change na talaga. *mwah* i love you.. =)

blast

my weekend was fun. fun fun FUN! hehe.. =)

last friday was sergio's bday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABYLOVE!!! haha! 19 ka na..tanda mo na. nyaha! *mwah* anyway, our day started when we met up at UP at around 8am. we finished our enlistments first. after enlisting, well, they played DOTA first and the girls (camie, danya & lalaine) were left at the gym. we waited for them for quite long..di na namin sila natiis hintayin at kumain na kami. hehe. when they finally arrived, we waited for awhile for sj and danya & armand do their things and we went na to sergio's place in pasay. *whew*

when we arrived at sergio's place, naabutan namin na nagprepepare palang mom ni sergio. so sergio asked me to paly this game sa net. well, di pala siya game! it's one of those things na may biglang scary face na lalabas with matching screaming sound. yeah..totally nakakagulat. siyempre, natakot si camie. eh anong ginagawa ni camie pag takot siya? umiiyak. and i did..i was so scared that i screamed (as in LOUD) and cried. aww...they were all laughing coz i was the only who got scared by that. yeah..anyway, after that, we ate and they left narin..aww..

sergio and i had some moments alone when his friends arrived. he introduced me to them. =) after that, his family members naman. ayun. super nahiya nako. haha! so we just stayed together for almost the whole night. it was so nice...i get to see him so happy on his birthday. aww..lovely. =) doy and i slept over at his place. coolness.. =)

the next day, we dropped off doy at the sakayan and we went to SM Mall Of Asia. Mahn, the mall was so huge! i was so amazed..hehe! we first went to this side of the mall where it overlooks the manila bay...so sweet. we took some pics on my phone, which was kinda malabo. after that, we went around and decided to buy tickets at the IMAX theater. we bought tickets for the movie/show called NASCAR. well, it was a 3d film..na mostly tinulugan ni sergio. hehe. it was cool..though super lakas ng sounds na nabingi ako. haha! after the film, we ate at sbarro. gawd, i was full. hehe. after eating, when sergio finally noticed that there were so many people, we went back to his house na. =)

i had so much fun with sergio. well, i always do naman eh. kaya nga i love him very, very much! everytime im with him, i'm so happy. aww.. =)

*thanks for the wonderful weekend baby! hope u enjoyed your bday with me! hehe. i luvee you porkchop! haha! ;) *mwah*

kanina, i went to the salon to have a foot spa & get my nails done. it was so relaxing..and my nails are very cool too! hehe. =)

tom, 1st day of classes na. can't wait to see my blockmates! and of course sergio! haha! =)

another up enrollment day for me. again, hassle. super tiring. oh well, atleast i got some of my major subjects na. 2 more to go and an elective and a pe 3 class..shiyet. goodluck. pfft.

anyway...share ko lang. =)

i have this hobby of making "kalikot" other people's cellphones. you know, look at their inbox, look for nice quotes then you "accidentally" read their personal messages. hehe =) kanina, i borrowed sergio's phone. first, yung sun phone niya. ok pa..puro quotes. then yung globe naman..ayan na. at first, i was ok..puro quotes pa eh. then when i got to the part where the old messages were, yan na..medyo nanlaki mata ko eh. well, i don't wanna say what the messages were about..basta it kinda made me stop and think for awhile. fine..i got a "little" jealous..and i was thinking that maybe he's doing something that im not aware of. yeah, i trust him..i really, really do. but there are times when you still think that there's something that you don't know. la lang. that moment struck me kanina. stupid noh? hehe. well, i asked him who those people were and he answered naman...well, except for one sender there. when i read her (i assumed that it was a girl..well, it looked like it) messages, i was so sure who she was already. the name gave me a clue that instant. and when i read her messages i was like, "hmm.." i got curious. and what made me wonder is that everytime i ask who those people are, i still have this little doubt about them. i guess that's normal...is it?
one things for sure, i trust him. whatever he says, i always believe him. sabi nga niya kanina when is aid that it's time for him to learn to erase his other messages, "ayaw mo nun, wala akong tinatago sau..." well, yeah he has a point but i still get jealous and curious whenever i read those messages. haha..i'm making a big deal out of this. la lang..napapaisip lang ako eh..well, this time. i read his phone messages a number of times already but only today i got struck by those messages..haaay...*sigh* paranoia..tsktsk..

and i realized that i was so darn wrong when i said that love can be without trust. nope..you cannot love a person if you don't trust them. shiyet..i just ate my words na sobrang pinandigan ko before. haha. funny me.. =)

but what's so nice about this is whenever i get jealous of these things, just a word from him quickly erases that feeling. i mean, just a sweet text or hear his cute voice when he's making "pacute" on the phone, i instantly forget that i'm jealous and he makes me smile again. la lang..i just find that sweet. =) oh well, i just hope that he's not like that with other girls..hehe. =p

* i love you baby..so much. =)

i went to UP kanina for my enrollment. as usual, HASSLE. hehe. super tiring and confusing..thank God sergio was there. yey. =) vicka looked horrible kanina..para siyang lantang gulay. haha. well, she was with nikki and sj..and they all looked, well, cute. sarap picturan. hehe. welcome to UP dearies..ano, kaya pa? hehe. =p anyway, another enrollment day for us...1 week nanaman toh..damn..pfft. :S

anyway, this is SO SWEET. read...

CaMiE's Testimonials

sErGiO 6/6/2006
The first time i saw herHer eyesheld me captivatedwhere I stood.Her smileto dazzle the sunand warm every corner of my soul.Her voicelike a sparkling streamwhich flows straight into my heart.Her walkand the way her gracefulnesstakes my breath away (syempre dancer.. hehe =p)Her hairabout which I dreamedcascading into my faceeverytime she leans over me.Her handswhose caress I craveto hold my facein their tenderness.Your armsI long to have around my waistas you pull me closeto your warmth.Her lipsthat i crave everytimewe get close....Most of alleverything you arechanged the way I feel about my life.I love you baby =p

o dibuh? that made my night. and made me so kilig! i blushed kaya after reading that...really. =) haha. musta nman ang sobrang inlove dyan?? hehe. la lang. =)
*thanks for the testi baby! i love you SOOOOOOOOOOOO much!!! mwah mwah mwah! at nanggigigil ako sayo ngayon. haha! *mwah* <3

today's a very special day..monthsary namin ni sergio!!! hehe. too bad we weren't together..oh well. kahapon naman magkasama kami eh. ;)

Sergio,
happy 5th monthsary baby!! wow..5 months na tayo. akalain mo yun??! haha! and you said that you'd never imagine that saying to a girl..aww..galing ko noh??? haha! told ya! =p
anyway, serious na. baby, thanks so much for everything you've showed and given me this past 5 months..hindi mo lang alam na sobrang na-aapreciate ko lahat ng binibigay mo sakin. even the littlest things..yeah. hehe. =) i learned so much from you: being independent, being "mature" and stuff like that. i never met a person like you. you're the only one whom i'm so comfortable with that i could show my real self to you..aww.. =) hehe. thanks also for being so patient with me especially when i'm having my moodswings, "kalabuan" days and when i'm acting childish. i know that sometimes you're getting fed up already because i always forget my mistakes kasi eh. I'm sorry baby..i know you get hurt whenever i'm doing these things..and i'm really sorry about that. i know also that you're kinda fed up with my sorries na..la lang. thanks for still loving me despite all those things. i'm so lucky to have you, someone so patient, kind and loving. i always feel blessed knowing that you're always by my side and i feel so content with my life right now. i wouldn't ask for anything more.(ay, ang mushy..haha) whenever i'm with you, i feel this kind of happiness that i couldn't explain and i just don't want the day to end. and i always look forward in seeing you & being with you. you're one of the reasons why i'm so happy with my life right now, baby. thanks for that. =) i just wish that our relationship will grow stronger and we'll have more monthsaries to come. =) i love you more and more each day, baby and i thank God that i met you. you're so special and i wouldn't want to lose you now coz i couldn't imagine my life without Sergio. =) happy monthsary again and i love you soooooo much! *mwah*

pre-monthsary =)

sergio went here kanina. yupyup! i invited him for lunch. it's like our pre-monthsary celebration. hehe. something new. no going to the malls, just here at my house. tipid kasi eh..sssh...haha! =p anyway, i had so much fun! i missed him so much kasi eh! he arrived at around 11am here, eh im still at the grocery, buying some food to eat. when i arrived, yan na. start na ng "fun". haha! *wink* =p bad trip nga coz he had to leave early. my mom texted me and told me na they're (my parents) are going home already...yeah, right. wala pa nga sila hanggang ngayon eh. argh! anyway, there's always a next time...right, baby??? haha! oh! i'm so excited narin next saturday! he invited me to go to SM Mall of Asia. ICe skating! hehe! well, i'm gonna teach how to glide, baby...that will be so fun. hehe! ;) i really had fun with my baby today...i was SO happy to see him! after 1 very long week...yey!!! happy happy! haha! (di rin obvious eh..haha)

* thanks for today baby! i hope you had a great time coz i sure did...SUPER! haha. =p yey! 5 months na tayo tom! excited ako!! haha! and i hope we're gonna have many more monthsaries to come..please??? hehe. *mwah* I LOVE YOU VERY, VERY MUCH SERGIO!! <3

i'm loving him more each day...gosh. hehe. ;)

anyway, monday's UP day for me and my barkada. wala lang. hang-out lang. and oh, issa's gonna introduce us to IJ. haha, la lang. excited na me. haha!

*** namiss kita ulit..darn. oh well, i'll see u soon! =)

oh sh*tty, i still don't have any idea what to give sergio on his bday....heeeeeeellllpppp!!!! pls? =) hehe

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i just came home from my cousin's place. i stayed there for a week...la lang. i was so darn bored here kasi sa bahay so i went there. i just don't like it here sa bahay. haha!

anyway, last saturday, JOey slept over here sa house. she arrived late due to the hard rain. i thought nga na di na siya tutloy kasi super lakas talaga nung rain. buti nalang pumunta parin siya. hehe. we watched Eternal Sunshine...and it was a good movie. something new for Jim Carey. i was so amazed by the movie..haha! tapos wala..puro kwentuhan na. i missed being with her. i missed talking to her too! i missed our usual hang-outs dito sa bahay...i so missed her! we were too busy kasi nung pasukan so we didnt have the chance for something like this. thank God na we're both free this summer and wala na talaga kaming magawa..haha!
*joey: thanks dude for coming here! i missed u so much! next time ulit ok? sorry i can't come tom..next time promise. =) *mwah* love u dearie!! =)

tapos, nung monday, my cousins invited me to watch x-Men 3 with them. well, i'm not into xmen stuff but i agreed narin. rare lang yung mga times na magyaya yung kuya ko eh! hehe. we watched xmen3 in gateway but before going there we stopped by at ateneo. so, musta naman ang pagiikot sa ateneo for like 45 mins? haha. when we passed by the HS building, i was so surprised..new faces sobra. so na-feel ko na tumatanda nako. damn. haha! we went back narin sa kuya namin and off we went to gateway. we were late for the 1:50pm show so we bought tickets for the 3pm show. tumambay muna kami sa timezone. then, after 30 mins of waiting, we went inside the cinema narin. the movie was ok..cool nung mga effects. tapos nung patapos na, alisa was telling us about this "super ending" at the end of the credits stuff. so we waited. ayan na..tapos to our surprise, *tadaaa!!* 5 seconds lang siya. yeah, some kind of a super ending huh? haha. we went na sa house nila after..

last wednesday, we went naman sa house ng ibang cousins namin. la lang..boredom. nangapitbahay lang kami ni alisa.. haha!

yesterday, our ate texted us and invited us for lunch at shangrila. alisa and i went there. we ate lunch and after eating, we looked around the mall to buy smething. at sa sobrang pag-iiokt, we didn't buy anything. haha. we went with our ate to her office somewhere at shaw. sobrang lamig...and boring. haha. we went tuloy sa red ribbon just to kill time..and eat cake. after an hour at red ribbon, we went back and waited for our ate. after that, we went to cubao to buy something for our cousin who had an accident. kuya francis had a motorcycle accident kasi and caused him an operation on his left arm. yikes! we bought Gonuts and we went narin afterwards sa St. Luke's hospital. afer an hour of pangungulit to our kuya and answering some stupid crossword puzzles, we went home narin.

today, we just stayed home. tapos it rained so hard pa kanina. complete with thunder and lightnings. shiyet..scary. my mom picked me up and we went home narin. God, i missed our house. i missed my room, my bed..my computer and my internet. hehe! oh, i missed our telephone too! la kasing dialtone yung phone dun eh..medyo nawindang naman ako kasi i can't communicate with sergio properly. haha. ;)

oh, may bagong puppy yung sila alisa. super cute. si Paris. terrier siya..cutie paris. i wish i have one...*ahem* hehe! =p

i just realized something..from now on, i'll update more often in this blog. la lang..i have an urge to erase my past blogs..de. wag nalang. bahala na mabulok yun. haha!

* to YOU: i miss you so damn much already..i can't wait too see you tom. yey! haha! I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU!!!! i'm so happy to have you baby..super. =) *mwahmwah*

he's going here kasi tom..la lang. ;) 5 months na kami sa sun..coolness! hehe! <3

oh wait..shoutout...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUSTIN!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHA & COCO!!!!

i love you guys so much! miss you! *mwah*