this one's for you VICKA. =)

just keep pokin'. =p

honooo....

ok. Juniors division. Ateneo won. (aymzowprowdovyew guyz!) yeah boi. =)

it's a sign baby! *prays*

ANIMO ATENEO! (oh yeah. feel like you're an ATENISTA. =p )

loves et. ;)

kahit sa TV nalang ako nanonood, feel ko parin. naka-ATENEO shirt ako ngayon mehn. f na f ko. sureee na... haha! =p

Seniors game na...it's time. =)

haha! GO ATENEO!!! ♥

yey!

still, no classes..yeah boi. nacancel nanaman exam ko for today. wee! i loved the typhoon..it made my academic life..uhh..peaceful..? haha!

pero yesterday was a total disaster..no communications whatsoever..ang hirap mehn. labo ng signal ng sun, malabo rin ang globe--lag palagi. tapos yung phone namin, biglang dead. bad trip coz nung ako na yung gagamit, boglang nawala. amp..sa sobrang inis ko kahapon, i just slept. nakatulugan ko tuloy yung kaisa-isang katext ko nun...si sergio. hehe. sorry baby! *mwah*

i dunno if i'm gonna go out later..wala pang tubig samin..pota. kating-kati nako. but take note! HINDI AKO MABAHO. hahaha! =p

*bakit mo binaba yung phone kanina?? sinagot ko lang yung callwait eh..haay..oh well, i just hope na tumawag ka ulit coz i can't make any outgoing calls. BV. rawr. anyway, i love you! ♥

stormy (and VERY windy) day

yey! no classes today! =) that means, cancelled yung lahat ng exams ko today! weee!!! haha! i was too lazy to study kasi yesterday...it was so cold and i wanted to sleep all night long! God answered my prayer...thanks Lord! =) sana tom din walang pasok para wala narin ako exam sa hk 109..haha! =)

the only problem is, it's gonna be super boring here sa house. yikes..kung hindi ba naman kasi malakas yung hangin eh siguro makakalabas pako. hahaha! even the storm couldn't stop me from going out..haha! =p

cancelled 2nd game ng Ateneo-Ust. aww..sa sat nalang daw. can't wait can't wait!! =)

i'm running out of things to write. gotta go. ♥

* i loooooooove you!!! hugs&kisses ♥♥♥

dancing in september

F.U.N. =)

i got to UP at around 8am because we had this first aid thingy for the Judo Interclass competition. astig ng mga babae sa hk...ang lalakas eh! hehe. they always won compared to the boys..hay nako..mahiya naman kayo! haha! =p i dunno if hk got the most gold medals..SANA. =)

after that, Dancing in September naman. yeah. =)

i danced with my advance streetdance class. yeah boi, break dancin' ka buh?! haha! sergio watched..yipee!! too abd di na nakaabot si joey love..tagal kasi eh. aww...don't feel guilty love. ok lang tlaga. sorry na rin kung kelangan ko ng umalis kagad. i have so many exams tom kasi eh. next time, promise. =)

baby, thanks for watching! it is very much appreciated that you watched my performance. =) yey! love love ko baby ko! *mmmmmwaaaaaahhh* ♥♥♥

haay..buong araw na may exam bukas. rawr...time to study. pfft. =

ONE BIG FIGHT!

haha! i just love saying that. =p

yesterday, i went to watch the UAAP finals game between ATeneo and UST with my love, joey! =)

the game was soooooooo exciting! intense is the word that could best describe it. =) sobrang astig ng ateneo kasi last 1 sec...nagkamiracle shot from kramer. yeah boi..we believe! haha! =)) it was so funny coz i was the only one who's wearing blue and cheering for ateneo in the "yellow crowd". oh ha, sinong makapal ang mukha at mayabang diyan?! hahaha! pero it was fun naman..i enjoyed watching alot with Joey. =) thanks love! *mwah*

oh, i got my tiger ears already..and the "book". hmm..interesting.. =p

Sergio's back from davao. yey! he got us (my family and i. hehe) pasalubongs (plural kasi marami. haha)! he got my mom a pearl bracelet, my dad some pastries and me? tantantan....a pearl necklace! it was so niiiiiiiiiceeee! loved it! he wore it nga sakin eh..and i was surprised to see that necklace. biro mo, he's not that type who gives material stuff (or any stuff at that matter. hehe) pero he gave me a necklace...awww....sweet. =) thanks so much baby! i REALLY loved it! =) oh, magiging akin din yung bracelet..hahaha! =p

super saya ko ngayon kahit na hindi ko nakuha kay sergio (ahem!) ang gusto ko...hahahaha! disappointed baby. tsktsk. =p

*i loooooooooooove you!!! and i'll always will! *mwah*

*** a very clumsy moment: kanina, in school sergio and i went to the ISSI bldg. to do something *ahem* and when we're going back to the gym na, while walking down the stairs i fell! super poised pa pagkahulog ko...tapos si sergio di ako sinalo. tsktsk..bad baby. di man lang ako sinave...*sigh* nice boyfriend. haha. so ngayon ang sakit ng hips ko pati ng neck ko (huh?!). oh well..funny talaga. wala lang. =p

coolness

saturday night

last night was a fun. i got home very, very late because bries' mom doesn't want us to leave yet. ehe. anyway, i was so surprised because there weren't that much guests and there were so many vacant tables. the UP people are just a few..those who are expected didn't come. aww..and the party started so late. i got so hungry.. =c hehe. when bries finally got down, she was beautiful. loved her gown..and the program was fun as well. too bad sergio was not there at the 18 roses thingy..ang touchy nung mga descriptions sa mga tao. and oh, i was so amazed because i got to see and talk again with most of my batchmates in miriam...i missed them so much! so bonding naman ako with some of them while waiting for dinner...aww.. =)

the program was great...the mCHS PEpsquad HArdcourt performed a dance number with bri ( aww...i missed you guys so much!) na super nainggit kami ni anne. haha! dibale babes, we're gonna dance together again next time! =) and the band of Gem and his friends was super good. loved their music. =)

all in all, the party wasn't that bad after all. though there were not that plenty of guests, it was still a blast and i could tell bries enjoyed it. =) i love you, love! HAppy birthday! ♥

later, i'm gonna watch the finals of the UAAP with Joey...Ateneo vs UST. yeah! GO ATENEO!!! wee!! haha! =p

*i miss you! yey! uwi kana later... =) i love u so much!! ♥

hollywood partey

ok, so in just a few moments, i will be going to my good friend Bries' "hollywood party". it's ehr 18th bash kasi, hollywood yung theme. it took me 4 hours sa mall para lang maka oput up ng attire ko for the party. oh, ha, san ka pa...glam na ito. haha!

oh, and i learned something. thanks to vicka. tadaaaaa!!! ---> ♥♥♥

ayan naman, wiling-wili nako sa kakagawa niyan. kyot. ♥ =p

* baby, i so wish that you're here tonight..para di parents ko ang kasma ko sa party ni bri. =c oh well. pasalubong ko! gusto ko bearcat. cuddly bearcat! yey! haha! =p aymeezyewzowmats! uwi ka na..pls? ehe. =) i loooooooooove you!!!♥♥♥♥

yeah boi. love the hearts. ♥♥♥

since sergio's way down south..

sound trip nalang tayo. yehey. haha! =) (pagbigyan..may PMS kasi eh. haha)

Breaking Up Is Hard To Do
Renee Olstead(Renee Olstead)

Don't take your love away from me
Don't you leave my heart in misery
If you go then I'll be blue'
Cause breaking up his hard to do

Remember when you held me tight
And you kissed me all through the night
Think of all that we've been through
Breaking Up Is Hard To Do

They say that breaking up is hard to do
Now I know, I know that it's true
Don't say that this is the end
Instead of breaking up I wish that we were making up again
We were making up again

I beg of you
Don't say goodbye
Can't we give our love just one more try
Come on baby, let's start a new'
Cause breaking up is hard to do

~*~

A Love That Will Last
Renee Olstead

I want a little something more
Don't want the middle or the one before
I don't desire a complicated past I want a love that will last

Say that you love
Say im the one
Don't kiss and hug me and then try to run
I don't do drama
My tears don't fall fast
I want a love that will last

(Chorus) I don't want a just a memory
Gives me forever
Don't even think about saying good-bye
Cuz i want just one love to be enough
And remain in my heart till i die

So call me romantic
Oh i guess that must be so
Theres something more that you oughta know
I'll never leave you
So don't even ask
I want a love that will last

Forever
I want a love that will last
I want a love that will last

(Chorus) I don't want a just a memory
Gives me forever
Don't even think about saying good-bye
Cuz i want just one love to be enough
And remain in my heart till i die

So theres little more that i need
I wanna share all the air you breathe
I'm not the kinda girl to complicate the past
I want a love that will last

Forever
I want a love the love that last
Always
I just want a love that will last
Want a love that will last

love this song

NEVER MY LOVE
The Association

You ask me if there'll come a time
When I grow tired of you
Never my love
Never my love

You wonder if this heart of mine
Will lose its desire for you
Never my love
Never my love

What makes you think love will end
When you know that my whole life depends
On you (on you)
Never my love
Never my love

You say you fear I'll change my mind
And I won't require you
Never my love
Never my love

How can you think love will end
When I've asked you to spend your whole life
With me (with me, with me)

PMS sucks!

i'm having my menstrual cramps right now...it's so painful! i didn't go to school na nga coz i couldn't walk and stay standing that long. rawr. i hate this day! actually, yesterday din. long story basta it's all this stupid dysmennorhea's fault...*sighs*

anyway, last wed. our advance ballroom class had this ballroom dance compet. held at the college of social work. grabe, experience talaga siya. that was the first time i entered a competition that i danced ballroom. super kinakabahan talaga ako. my parents watched...just them. sergio wasn't able to watch becasue of some reasons..and for me, they were kinda lame. but oh well, i understood naman so i didn't make kulit him to still go and watch. i was so jealous of my other classmates coz their boyfriends were there and supporting them. mine, wala. but i still appreciated his effort to text me before the compet. yeah..but still, that kinda made me hurt. la lang...maybe becasue i'm too inggit of my classmates. oh well. thank God, i dealt with that in a positive way.

my partner and i made it through the semi-finals round. too bad we didn't win. but it was ok.. we had fun naman eh. yey! :)

oh, oh! the high school kids were sooooo GOOD. as in! haha, la lang! :) congrats to all the winners! :)

i arrived home very, very late so the next day i was so sabog. plus a sudden menstrual cramps just tops everything off. how cool could my day get yesterday..pfft.

ok, so enough of my PMS moments. sergio's at the airport right now with his family. they're going to davao and stay there til sunday. aww...missing baby.. =p you guys take care there ok? pasalubong ko! haha! kiddin'. oh, be a good baby...please?

i love you so much!! and i'm very sorry for being very masungit and for irritating you yesterday. PMS, pls understand nalang.. *mwah* lovelove!

loves et. =)

[baby] Sergio: baby baby baby =)
camie: what?
[baby] Sergio: may poem ako for you..
[baby] Sergio: wait..
camie: game
camie: !
[baby] Sergio: You came from my dreams,Filling my heart.Walking beside me,Holding me closeThe gentleness you bestowed upon meThe closeness we shareLeaves me in awe of you.
So many truths of dreams and desiresHeld so tight.Hidden just below the surfaceA heart no longer silentThe need to share the realityOf such purity of essence
You see me as I amI wear no mask before youStanding vulnerable, shy, soft, and lovingNo pretending, it is very realYou're not my imagination,But what was missing from my soul
A piece of cloth,Woven so close.Threads intertwinedEach touched by the other.Held tight, each making the other strongWith every thread, it becomes more completeOne in the same, each enhancing the other
Do we stand and questionThe purity of this moment
[baby] Sergio: Together in sight of a common goalOr merely brushing it aside, and settlingWith a mere existence
Will we have the courageTo open our hearts,Letting our souls reach out,Sharing completely
Knowing this could be ... that last chanceCould we just walk away ?Or reach for all the dreams to come true
camie: you just never fail to make my smile, do you?
camie: aww..love it. san mo naman nakuha yan?
[baby] Sergio: hehe.. thats what i do best baby! mwah

~*~

yeah.. =) love you! <3

ho-hum

i'm bored...yep..when did i never get bored? rawr.

i want my tiger ears na! joey love, where are they?? game nako maging tiger..haha! RAWRRR. (with matching hand gesture)

game nakong mangakit ng isang tao diyan..let's get it on, babe! haha! hussssssshhhhhhh...

see, bored bored BORED! ehk.

**i looooooooove you! congrats sa pagkapanalo sa PS2 game kanina! videogame freak..eek! haha! *mwahmwah*

life's good.. (yeah boi)

oh, so, so good! yupyup! i'm just so happy..why? we're ok na! =) all i need pala is palamigin ang ulo niya...woooohooooo!! yeah boi..aylaveet. =)

anyway, last night we went to our blockmate Danya's debut at Albergus Resto. [belated] happy birthday dearest!! =) it was a fun night..the food was ok.. hehe =) saya nung mga taga-hk..sobrang kulit! we had fun just by entertaining ourselves..haha. loves et. after that, i went home narin kagad...i was so darn sleepy na kasi. rawr. sergio and i went home na..uish. =) he spent the night here ;)

kanina naman, i went to araneta coll. to watch the UAAP basketball semis with my dahling Joey. =) ok, so i thought yung womens game lang ang papanoorin namin..but noooo! di na kami umalis ng araneta coz we stayed na to watch the other women's and juniors game plus the Ateneo-Adamson and Ue-Ust games..coolnees. sumakit ang ulo at major energy level down to the highest level ako..haha! di gna seryoso...ang hyper ko nung morning pero pagdating nung ue-ust game, wala na..bangag nako. hahaha!

congrats to all the winners! oh, oh! i so missed this: GO ATENEO!!!! haha! missed cheering that. =p

i gotta end this na. i'm super tired and my head's kinda hurtin' already..hehe. lovelove! *mwah*

* i loooooooooooooooooooooooooovvvveeeee you baby!! =) i'll never let you go! uish! =p *mwah*

hanging on

i just couldn't do it.

last night, vicka and i were talking about a probable solution to our problem. so i tried talking to him right after that. but when i heard his voice already, something stopped me from saying to or asking him what i was about to ask. i just can't..di ko kaya. i realized as we were "talking". so i decided to end our conversation and sobrang init na rin ng ulo mo and i don't want it to get worse. i just couldn't bear to prolong this agony..*sigh*

at hindi ko parin matake yung profile mo sa friendster...shit, natatakot ako.. =c

atleast, im not making kulit you anymore. i'm not making "habol" or something. i just want you to calm down and no matter how long that will take, i'm willing to wait. i know you don't want to talk to me right now so i'm just gonna shut up as well. i hope you're satisfied na with that...

i'm tired of messing up everything. i'm tired of wanting to correct that mess at that instant. if you want to prolong this, fine. i just want us to be ok and get back to normal..

oo, 1 week kitang ginanito. sorry na..di ko naman kasi ineexpect na maging ganito yung week natin eh.

Oh God, pls give me the strength to hang-on to this..coz i'm about to let go already and i really don't wanna do that. please, just give us another chance..

thanks vicka for lending me your ears last night..i really needed someone to listen. soulmates din tayo..haha. =) thanks din sa kabangagan mode kagabi..ALPP..the best, bentang benta eh. hahaha! =)

*i'm really sorry about everything...i know that i caused this problem and i'm going to fix it. just trust me..pls? that's all i need..

to sergio

Love
by Pablo Neruda

What's wrong with you, with us, what's happening to us? Ah our love is a harsh cord that binds us wounding us and if we want to leave our wound, to separate, it makes a new knot for us and condemns us to drain our blood and burn together. What's wrong with you? I look at you and I find nothing in you but two eyes like all eyes, a mouth lost among a thousand mouths that I have kissed, more beautiful, a body just like those that have slipped beneath my body without leaving any memory. And how empty you went through the world like a wheat-colored jar without air, without sound, without substance! I vainly sought in you depth for my arms that dig, without cease, beneath the earth: beneath your skin, beneath your eyes, nothing, beneath your double breast scarcely raised a current of crystalline order that does not know why it flows singing. Why, why, why, my love, why?

haaay...

one thing that i learned this day...

keep your friggin' mouth shut.

yeah boi. that's the one.



bring it on, babe.

losing it..

ok, so i'm starting to lose myself lately. i always get irritated, hot-tempered and so angry that fast, do some scandalous things (and i mean, scandalous), i always shout, hit, push, insist what i want...basically, i'm having tantrums and guess what??! i'm 19 already.

now, my boyfriend's complaining na "nasasakal ko na daw siya". shitty, what's happening to me?! i'm not like this naman before eh...i keep on repeating my unintentional mistakes and i just couldn't learn how to control myself...

total self-destruction. jeezaz!

i desperately need a cure for this. i need to get myself together and return to the old, normal, camie that i am. i need to regain my boyfriend's trust in me...i need help!!!

i need someone to slap me on the face and tell me, "grow the fuck up, Camie!!"

he/ she who does that, is my one true friend. =)

so, please...save me from this hell inside me...

*i'm REALLY sorry... =c

help!

shit, my boyfriend's being an ass again. jeezaz!

long story. no time to tell. rawr.

*save me..pls?

good morning

i hate it when the first thing that happens with your morning is a nag from your parents. yup. that happened to me awhile ago and it was the lamest nag ive ever heard. broken umbrella. how cool could my morning get? sheeze..

i broke [for the nth time] my new [take note] umbrella yesterday when i was in school. i didn't mind coz what's new? my umbrella keeps on breaking itself. funny coz i didn't do anything for it to break or something..but it just did. when i told my mom that i broke it, she was so cool with it. but my dad...haha, funny. he kept on nagging me and telling me how clumsy i am and stuff. never expected that from my dad. jeeezaz!

oh well. time to buy a new one for the nth, nth, NTH time. yey...new umbrellas coming up! =p

anyway, i went to sergio's place yesterday after knowing that i err, we didn't have our hk 92 class. he got sick after we ate lunch at the SC [screw you, sc! haha!] so i accompanied him going home. stayed for awhile at his place and went back to north ave. to meet up with my parents at sm north.

upon arriving there, we [my parents and i] decided to meet at the new mall bldg. of SM. so from the mrt station to this building i walked. pota...it was a VERY long walk that when i arrived there, i was so craving for a drink. but when i saw the shoes and the clothes there [we met at the hypermarket downstairs], i forgot about everything and just have to scan these pieces. haha. after that, went straight to my cousin's place, ate dinner, watched a bit, then went home already.

later, i'm going to have a ballroom practice with my partner for our dance compet next week. haay...katamad... pfft. =

* i looooooooooooooooooove you!! *mwahmwah*

what a day..

what a day. as in lahat ng energy ko used up..take note, i didn't dance. rawr. don't wanna make kwento anymore coz i really didn't like the things that happened kanina. thankfully, everything's ok already..thank you. =)

for all those i made "damay" with my "kasungitan modes" kanina, I'M SORRY...really. marami kayo, alam ko. i didn't mean na idamay kayo. sorry..

i'm really so thankful that everything turned out very well for us. i was about to give up...as in this close...whew. thanks baby. =)

anyway, we watched the UAAP Cheerdance Competition yesterday. wala, talo. haha. oh well, they were expecting it. minadali eh. dibale.. =p

i don't know why but i just don't feel like blogging today..haay..oh well...towel. [ngek]

"i choose to be different."

last friday was my [other] bestfriend's 20th birthday. [belated] HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOEY!! yuck, you're out of your "teen" already...tanda mo na! but i hate you coz you still look young! argh! haha..kiddin' love. =) anyway, we had brunch at philcoa with sergio. we ate so many food! well, kami lang pala ni serge yun. haha. =) then, she stayed with us sa UP for awhile and went to school already. aww...i missed you so much joey girl. hope that sergio and i made your day special....somehow. hehe. =) *mwah*

oh, and that afternoon, i finally wathced the devil wears prada. yupyup! i'm so glad that ive finally watched that movie..after a week of making kulit to everyone. haha. yey! =p and oh, the fun part there was that i watched it all by myself. hehe. ayaw kasi akong samahan ni sergio eh..i was so desperate na kasi. haha! so there i was, inside the movie house, with couples surrounding me, enjoying my holy kettle corn. very, very fun. =p the movie was good..Anne Hathaway was so hot! especially her clothes, super! hehe. too bad i wasn't able to catch the start of the movie..pero ok lang. steady parin. =)

and because of that movie, i caught a fever and a "severe" side stitch at the right side of my body...rawr. but it was still worth it. =p

ok, so later i'm gonna watch the UAAP cheerdance compet at the araneta coll. hmm...so what's in it for the UP Pep squad today? i dunno..let's just see later during the compet.

*loooooooooooovvvvvveeeee!! hehe. *mwah*

save me..i'm bored.

yeah..as in REALLY. BORED. =

wednesdays sucks..most especially when you're just stuck here sa house, with no gimmicks whatsoever. rawr.

i still want to watch the devil wears prada. super desperado nako. help me..

* i love you! mwahugz! <3

<3

yesterday was so fun!! it was our 8th monthsary and it was the first time that we were back together in school! oh yeah! =) 8 months na...yea boi...going strong. =) we had our lunch date at teriyaki boy, katipunan. then, nung afternoon, after our classes, we went out. actually, DOTA muna with the two hk boys for an hour then we went somewhere na. we were supposed to watch the devil wears prada, but due to an unexpected incidence (sergio got sick), we went to his house nalang para makapag-rest na siya. it was late na when we arrived at their house and it was raining so hard..so i stayed for awhile. but yung awhile na yun medyo tumagal so they let me stay for the night their. siyempre, natuwa naman si sergio boy. hehe. =) so there..he was sick and i took care of him. aww.. =)

we went to school kanina. i went with him sa infirmary para makapag-med cert. we had no classes sa hk 92. tapos, sa katipunan, we had a little misunderstanding that led to a mild fight. hehe. but all was well afterwards. didn't go to my afternoon classes becasue i went with him ulit pauwi sakanila. after a long, quiet and masungit drive, when we arrived sa house nila, we were ok na. thanks to sergio and his uniqueness of how to make me not mad and feel better. hehe. ;) bummed around a bit then i went home narin. =)

fudge, i didn't attend classes nanaman sa UP fil. oh well, thursday...promise! =)

nakaktamad na kasi eh. i dunno but i really want to dance but i'm friggin' lazy to attend classes. rawr. sana mawala na yung feeling natoh. =

*i love you so much! and i hope that you're feeling better na. don't forget your meds ok?! *looooove*

happy. very, very happy. =)

yey!

after 5 days of longing for him (haha)...i got to be with him! yey! =)

i dont wanna make kwento na. basta, ang super saya! the whole afternoon with him...yeyeye! =) loves it. i looooooooooooooooooooove him!! =) and i super duper uber missed him! haha =)

anyway, after that, i went to my cousin marlo's place. birthday niya kasi eh. [belated] HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARLO!!! much love!! =) his "party" was fun...and dami niyang friends. hehe. food trippin' and inuman sessions...i loved it. went home na at around 2:30am..all wasted and sh*t. haha! i just woke up actually and i have a terrible head ache. yawch! =p

later, i'm going to my tito. he's in the hospital kasi eh...Anaphylactic shock. yehes...first aid. ;)

* baby, baby, baby!!! i really had fun yesterday! just watching you sleep and stuff..weee! i love you!!!! *mwahmwahmwah* and oh, congrats! *hug* =)

day 5

ok, so it's very weird coz i've been blogging about the days i'm not with sergio. la lang..pansin ko lang. God, i miss him that much just to write about some stuff that aren't that important naman. haay...i miss spending time with him. rawr..

anyway, school was ok. quite boring as usual. besides not having my bf around, i didn't saw bries as well. aww..too bad for me. anyway, i was so desperate to watch The Devil Wears Prada that i made kulit my blockmates to come and watch it with me. but nooo...not successful. nobody even bothered to ask me when and where. haha. poor me..*sniff*

seriously, i'm so desperate to watch that movie. i dunno why but it causght my attention and made kulit my system to watch it. i read the book na...it was nice. that's why i wanna watch that movie ASAP to see if it's as good as the book. haha.

i need a (movie) date. are you intersted to be my date??? PLEASE????

*baby, i miss spending time with you na...nakakainis kasi ang tagal matapos ng week na to. argh. oh well, induction mo na bukas...goodluck! i know you'll do good..kaw pa. i love you so much! *mwah*

movie with me...please? ;)