Funny how people react to certain things. like for example, when someone scanned someone else's blog and read something about him or her, he or she automatically feels that the author of the blog is pertaining to that certain person. well, yeah they do actually. ;) and its so amazing coz when that reader gets so affected by it, he or she bothers the author for some clarifications, even though it was already clarified in that blog entry. haha, weird. =p

ok, so i was referring to you. got a problem with that? yeah? then get yourself a blog and start writing about me..rather than saying some things behind my back. you know, it amazes me how you react to my blog entry...you're so affected by it. so, need i clarify things to you pa ba? cmon boy, it was easily said there. read again. =)

id prefer more when people tell me personally if they have some issues with me rather than hearing them from others...most especially when you know that it was my close friend you told it to. id rather not stoop down to that level where you just pretend to be my friend and when i turn my back, bad things come from your mouth...

simply amazing. haha.

anyway,i got a card from sergio kaninang morning. yeah..and i was really surprised. the content of the card was so sweet...i loved it. it made my day. (though someone had to ruin it that instant...steady lang.) uhm, baby...i really appreciated what you've done this day. looking forward this week...MY WEEK. haha! i love you so much sergio!! you just never fail to make me feel so darn special...yey! =)

Happiness. need i say more?? <3

" Tease me, please me, indulge me, abuse me..."

haha. loves et. yummy. ;)

anyway, i watched the opening of the UAAP '69 kanina at the araneta colliseum. i was with sergio and some of our blockmates. it was fun at first..happy-happy. then, nung pagkatapos na...ayan na. magulo nanaman. everything went complicated again..shit. =|

bakit ganun? all i ever asked is just to spend some time with you...you know, chill and hang-out lang. is that too much to ask??! i never ask for any material stuff from you..never made palibre and all that...just some time with you, that's just what makes me happy. cheezy na kung sa cheezy pero just being with you completes my day. i miss you when i'm not with you kaya nga i make it a point to spend my available time with you eh..lalo na yung sinabi mo na next month, 1 week or almost a month tayong di masyadong magkikita..nilulubos ko na nga eh. sorry ha..demanding yata para sayo yun eh...i'm really sorry...

and oh, i'm really sorry too if i scratched you accidentally kanina..nainis nanaman ako. i wanted to shout kasi para di kita masaktan but i can't. nasa mall tayo eh..nakakahiya. sorry na talaga...=,c

you know, sobrang i wanna quit na with my life. why? i always hurt the people that i love. and what's so sad is i keep on doing the same mistakes at di talaga ako madala. i dunno why...maybe sa sobrang ayoko silang mawala sakin, nagiging selfish ako na unconsciously nasasaktan ko na pala sila. i'm REALLY sorry for that...=,c what sucks more is that i always end up losing my love ones. and im so helpless about it. kaya nga super gusto ko ng magquit sa life eh..wala namang progress na nangyayari...lagi ko nalang siya nasasaktan and the more i wanna change and avoid that, the more na nasasaktan ko siya.. =,(

sana magkasakit nalang ako, yung tipong nakamamatay...la lang. kasi i'm scared to kill myself naman so i just wish that my body kills itself nalang..diba? insanity..fuck...

baby, i'm really, really sorry...am i still your girlfriend? i hope so...coz i'd go crazy again of you're gonna break-up with me..swear..

i love you so much..that's why i'm so sorry...please???

half way

today, sergio and i celebrated our 6th monthsary..yey! =) we never thought that we would last this long...with all the fights and misunderstandings we had for the past months..coolness. aww.. =p

i had so much fun this day. just a simple celebration with sergio...we were just together. sweet. =) he first gave me a letter...with a poem that he made himself. aww..kahit na super mushy yung poem, super sweet parin! thanks baby! *mwah* then he gave me a cake. i was surprised coz i thought he will never give me a cake with what i did on our 3rd monthsary..hehe. another sweet thing. yey. ;) i gave him a letter and a necklace..replacement yun sa nasira kong necklace niya. =p all in all, this day was super. it was so special because we celebrated our monthsary with no fights whatsoever. wee! love it. ;)

thanks so much baby for this day! i super, duper enjoyed celebrating our monthsary with you. =) i hope we would have many more monthsaries to come..anniv. na next ha? hehe. i love you oh-so-much sergio! i never stopped thanking Gid that he gave me someone like you. <3 *mwah* huuuuggg!!!

LOVELY. oh yeah! =p

anyway, last saturday i watched the UP Streetdance concert with joey girl. it was fun being with her...we were in awe with the dance routines of the UP street. super kita sa mga mata namin na manghang-mangha kami. hehe. cute. tapos, we ate dinner pa afterwards...aww..i miss those days. =) anyway, thanks joey for coming with me! next time ulit! *mwah* love u and missed u! =)

sunday was an adventure day for me. i went to sergio's house. oh, ha, san ka pa?! pinuntahan ko siya. hehe. =p it was his mom's bday din kasi eh...=) happy birthday mom, err, tita! (belated) =) anyway, it was a fun day...super hang-out lang sa room niya. snuggled and stuff. hahaha! =) super happy nga rin siya eh...i could tel. =p hehe. *mwah* loveyou loveyou loveyou!!! =)

shux, super naiinlove na talaga ako kay sergio...woopee! hehe. =)

hyperness mode on *toot*

ayan...HAPPY!!! =)

The Scientist by Coldplay
Come up to meet you,
Tell you I'm sorry,
You don't know how lovely you are.

I had to find you,
Tell you I need you,
Tell you I set you apart.

Tell me your secrets,
And ask me your questions,
Oh let's go back to the start.

Runnin' in circles,
Comin' up tails,
Heads on the science apart.

Nobody said it was easy,
It's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be this hard.
Oh take me back to the start.

I was just guessin',
At numbers and figures,
Pullin' the puzzles apart.

Questions of science,
Science and progress,
Do not speak as loud as my heart.

Tell me you love me,
Come back and haunt me,
Oh on I rush to the start.

Runnin' in circles,
Chasin' up tails,
Comin' back as we are.

Nobody said it was easy,
Oh it's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be so hard.
I'm goin' back to the start.

Ahhooooooooooooooooo
Ahhooooooooooooooooo
Ahhooooooooooooooooo
Ahhooooooooooooooooo

happy..finally.

sergio ann i are finally ok. we are back together. yey! i'm so happy that he finally gave me another chance..thanks baby! imma prove to you that it's gonna be worth it this time. I PROMISE. =)

we talked last thursday night. he asked if i was home already and when i told him yes, he called at my house. it was hard to convince him at first...i poured out my emotions and told him everything that i feel after that cool-off thing. it was a long talk until he finally agreed to give it another shot. i was so overjoyed at that moment. i thanked him and told him that i'm not gonna let him down this time. i'm gonna stick to my words na. =)

i'm really thankful that he gave me another chance. i'll never screw this up this time. SWEAR.

yesterday was a happy day. sergio and i are sweet again and all that..i never felt so much happiness like that for 3 days..hehe. =) i love him so much that i don't wanna lose him again..NEVER. =)

thank God everything's fine now. thank you Lord. so much. =)

so, right now he's in katipunan playing dota. well, dota's still irritating to me but the heck, i allowed him to play. rather than seeing other girls, right? hehe. =p

i love you so much sergio...*mwah* =)

yey!!

day 1

god, its so hard for me to look at him and not even touch him or hug him like we used to. it's so freakin hard that we're classmates and we're not seated together anymore. it's just so freakin' hard for me to say hi or smile at him..it's so hard sergio...SO HARD..

i cried when i saw him. i just couldn't help it. i'm breaking into pieces and i couldn't contain myself anymore... =c

atleast, he gave my bag to me. that was sweet..but it isn't enough.. =,c

haay...hanggang kelan pa kaya na ganito tayo??? pagbigyan mo na kasi ako and i'll prove to you that your love is gonna be worth it this time. i swear...

what more on the following days...how much hurt can it get...

to sergio..

Tonight I Can Write -Pablo Neruda

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

Write, for example, "The night is shattered

And the blue stars shiver in the distance."

The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

I loved him, and sometimes he loved me too.

Through nights like this one I held in his arms.

I kissed him again and again under the endless sky.

He loved me, sometimes I loved him too.

How could one not have loved his great still eyes.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

To think that I do not have him. To feel that I have lost him.

To hear the immense night, still more immense without him.

And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.

What does it matter that my love could not keep him?

The night is shattered and he is not with me.

This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance.

My soul is not satisfied that it has lost him.

My sight searches for him as though to go to him.

My heart looks for him, and he is not with me.

The same night whitening the same trees.

We, of that time, are no longer the same.

I no longer love him, that's certain, but how I loved him.

My voice tried to find the wind to touch his hearing.

Another's. He will be another's. Like my kisses before.

His voice. His bright body. His infinite eyes.

I no longer love him, that's certain, but maybe I love him.

Love is short, forgetting is so long.

Because through nights like this one I held him in my arms.

My soul is not satisfied that it has lost him.

Though this be the last pain that he makes me suffer.

And these the last verses that I write for him.

~*~

my heart's aching whenever i say "i love you" and he doesnt say anything nor respond..does he still love me??? well, i know he still does but why are things like this? i'm really sorry for what i did yesterday..i crossed the line again. i broke my promise. but can you forgive me again? di ko talaga kaya yung ganito..can we be like before, with all the love and happiness??? nagsisisi nako sergio..i need you now. i need someone who'll hug me and kiss me even on the cheeks. and i couldn't find another person to that but you. i love you so much sergio..pls love me the way you love me before..coz i know you do. you were just hurt with what i did yesterday. i'm sorry if i'm full of mistakes. im sorry if i keep on messing it up. but not having you screws everything up. i woulnd't be happy again. you're my happiness right now sergio..do want to take that away from me? just give me my super last chance..and i'll prove everything that i say right now. i'll show you that i mean everything that i say. please??

goin crazy

yesterday, sergio waited for my badminton class to finish. aww..that was so sweet. then, after my class, he invited me to go with him to his swimming class. too bad i didn't come with him coz i have to learn some dance for the "initiation" thing for pep. i'm sorry baby...next time. =)

we had this "initiation" thing for pep. parang welcome to the family ek-ek nila. yeah. so, we cheered first sa casaa, then sa as steps, then sa may fc. it was so funny coz people don't actually care about what we were doin. bries and i joined the monday group coz..la lang. trip lang. hehe. too abd sergio haven't got the chance to see it. aww..he went "somewhere" daw. ok...hehe. =p and oh, i forgot to invite vicka as well. shit..i'm getting forgetful already. nyah. =S

i didn't train yesterday and today. mondays are no training days for me and today, well. long story. to cut it short, nag-away nanaman kami ni sergio to the point na nakipag-break siya sakin. fucker. i was really chasing him kanina. i was so crazy...i even slashed myself. creepy. i wasn't my self kanina. i didn't go to my last 2 classes and i even dared to go the middle of the street and tried to get hit by a car. fuck. i'm was a sick, paranoid, psycho girl kanina..nakakhiya kay sergio. shit...anyway, i calmed down naman when we were in LKB na. but then again, my mind's full of shit things. i really wanted to quit life kanina. i wanted to kill myself. i was having a emotional breakdown and it was so not me..

but all is well now. he didn't go to class and pinuntahan ako sa gym when i was alone there. he took back all that he said and kami na ulit. he told me that he really loves me so much. that was a relief. akala ko talaga he doesn't love me anymore..that's why i was being a psycho kanina. thank God everything's fine na.. =)

*baby, i'm REALLY sorry about what i did kanina. i know, it was my last chance and i said that if i did that again, breakan mo nako. fuck. forget that. di ko kaya eh..nakita mo naman kanina diba? i'm sorry baby...medyo dinemonyo ako kanina and i made a big deal out of a small ish. sorry..i love you so much and that's my happiness right now. pls don't take that away from me..pls? i dunno what to do if i lose you now..i'll be going crazy for pete's sake. i'm really sorry baby..thanks for taking back what you said kanina. thanks for saying that you still love me. thanks for loving me despite these...i won't do this again. this i swear na talaga. i'll act mature na with things and i wont irritate you na. and i wont get irritated that easily na. PROMISE talaga. i love you so much sergio..that's why i'm like this. call me crazy, but it's true. you're the reason for my happiness and your love is all that i need. thanks baby..*mwah* i love you.. =)

nadala na talga ako. this time, it's for real.

oh, to one certain person: if you have any problems with my childishness, why don't you try telling that to me personally. you don't have the fuckin' right to judge me..you don't know a shit about me. how dare you to poison my boyfriend's mind with your pathetic ideas...you're supposed to be a friend not an intruder. you don't intrude someone else's relationship and don't give fuckin' advices that you can't even apply to your self. if you're insecure coz people have loved ones, i'm so sorry for you. how can someone love you with what you're doing??? good for you, boy..good for you... =) this time, it's my words against yours.

weekend blast

my weekend was so fun. =)

yesterday, our classmate kyla had her debut at KKK resto at west ave. most of my blockmates were there. so fun! the food, the people, the place...my boyfriend. yeah, Very fun. =p i was part of the 18 treasures thingy. i, err should i say we (camie & sergio) gave kyla a scrapbook. i had a hard time thinking of what to say about our gift. hehe. anyway, after the program, everyone just started singing. i got sleepy. hehe. =) after the party, we decided to have coffee at starbuck's. after having a java chip frappe and caramel belgian waffle (my fave!), we went home already. but before going to our house, we brought Gica home first. ang layo ng bahay ni Gica! hehe. we had a hard time going here sa bahay from their place. we just asked for directions. haha! we arrived home at around 1:30am and slept narin shortly after. oh, he slept over here. la lang. hehe. ;)

kanina was fun too! my parents went out and we were left alone here sa house. we just bummed around. nothing to do..yeah. sure. haha! ;) had breakfast and lunch together. so sweet. =) he left at around 2pm. aww...his scent was left nga sa room where he stayed eh. i mise him already tuloy.. =c hehe. oh well, tom's a new day and another day for us! yey! =)

thanks for sleeping over here, baby..=) i had SO much FUN. =) i hope there would be alot of next times..haha! i'll see u in school tom dearie. i love you so damn much! *mwah*

i just love him more and more each day...haaay...*happy*

stress

the past week has been so tiring for me. damn. last tues, i started training with the UP Pep Squad. i also trained last thurs and yesterday. shit...kapagod. my body's so sore! i never realized that this sem was a very tiring sem for me. my HK subjects..my pep training. haggardness..rawr. oh well, atleast i'm still enjoying what i'm doing. goodluck nalang sa katawan ko. super feel ko bibigay na siya. nooo...hehe. :)

i was surprised last night when i saw sergio at the Aldaba hall. wow, he picked me up sa training ko. aww..sweet! :) hehe. he was with doy. they had a meeting kasi eh and it ended alte narin. anyway, after dressing up, we ate dinner at McDo philcoa. after eating, things were ok then after awhile, medyo nagkainitan nanaman kami ni sergio. i was, again, being stubborn. pero nakakainis talaga siya coz alam na nga niyang i was irritated na, sige, tuloy pa sa paghihirit. and the fact kasi na he picked me up from training diba? di dapat he should bring me home narin knowing that i'm gonna commute alone and it was kinda late and he knows it. but no...he let me commute parin. he was with me naman so ok lang pero still the fact na it was late na. he said that he was planning to bring me home naman talaga but he was waiting for me to ask him that. hello??! diba dapat automatic na yun na it was so late and you should bring me home??! you shouldn't wait for me to ask you that! given na yun na "responsibility" ng isang boyfriend. if you've done that earlier, i mean without arguing with me, that you could have gotten home earlier diba?? initiative. haay..ewan. well, the good thing is he said sorry when we arrived here at my house na. i was still a little irritated but finally i forgave him na. i said sorry narin and we said goodbyes na after. we were both tired and i understand that. i'm really sorry for being stubborn and hot headed last night. i love you so much.. =)

today's the debut of our classmate, kyla. Happy Birthday Kyla! much love! =) the prob is, i still dont have a gift to think na i'm one of the 18 treasures..haha! and i didnt go to our cwts today. my body's so sore. =c oh well. i gotta go. i have to do some errands pa. ciao. <3

body ache

i have a major body ache right now. my right butt cheek definitely hurts..rawr. i need a hug..pls??? hehe. =)

anyway, yesterday was the start of my training with the UP Pep Squad. yep. THE UP Pep Squad. haha. it was fun training with them. they were warm naman pala eh. they welcomed me and were so nice to me. cool. =) my friend Joey even watched me train with them yesterday. kaso she had to leace early...aww. hehe. thanks dearie! *mwah* anyway, we danced streetdance yesterday. it was so fun coz the routine was so cool to dance. in fairness, i had to memorize a long routine in that very instant. walang turo-turo..sunod lang. haha. well, i got to memorize most of the steps naman..di kasi uso sakanila ang mag mark eh. rawr. pero it was still fun. we also polished the liftings..and for the first time, i felt how to be a lifted by strong men. haha! it was so cool! nafeel ko kung pano maging flyer. yey! though the training was kinda tiring and i was so hungry the time it finished and i got home, it was so fun. =)

another good thing is sergio and i are ok na. super i dont want that to happen again. i felt so mnay emotions. that it frove me crazy...well, mild crazy lang. hehe. i love u so much baby! i cant afford to lose you now..=) huuuuuug! *mwah* and oh, thanks for the uhm..you know, yesterday. haha. *wink* love u my baby porkchop.. =) haha!

thank God walang training ngayon. my body's sore. hehe..

it's been a month since that day..there is still guilt..sad..haay.. = c

love hurts

"Once in your lifetime, experience love in its purest form-- try never demanding, dont ask, seek and call 4 attention. When that person commits a mistake, readily forgive without question. When he asks, give and then give some more. Never question or doubt his intentions. Accept what he offers, understand his negligences. Love fully. Love gently. You will experience this love but once. He will experience this love just once."

That was from Joey girl. I dunno if she wrote that or got it somewhere. hehe. Thanks dear..you made me feel better. :) i miss you..

All i ever wanted is for things to get back to what they used to be...very happy. I just want you to be happy..and feel content with everything that i'm giving you. in return, i just want appreciation. all i ever want is for us to be happy together again..what we were before you read my past blogs. that's all..

wishes can come true...right?

after a tiring day in school..

sergio was here awhile ago...=) our classes ended quite early that's why we decided to hang-out here at my house. almost 3 hours of bumming around...cool. i had a nice time with you, baby. =) i had fun. hehe. ;) i love you so much!! looooooooove!!! *mwah* =-*

anyway, it was a tiring and hot day for me. weird coz the sky was a bit dark and the weather was a little gloomy..it was so darn hot! i was almost dehydrated the whole day! hehe. thank God my last class didn't take that long...i love sir j! ang bilis lagi ng 1st day sakanya. hehe. ;)

bries is already training with the UP Pep. inggit me..haha! oh well, i'll just talk to coach lala if i could start training narin..medyo 1 taon niya ako kinulit last school year eh. i'll give it a try this time. atleast, i'm with bries na. safer. hehe. ;) and i'll make paalam narin to my mom...maybe she'll approve of it this time. hehe. :)

darn...classes on a saturday. f*ck this cwts..bakit naman kasi weekend eh. i so wanna sleep the whole day tom..argh..

oh well, gotta go. i'm gonna think of what i'll eat pa for dinner. my parents are out kasi and they might go home late. sad. hehe. toodles. <3

here we go again...i did it again last night. why do i have to spoil everything??? i thought we were ok na..damn..

when i arrived home, we were ok na. tapos, when he called, we were ok at first but things got a little off again. we started this petty argues and turned out pretty bad. we had to put down the phone with me crying and him so irritated again..

he proposed that we have a cool off muna. as usual, i disagreed. it was a hard process convincing him to not have this cool off. i got crazy, felt insane, cried alot and had my face & eyes all sore and painful. i asked him to call me on our landline because i really need to talk to him, hear his voice and say what i really feel that time. he eventually agreed and called. we talked and i tried convincing him to not to cool off with me. it was so hard because he had all these reasons and he was very sure of what he was doing. but i still tried until i said that this will be my last chance. if i screw up again, he have the right to break up with me without me disagreeing to him again. finally, we got things straight and we were ok again. we talked peacefully na and we were sweet again. thank goodness.. =)

ok, last chance. my last chance. i really had to stick to my word. i wont screw up again. i promise..no, i swear. i just can't afford to lose him..i just cant. i love him so much that it would really hurt me and drive me crazy if i lose him. funny as it sounds but its true. i would be very awful and it would be really hard. i just thank God for sergio's patience with me. i'm so lucky to have him.. =)

baby, i'm so sorry for what happened yesterday. i know i got a little carried away and i shouldn't have reacted that way. i know ive been stubborn and hard headed and i always forgot what we've talked about sa bahay ng alumni. actually, i didn't forget what we've talked about...im just too hard headed and i let my emotions come first..kaya i always cry. it's not your fault why i always cry..well, yeah sometimes but it's me who's makingg myself cry most of the time. i'm really sorry baby...you mean the world to me, sergio. you're very special and important..i love you so much.. =)

paranoia

i did a very stupid thing kanina. i felt so stupid becasue i promised myself that i will never do that again. but no...i still did it. knowing what the consequences are...haaay...i hurt my baby again...i'm so sorry... =,c

being an only child can be interesting. atleast you'll get whatever you want and walang kaagaw. you'll never have a fight with any siblings and all the attention is focused in you. yeah, it's fun to be an only child...depends on the circumstances.

when you're used to being selfish, childish and dependent when you were a child, you tend to bring those characteristics when you're grown up already. and when its time for you to change those attitudes, it becomes very hard. some people don't actually get it, but adjusting to situations when you're used to being adjusted to is a very difficult task to do. you go things the hard way and sometimes you tend to be emotional about your decisions. it sucks because people misunderstand you and they might get the wrong impression of you being "guilty" or "affected" in fact that you're just trying to prove something and the person won't just listen to you. we grow up in different kinds of situations and its really hard to adjust to different nature. but we try to do it just to not be judged or criticized by some people. we try to improve ourselves because we are proving to the world that we can be independent and certain about things even if we're used to being dependent and getting what you want all the time.

one thing i learned from my relationship with sergio is that you cannot get everything that you want. somethings require sacrifice on my part. and i should understand that my partner does not have the same perspective in life and i should respect that. i'm glad that he taught me those things, though we're going through it the hard way. i know i cna be stubborn sometimes but i admire his patience. and i'm really sorry if sometimes i test your patience...and i know that sometimes i cross the line. sorry baby... =c

i'm lucky to have my boyfriend right now...with all the bad things i've done and all the forgiveness i received from him..i'm just so lucky. from now on i will never act like that again. i'll consider your options and i'll know when to stop my "kadramahan". i'll tell you when i'm bothered by something and tell you if i get jealous...i wont keep you guessing this time baby..that i promise. if i break that promise again, you have the right to leave me. hard as it may be for me, i deserve that.

oh yeah, i need a psychiatrist. my emotions can sometimes be too much and it's getting hard for me already. it triggers my paranoia and i hate it when that happens...i tend to hurt myself.

*i love you so much, baby.. =) sorry for being childish again. i'll never let you down this time. promise. =) thanks for still loving me despite these..i'll change na talaga. *mwah* i love you.. =)

blast

my weekend was fun. fun fun FUN! hehe.. =)

last friday was sergio's bday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABYLOVE!!! haha! 19 ka na..tanda mo na. nyaha! *mwah* anyway, our day started when we met up at UP at around 8am. we finished our enlistments first. after enlisting, well, they played DOTA first and the girls (camie, danya & lalaine) were left at the gym. we waited for them for quite long..di na namin sila natiis hintayin at kumain na kami. hehe. when they finally arrived, we waited for awhile for sj and danya & armand do their things and we went na to sergio's place in pasay. *whew*

when we arrived at sergio's place, naabutan namin na nagprepepare palang mom ni sergio. so sergio asked me to paly this game sa net. well, di pala siya game! it's one of those things na may biglang scary face na lalabas with matching screaming sound. yeah..totally nakakagulat. siyempre, natakot si camie. eh anong ginagawa ni camie pag takot siya? umiiyak. and i did..i was so scared that i screamed (as in LOUD) and cried. aww...they were all laughing coz i was the only who got scared by that. yeah..anyway, after that, we ate and they left narin..aww..

sergio and i had some moments alone when his friends arrived. he introduced me to them. =) after that, his family members naman. ayun. super nahiya nako. haha! so we just stayed together for almost the whole night. it was so nice...i get to see him so happy on his birthday. aww..lovely. =) doy and i slept over at his place. coolness.. =)

the next day, we dropped off doy at the sakayan and we went to SM Mall Of Asia. Mahn, the mall was so huge! i was so amazed..hehe! we first went to this side of the mall where it overlooks the manila bay...so sweet. we took some pics on my phone, which was kinda malabo. after that, we went around and decided to buy tickets at the IMAX theater. we bought tickets for the movie/show called NASCAR. well, it was a 3d film..na mostly tinulugan ni sergio. hehe. it was cool..though super lakas ng sounds na nabingi ako. haha! after the film, we ate at sbarro. gawd, i was full. hehe. after eating, when sergio finally noticed that there were so many people, we went back to his house na. =)

i had so much fun with sergio. well, i always do naman eh. kaya nga i love him very, very much! everytime im with him, i'm so happy. aww.. =)

*thanks for the wonderful weekend baby! hope u enjoyed your bday with me! hehe. i luvee you porkchop! haha! ;) *mwah*

kanina, i went to the salon to have a foot spa & get my nails done. it was so relaxing..and my nails are very cool too! hehe. =)

tom, 1st day of classes na. can't wait to see my blockmates! and of course sergio! haha! =)

another up enrollment day for me. again, hassle. super tiring. oh well, atleast i got some of my major subjects na. 2 more to go and an elective and a pe 3 class..shiyet. goodluck. pfft.

anyway...share ko lang. =)

i have this hobby of making "kalikot" other people's cellphones. you know, look at their inbox, look for nice quotes then you "accidentally" read their personal messages. hehe =) kanina, i borrowed sergio's phone. first, yung sun phone niya. ok pa..puro quotes. then yung globe naman..ayan na. at first, i was ok..puro quotes pa eh. then when i got to the part where the old messages were, yan na..medyo nanlaki mata ko eh. well, i don't wanna say what the messages were about..basta it kinda made me stop and think for awhile. fine..i got a "little" jealous..and i was thinking that maybe he's doing something that im not aware of. yeah, i trust him..i really, really do. but there are times when you still think that there's something that you don't know. la lang. that moment struck me kanina. stupid noh? hehe. well, i asked him who those people were and he answered naman...well, except for one sender there. when i read her (i assumed that it was a girl..well, it looked like it) messages, i was so sure who she was already. the name gave me a clue that instant. and when i read her messages i was like, "hmm.." i got curious. and what made me wonder is that everytime i ask who those people are, i still have this little doubt about them. i guess that's normal...is it?
one things for sure, i trust him. whatever he says, i always believe him. sabi nga niya kanina when is aid that it's time for him to learn to erase his other messages, "ayaw mo nun, wala akong tinatago sau..." well, yeah he has a point but i still get jealous and curious whenever i read those messages. haha..i'm making a big deal out of this. la lang..napapaisip lang ako eh..well, this time. i read his phone messages a number of times already but only today i got struck by those messages..haaay...*sigh* paranoia..tsktsk..

and i realized that i was so darn wrong when i said that love can be without trust. nope..you cannot love a person if you don't trust them. shiyet..i just ate my words na sobrang pinandigan ko before. haha. funny me.. =)

but what's so nice about this is whenever i get jealous of these things, just a word from him quickly erases that feeling. i mean, just a sweet text or hear his cute voice when he's making "pacute" on the phone, i instantly forget that i'm jealous and he makes me smile again. la lang..i just find that sweet. =) oh well, i just hope that he's not like that with other girls..hehe. =p

* i love you baby..so much. =)

i went to UP kanina for my enrollment. as usual, HASSLE. hehe. super tiring and confusing..thank God sergio was there. yey. =) vicka looked horrible kanina..para siyang lantang gulay. haha. well, she was with nikki and sj..and they all looked, well, cute. sarap picturan. hehe. welcome to UP dearies..ano, kaya pa? hehe. =p anyway, another enrollment day for us...1 week nanaman toh..damn..pfft. :S

anyway, this is SO SWEET. read...

CaMiE's Testimonials

sErGiO 6/6/2006
The first time i saw herHer eyesheld me captivatedwhere I stood.Her smileto dazzle the sunand warm every corner of my soul.Her voicelike a sparkling streamwhich flows straight into my heart.Her walkand the way her gracefulnesstakes my breath away (syempre dancer.. hehe =p)Her hairabout which I dreamedcascading into my faceeverytime she leans over me.Her handswhose caress I craveto hold my facein their tenderness.Your armsI long to have around my waistas you pull me closeto your warmth.Her lipsthat i crave everytimewe get close....Most of alleverything you arechanged the way I feel about my life.I love you baby =p

o dibuh? that made my night. and made me so kilig! i blushed kaya after reading that...really. =) haha. musta nman ang sobrang inlove dyan?? hehe. la lang. =)
*thanks for the testi baby! i love you SOOOOOOOOOOOO much!!! mwah mwah mwah! at nanggigigil ako sayo ngayon. haha! *mwah* <3

today's a very special day..monthsary namin ni sergio!!! hehe. too bad we weren't together..oh well. kahapon naman magkasama kami eh. ;)

Sergio,
happy 5th monthsary baby!! wow..5 months na tayo. akalain mo yun??! haha! and you said that you'd never imagine that saying to a girl..aww..galing ko noh??? haha! told ya! =p
anyway, serious na. baby, thanks so much for everything you've showed and given me this past 5 months..hindi mo lang alam na sobrang na-aapreciate ko lahat ng binibigay mo sakin. even the littlest things..yeah. hehe. =) i learned so much from you: being independent, being "mature" and stuff like that. i never met a person like you. you're the only one whom i'm so comfortable with that i could show my real self to you..aww.. =) hehe. thanks also for being so patient with me especially when i'm having my moodswings, "kalabuan" days and when i'm acting childish. i know that sometimes you're getting fed up already because i always forget my mistakes kasi eh. I'm sorry baby..i know you get hurt whenever i'm doing these things..and i'm really sorry about that. i know also that you're kinda fed up with my sorries na..la lang. thanks for still loving me despite all those things. i'm so lucky to have you, someone so patient, kind and loving. i always feel blessed knowing that you're always by my side and i feel so content with my life right now. i wouldn't ask for anything more.(ay, ang mushy..haha) whenever i'm with you, i feel this kind of happiness that i couldn't explain and i just don't want the day to end. and i always look forward in seeing you & being with you. you're one of the reasons why i'm so happy with my life right now, baby. thanks for that. =) i just wish that our relationship will grow stronger and we'll have more monthsaries to come. =) i love you more and more each day, baby and i thank God that i met you. you're so special and i wouldn't want to lose you now coz i couldn't imagine my life without Sergio. =) happy monthsary again and i love you soooooo much! *mwah*

pre-monthsary =)

sergio went here kanina. yupyup! i invited him for lunch. it's like our pre-monthsary celebration. hehe. something new. no going to the malls, just here at my house. tipid kasi eh..sssh...haha! =p anyway, i had so much fun! i missed him so much kasi eh! he arrived at around 11am here, eh im still at the grocery, buying some food to eat. when i arrived, yan na. start na ng "fun". haha! *wink* =p bad trip nga coz he had to leave early. my mom texted me and told me na they're (my parents) are going home already...yeah, right. wala pa nga sila hanggang ngayon eh. argh! anyway, there's always a next time...right, baby??? haha! oh! i'm so excited narin next saturday! he invited me to go to SM Mall of Asia. ICe skating! hehe! well, i'm gonna teach how to glide, baby...that will be so fun. hehe! ;) i really had fun with my baby today...i was SO happy to see him! after 1 very long week...yey!!! happy happy! haha! (di rin obvious eh..haha)

* thanks for today baby! i hope you had a great time coz i sure did...SUPER! haha. =p yey! 5 months na tayo tom! excited ako!! haha! and i hope we're gonna have many more monthsaries to come..please??? hehe. *mwah* I LOVE YOU VERY, VERY MUCH SERGIO!! <3

i'm loving him more each day...gosh. hehe. ;)

anyway, monday's UP day for me and my barkada. wala lang. hang-out lang. and oh, issa's gonna introduce us to IJ. haha, la lang. excited na me. haha!

*** namiss kita ulit..darn. oh well, i'll see u soon! =)

oh sh*tty, i still don't have any idea what to give sergio on his bday....heeeeeeellllpppp!!!! pls? =) hehe

long entry

i just came home from my cousin's place. i stayed there for a week...la lang. i was so darn bored here kasi sa bahay so i went there. i just don't like it here sa bahay. haha!

anyway, last saturday, JOey slept over here sa house. she arrived late due to the hard rain. i thought nga na di na siya tutloy kasi super lakas talaga nung rain. buti nalang pumunta parin siya. hehe. we watched Eternal Sunshine...and it was a good movie. something new for Jim Carey. i was so amazed by the movie..haha! tapos wala..puro kwentuhan na. i missed being with her. i missed talking to her too! i missed our usual hang-outs dito sa bahay...i so missed her! we were too busy kasi nung pasukan so we didnt have the chance for something like this. thank God na we're both free this summer and wala na talaga kaming magawa..haha!
*joey: thanks dude for coming here! i missed u so much! next time ulit ok? sorry i can't come tom..next time promise. =) *mwah* love u dearie!! =)

tapos, nung monday, my cousins invited me to watch x-Men 3 with them. well, i'm not into xmen stuff but i agreed narin. rare lang yung mga times na magyaya yung kuya ko eh! hehe. we watched xmen3 in gateway but before going there we stopped by at ateneo. so, musta naman ang pagiikot sa ateneo for like 45 mins? haha. when we passed by the HS building, i was so surprised..new faces sobra. so na-feel ko na tumatanda nako. damn. haha! we went back narin sa kuya namin and off we went to gateway. we were late for the 1:50pm show so we bought tickets for the 3pm show. tumambay muna kami sa timezone. then, after 30 mins of waiting, we went inside the cinema narin. the movie was ok..cool nung mga effects. tapos nung patapos na, alisa was telling us about this "super ending" at the end of the credits stuff. so we waited. ayan na..tapos to our surprise, *tadaaa!!* 5 seconds lang siya. yeah, some kind of a super ending huh? haha. we went na sa house nila after..

last wednesday, we went naman sa house ng ibang cousins namin. la lang..boredom. nangapitbahay lang kami ni alisa.. haha!

yesterday, our ate texted us and invited us for lunch at shangrila. alisa and i went there. we ate lunch and after eating, we looked around the mall to buy smething. at sa sobrang pag-iiokt, we didn't buy anything. haha. we went with our ate to her office somewhere at shaw. sobrang lamig...and boring. haha. we went tuloy sa red ribbon just to kill time..and eat cake. after an hour at red ribbon, we went back and waited for our ate. after that, we went to cubao to buy something for our cousin who had an accident. kuya francis had a motorcycle accident kasi and caused him an operation on his left arm. yikes! we bought Gonuts and we went narin afterwards sa St. Luke's hospital. afer an hour of pangungulit to our kuya and answering some stupid crossword puzzles, we went home narin.

today, we just stayed home. tapos it rained so hard pa kanina. complete with thunder and lightnings. shiyet..scary. my mom picked me up and we went home narin. God, i missed our house. i missed my room, my bed..my computer and my internet. hehe! oh, i missed our telephone too! la kasing dialtone yung phone dun eh..medyo nawindang naman ako kasi i can't communicate with sergio properly. haha. ;)

oh, may bagong puppy yung sila alisa. super cute. si Paris. terrier siya..cutie paris. i wish i have one...*ahem* hehe! =p

i just realized something..from now on, i'll update more often in this blog. la lang..i have an urge to erase my past blogs..de. wag nalang. bahala na mabulok yun. haha!

* to YOU: i miss you so damn much already..i can't wait too see you tom. yey! haha! I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU!!!! i'm so happy to have you baby..super. =) *mwahmwah*

he's going here kasi tom..la lang. ;) 5 months na kami sa sun..coolness! hehe! <3

oh wait..shoutout...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUSTIN!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHA & COCO!!!!

i love you guys so much! miss you! *mwah*

just for fun

You Are More Mild Than Wild

You're confident, and you really aren't concerned with how "hot" you are.Other people's ideas of what's sexy don't concern you. And this is exactly what makes you attractive.

Are You Hot?

Your Kissing Purity Score: 63% Pure

For you, kissing isn't a casual thing Lip to lip action makes your heart sing

Kissing Purity Test

Popular Kid

In high school, everyone knew your name - even if you didn't know theirs. In fact, your still skating by on your looks and charm. Nothing wrong with that!

Who Were You In High School?

You Are 68% Happy

You are a very happy person. Generally, you feel content and that all is right with the world.Occasionally, you have a down day - but you have the ability to pick yourself right back up.

How Happy Are You?

You're a Shy Kisser

You *do* love to kiss, once your comfortable with itAnd that means knowing the person you're kissing pretty wellYou usually don't make the first move when it comes to making outBut you've got plenty of intensity in return

What Kind of Kisser Are You?

later, my long lost bestfriend Joey's going here at my place. sleepoveeeeeer!!! haha! grabe, excited na me. hehe. super bonding kami mamaya! the last time i saw her was like february pa so i'm really, really excited na! medyo magdadamayan kami mamaya...haha! wee!!

la lang.. i just wanna share my excitement. =)

anyway..

I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU!!! and I MISS YOU already kahit na magkasama lang tayo kahapon! argh! i'm getting too attached na sau..but i ain't complainin'! hehe. *loooooooovee!!* mwah!

i just so love my life right now. thanks thanks! =)

*vicx, melai, dang & issa: sobrang enjoy last thursday night! let's do some sleepover more often. hehe! camwhoraging is so, so fun! i love you guys! the best kayoooo!!! ruja & hayde, too bad wala kayo..de sana exposed narin mga mukha nyo sa camera. haha! kiddin'. i love you and i so miss u guys! *much love!* <3

trust vs love

"Love makes you psychotic. love makes us think of things that are very unsual...especially when we're hurt and heartbroken. Love makes us "hallucinate" which makes us crazy. Love makes us paranoid....to the point of killing or hurting ourselves. Freaky as it is...indeed love makes us psychotic." -from my previous blog. (http://cumeel.blogdrive.com)

honestly, love made me psychotic these days. and i never thought that i could hurt the one i love. i'm so sorry for that, baby.. =c

~*~

last night, we had our sleepover at melai's place. too bad we were only 5: camie, melai, vicka, issa & dang. aww.. =( we missed you ruja and hayde!! lalng. anyway, we ate dinner outside melai's house. i dunno the name of the place kasi eh. hehe. then, we went to Abbabu because dang was still hungry. takaw ni danggit! haha! after Abbabu, we went back to melai's place for some real action! haha!

first, we played poker. it was interesting but got a little boring coz vicka always wins. argh. after poker, we played pusoy dos. this time, si vicka naman laging talo. haha! =p after pusoy dos, we decided to do some camwhoring. two words: SUPER FUN. we played dress-up and took pictures of ourselves. we even wore melai's gowns and took some more pics. super! hehe. dapat walang tulugan, but i gave up. at 4:00am..i decided to take a "nap". pero sila, ang tigas! di parin tulog. but at 4:30am, we decided to go upstairs na and call it a night. gumive-up na ang mga tao. finally. haha. woke up at around 7:30am and went to UP na with vicka, issa and dang. =)

i met sergio at UP at around 10am. we drove my friends to AS and dropped them off there. then we drove somewhere in Bahay ng Alumni. we had a very serious talk. we talked about our relationship's current situation. i don't wanna ellaborate more on this. sorry. basta, it was a long talk and finally, gumive in na si sergio sakin. i felt relieved. muntikan na. buti nalang sobrang bait ng boyfriend ko at again, pinagbigyan ako. that's why i love him so much. he's very patient with me..thanks baby. =)

ok, i know i promised alot of things before sau but this time, eto na talaga. i promise not to be psychotic again, i promise to listen to you and give you a chance to say what you feel, i promise to show some initiative towards our relationship and i promise that i'll be the camie you knew and loved before you read my past blog and we had this talk. I PROMISE you that. =)

it's gonna be so hard to keep all of those promises but because i love you and you mean so much to me, i am GOING TO KEEP ALL OF THEM. swear. =)

i read my past blogs na, baby..i think i know what you mean na. i'm really sorry...=c

basta, i love you so much and i'm willing to do what you want me to do. PROMISE. =) and believe me when i say that you make me very, VERY happy. Loving you and being with you are my HAPPINESS right now..please, please don't take that away from me..

god..i missed you so much! i had so much fun kanina baby..thanks! <3>

* melai's sleepover pictures, check out: http://camiewamie.multiply.com

ok, due to circumstances and my carelessness, i decided to delete my previous entry. la lang..i just realized that marami ang ma-aapektuhan..di lang ako. and reading it all over again would do no good to me. it will just make me feel sad again. narealize ko lang. =)

anyway, atleast i feel a little better right now. thanks to a certain person. =)

and oh, baby, don't think na dinelete ko yung entry because of our conversation last night. na-realize ko lang na it's not good to let all your feelings and emotions out. medyo detailed na kasi yung naisulat ko eh. hehe. we're gonna get through this ok? let's help each other. always remember that i love you so much...ayt? i'm so happy that i have you in my life right now.. =)

anyway...
later will be a sleepover thing with my barkada at melai's place. how i've missed them! the last time we saw each other (as in lahat kami..well, almost.) was vicka's bday. and that was a month ago..aww..namiss ko kayo mga bruha! haha! and it's gonna be a really good night for me tonight..bonding nanaman ito! and you guys owe me alot of kwentos! haha! =)

shout-out: conrats to my bestfriend VICKA MARIE for passing UP! chang, you're one of us na! haha! i love you and i'm so proud of you! can't wait to be with you for the whole college life! yey! =)

true love

From:
sErGiO
Date:
localDateTimewithTimezone("May 22, 2006 1:31 AM","timetag1");
Monday, May 22, 2006 4:31:00 PM
Subject:
Re: Maybe the worst pain of love are caused by REGRETS.....
Message:

CaMiE wrote:> why? are you regretting right now?

awww... don't mind my shout outs, baby.. =) im not regretting anything right now.. i have u ain't i??? and im very happy about that!!!! i love you so much.. =)

these things make me love him even more.. =) thanks for being the love of my life, baby! haha..cheesy. ;) i love you!!!

sweetness

From:
sErGiO
Date:
localDateTimewithTimezone("May 11, 2006 6:52 AM","timetag1");
Thursday, May 11, 2006 6:52:00 AM
Subject:
hi bAby,,,,, :)
Message:
just droP by to say hi... and to say um....I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVEYOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU ILOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVEYOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU ILOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVEYOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU ILOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVEYOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU ILOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *whew* hehe :)mwah...

awww....kaya mahal na mahal ko yan eh! hehe.. <3

interesting day

i just came from katipunan with sergio and doy. they played dota while i surfed the net. on our way to jollibee, guess who i saw???! NORBIE! hehe. i was so shocked and happy to see him. he was walking with his friends/classmates. we said our hi's and nagkamustahan lang..long time sobra. i missed him...alot. he still looked the same..still "cute". hehe. aww, too bad that it was only a short and unexpected conversation. oh well, next time. we'll see each otehr again soon ok norbie? haha. as if he's gonna read this. =)

now i'm back here at UP in an internet place. i'm doing our handout for our report tom in socio 10. one word: HASSLE. haaay...sana lang our presentation will be as what we're expecting it to be...rawr.

anyway, i gotta do this na. i'm wasting money and time already. haha. ciao. =)

*i love you so much! mwah!!

ok, so ngayon lang ulit ako nakapag-update. my internet got whacked and for some reasons, ayaw akong palabasin ng parents ko. nice...

anyway...

last thursday was our (camie and sergio) 4th monthsary! yep, 4 months na kami. wow, tumagal kami. haha! after my 7am class, we met at the infirmary and we went to sm north na. we watched Silent Hill. yung game sa PS na ginawang movie ngayon...wala lang. FYI. hehe. it was...uhh, a bit scary but some scenes there were so gross! as in! go watch nalang. =) after the movie, we ate at Tokyo-Tokyo. after eating, we went here sa house. we just bummed around and had our ultimate "bonding" moments. haha! then after 2 hours (or something), he left na..aww... =p

i really enjoyed our day, baby! kahit na na-spoil yung plans ko for the day, it was hella of fun! i just love being with you! sana we'll have many, many more! yey! happy 4th and i love you so, so much!!! *mwah* =)

hmm...what else??? i think that's it. i just wanna share that happy day. haha. la lang. oh well, til next time. toodles. =S

a very long weekend

i had a very long weekend this week. last thursday night, we went to my cousin's place because their family went to baguio for the weekend. i was supposed to come with them but i had classes. pfft. =( anyway, we were there from thursday night upto today. i had fun staying at their huge house...with only the 3 of us there plus 2 maids..cool. hehe. =)

yesterday, my cousins (ian and krishia) and i went to Club Manila East at Taytay, Rizal. we were with their parents and the day was pretty fun. the place was so cool! so many pools plus a giant slide and a free boat ride. we tried the kayaking (tama ba?!) thing and it was so fun! we stayed there for almost 7 hours...with all theswimming and eating and stuff. i got dark...yep, darker. haha. but it was ok coz i got to wear a really cute bikini and it was flaunting...super. haha! i got home at around 12:30am and the people who came from baguio was already there also. this day was tiring but super fun. yey! =)

i wish someone's not that mad at me anymore...yep, i'm talking to you. i'm sorry na, ok? please don't get mad na... =( i love you...

oh well, pasukan nanaman tom. shitty. i wish i didn't enroll to my summer classes. i so wanna go to the beach already! argh!

ok, i just wrote a very long entry and it got erased. fcuk. haaay....now i'm too lazy to write it all over again. nice...just nice...*sigh*

anyway, fixed my blog already. it's so summer-yish. hehe. lovin' it. wee! :)

sorry my entry sucks. i just hate it coz everything that i wrote awhile ago disappeared. darn.

oh well, gotta go. byee! :)

* i love you so much!!! :) hugs and kisses! haha, baduuuuy. =p

*sigh*

too lazy to write anything. darn..

anyway, the past few weeks have been...uhm, let's just say weird, tiring, irritating and frustrating. haha. go figure. =p

i'm very, VERY sorry...that's all i can say. =c

and oh, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!! =) go home na..i'm missing you so much already. wait, pasalubong ko ha? hehe. huuuuuggg!!! *mwah*

he's in baguio kasi eh. =p

F.U.N. =)

wednesday...

my mom and i went to our condo at ortigas to get the keys from my tito and fix the condo for the next day's activity with my blockmates. sergio tagged along with us. yey!ü so many things happened that i forgot most of them. haha. stupid. anyway, it was fun though...hanging out with my boyfriend at our condo. cool. my mom was even there. haha! :)

thursday...

we had our hk 100 meeting in the morning. we finalized most of the things we 're gonna do on the opening ceremonies on tues. after the meeting, my blockmates and i finally went to ortigas na. we took the bus and i was scared coz i wasnt that sure of what bus to take. thanks God, we arrived in ortigas safe. hehe. we ate lunch at galle then we went to our unit na. we stayed muna sa unit, natulog and "stuff". haha. then we decided to swim na when andrew arrived. sa swimming pool, it was so cold! it was drizzling kasi and the water was so damn freezing. well, sorta. hehe. we swam for around 30 mins lang coz most of us were shivering na. we went back to the unit and nag-food trip nalang. when 4 of my blockmates left, my mom treated andrew and sergio dinner sa galle. we ate at a japanese resto. had a little chat and after eating, we finally parted ways and went home. =)

to sj, danya, gica, julius and andrew: thanks a lot! hope you guys enjoyed naman...next time ulit! pag hindi na masyado malamig ang panahon. hehe! *mwah*

andrew: belated happy birthday nga pala! hope you liked my gift. =)

sergio: hey baby! thanks din! hope you enjoyed as well. i had so much fun! in all aspects! haha! next time ulit! =) *mwah* i love you very, very much!!! ü

ok, so later, we're going to my cousin's place. we're gonna have a little grad celebration there for my dear couz, marlo. long! graduate ka na! akalain mo yun! haha! see you in UP ok? goodluck sa try-outs mo! *mwah* i love you dearie!!! ü

haaay...too bad i wasn't able to go na to the hed kandi concert last night. i got sick and stuff. *sigh* TOO BAD...grr...

yesterday, was my dad's birthday. belated happy bday pop! yikes, you're close to 60 na! tanda mo na! haha! joke. i love u so much! hehe. =)

as if he's gonna read that. anyway... =)

sergio surprised me yesterday. he went here sa house at around 9am. super! di pa 'ko naliligo nun! so i had to hurry and he was like laughing coz i was really surprised to see him. 1st time na nakita niya ako na super sabog and naka-pantulog pa. haha! anyway, after taking a bath, we ordered pizza and just hanged-out at our garage. super cool! i missed him so much! too bad he can't stay that long...oh well, sa thursday baby! swimming! haha! i love you so, so much!!! *mwah*

now, i'm super bored here. yesterday, i watched 4 dvd's. today, i think i'm gonna watch 3 or 4 again? i dunno. i'm a super bum. and i'm getting fat too! argh.

ok, i gotta end this. for some strange reasons, i'm getting dizzy. rawr.

days

yesterday, i met up with vicka marie in UP . la lang...medyo lumakad-lakad lang kami. anyway, vicka marie! sorry kung sandali lang tayo nagkasama kahapon...medyo biglaan kasi yung sched ko. basta, next time! okie?! aylavyew babes...so much! *mwah*

haha...that was funny. moving on..

i dunno what to write here...hmm...*thinking* wala talaga. my mind's not working again.

*bum mode on*

definitely feeling the summer. i can't wait to go to the beach! rawr.

*i love you! thanks for uhm...kanina. hehe! mwahmwah! hugs! ;)

life stinks

*yawn*....i just woke up from my nap. my eyes hurt... =c

anyway...

kanina, we had this general meeting for my hk 100 class. it was about the upcoming 8th chancellor's cup on april 4-8. wala lang...we met our "coleagues"- the masteral class and the .1 and .2 electives classes. it was a short meeting though...but i had alot of work to do. i'm the head of the marketing com. kasi eh...so i handle all the money-related things. ooooh...feeling rich! haha! oh well. that's life. =)

sergio and i had lunch together...after what happened last night. sweet. his cousin tagged along with us. la lang..sharing.. =)

*random thought* sometimes, i just wish i was not super sensitive. la lang..sometimes, i just want to be NR about stuff so that everything that i say or do won't get me into trouble. because everything that i say, people just misinterpret them and i always have a hard time proving that they're wrong. sometimes, it's so sick already but i still can't manage to get people understand my real reasons or the truth. it's sad actually...and it hurts too because the people you trust can't seem to trust you as well. they'll say that they believe you but they show that they're not even believing you. they choose to believe other people who doesn't even know a shit about your real self. and what hurts most is that these people are the ones closest to your heart. i'm happy with my life naman...it's just these kinds of things make it more complicated. some people are just very challenging...they make things hard to deal with. but they say life is full of challenges right? who am i to complain????

randomisity. that's all. =)

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!

tired

i just got home from school. gosh, i'm so tired. i had a little work out. hehe. =)

anyway, it was the last day of my CW 10 class. yey! no more boring class meetings and discussions. whoopee! haha! now, i just have to submit my requirements (paper works) and then i'm so done with cw10. wee!!! =) oh, i got a grade of 1.0 in my personal essay. la lang...sharing. =)

what else?

oh, yesterday, i auditioned for the summer scholarship program of STEPS dance studio. it was fun...we were so many and the dancing was so exciting. well, i felt nervous at first...knowing that there were plenty of good dancers, even a filipiniana member and everybody's so intimidating. hehe. but i did great.....i was full of energy and i really enjoyed the auditions. now, i just have to wait for their call if i'm accepted or not...and pray that it'll be a full scholarship. (pls, pls, pls!!!) hehe. =)

tom, i'm gonna watch my cousin try-out for the varsity football team of UP. 6am? interesting. hehe.

i gotta go...i'm really, really tired. gosh, i missed doing that baby...super. had fun. thanks! haha! ;) i love you so much!!! <3

weird

yesterday, something unexpected happened. =)

when i arrived home, i checked my friendster account and see if there's anything new. i saw that i have a new testimonial. i clicked it. when the page downloaded already, i was surprise to see who the testi was from. Bogs. yep...my ex. i read the testi and for some weird reasons, i approved it.

that's not the end of the story. here's more.

in his testi, he gave me his sun number. and for some bizarre reasons, i saved it and texted him. and to my surprise, he replied real fast. haha! then, after a few text messages, he called here sa house. it was a fun conversation. i missed talking to him. we talked about alot of things: life, school, love life, etc. i was surprised that he has a gf na. hehe. la lang. i was happy. atleast our friendship's back. that's all i'm after anyway. =)

i missed you, dude. i'm so glad that i finally got the chance to talk to you again. it was so nice being able to have a conversation with you. sa uulitin. =)

now i can say that i'm happy with my life now. everything's back to normal. yey! =)

still, I LOVE YOU sergio! pls don't doubt about it or something. it's YOU that i love now. and will always do. =) i <3 you baby! so much! =)

ahem

this week's been very busy...hectic pare. exams, practicals, preparations...haay...atleast, school's gonna end at the 21st. wee! haha! summer, here i come! can't wait to go to the beach! oh yeah! :)

anyway, i had my haircut last sunday. yep...and it's like SO SHORT! i never had this kind of haircut before...well, summer na. mainit. haha! new look! well, my classmates told me na i look good with my new haircut...that made me feel ok. cool! hehe. :)

sergio and i watched Final Destination 3 kanina sa sm north. well, the movie was cool. the scenes were freaky! well, for me. haha! because of that movie, i don't wanna ride a roller coaster again. (as if i ride roller caosters. haha!) yey!

i have to make an invitational letter for my hk 100 class. fcuk. i shouldn't be the one doing this! i'm not his secretary! i'm only the head of the finance committee and i'm wondering why i'm doing these letters. sheesh! siguraduhin lang ng prof ko na he's gonna give me a grade of flat 1...OR ELSE. hmf!

oh well, i'm gonna start the letter na. i'll update this maybe tomorrow or sometime! toodles! :)

* i love you!!! :)

2 months!!!ü

2 months!!! yey! hehe. =)

we celebrated our 2nd monthsary by going to EK! yep, Enchanted Kingdom....and only the two of us! waha! anyway, we met at LAndmark makati. he arrived at around 9:45am na. so from there, we drove na papuntang EK. when we arrived there, sobrang init! and that's like 10:30am palang ha? hehe. anyway, there were a few people palang. so we rode the rides na. we went sa Rialto, rollerskates thingy, bump cars, 4-d theater (which made me very scared and screamed alot. haha!), jungle log jam, rio grande....haay. the last ride got me so wet! as in WET. buong back part ng body ko is soaking wet. thanks to sergio. kasi naman, may part dun sa ride na parang may mini waterfall. eh sakanya tatama yun. alam mo kung anong ginawa? nung malapit na, tinanggal ang seatbelt, lumipat at ayun....sakin bumuhos ang malamig at maruming tubig. grr. haha! we were so wet that after the ride, we rushed to his car and changed clothes. after changing clothes, we left narin. dami na kasing tao eh, and it was SO hot.

while on the way, i thought na uuwi nako sa bahay ko. but no....we went to his house pa sa pasay. la lang. stop over sandali. hehe. we ate merienda and did some other stuff. haha. then i went home narin. actually, hinatid, err, SINAMAHAN niya ako sa mrt all the way to quezon ave station para makasakay sa may fx terminal dun. aww, how SWEET. =) then he went home coz they're gonna go pa sa bday ng lola niya. *whew*

i had so much fun with him kanina...pictures galore! haha! =)

oh, we forgot to get our picture sa log jam...oh well. we were not interested anyway. hahaha! =)

thanks baby for this day! i super had fun! i really enjoyed our EK and your house "escapades"...haha! i love you and happy monthsary again baby! much love! mwah! =)

i was supposed to have a haircut today pero di natuloy. oh well. bye! =) (labo)

dance dance baby!

yesterday, i watched the UP Pep COncert. hmm...what can i say about it? well, it was not that good as i expected it to be. some dances are quite boring...but they were great. i mean the dancers were Great. i saw my friends and i was like, "aww...they're so good. i should've been there..*sigh*..." hehe. la lang..they inspired me to join the club. haha.

anyway, it's a wednesday today and i'm so bored. well, my class is at 8am pa naman and i'm so lazy to move. haay...

i STILL feel weird. my gad, i hope this isn't...haaay...hoping...

anyway, i gotta go. i'll eat breakfast na. too bad..

bored

No classes today....great. now, i'm so bored here at home. its like 5 days of no classes already...pfft. it sucks.

what to do..what to do??? hmm...nothing. just stare at something and...yeah, stare at some things lang. haha! stig.

my eyes are still puffy. i still look like a racoon and an owl. and my boyfriend thinks its cute. yeah...sure. weirdo. haha! i look like a harrassed tomato too! yikes...my face is kinda distorted right now. shit, i'm getting ugly...noooooooooooooooooooooo!!!! hahaha! dream on. =p

anyway, still thinking of what to do. i really hate staying here sa bahay..wala talaga akong magawa. kain tulog lang. which is very bad right now coz i'm getting fat already..achk. great. i should go back to dancing. that's the only exercise i get. hehe.

oh well, i'm getting sleepy...i think i'll sleep muna. byee! :)

*i love you!!! *mwah*

new phone!! yey!

i have a new phone!!! :) it's a Samsung x-660 phone and its super cool! a cam and a flip phone...yey! what i've always wanted. hehe. :) i would like to say thanks! to my 2 cool and oh-so-lovable parents..you're the best! haha! i promise i'll be a good girl na. (weh. haha)

weee!!! la lang...i'm in a hyper-bouncy mode today! happyyyyyyyy!!! haha! ;)

anyway..

hmm...what else??? i think that's all i gotta say. i just wanna share my "happy moment" with you..haha!

oh yeah. darn. another anatomy exam tom. rawr. oh well, gotta bounce. have to study pa. *toodles*

** I love you baby! *kiss*

weee...!

ok, our country's in a "state of emergency" thingy...wala lang. scary...eek!

sergio just left...he went here and we just did some stuff. hehe. baby, pls. take care on your way home...i'm getting worried already... =( i love you! :)

anyway, i'm all alone here at my house...how sad. and boring. haha! shit, i'm gonna get fat! all i do here is eat, eat, EAT! wtf?! haaay...oh well, atleast i'm gonna have my new phone later..yey! :)

in all fairness, i'm really worried. what if he didn't get home safely, or worse, not even arrive home?? what if he got kidnapped or something?!?!?! aaaaaaaahhhhh!!! stop it camie, you're just making yourself paranoid...(yikes, i'm talking to myself. see...tsktsk.)

ANYWAY..

i really have nothing to say...i just remembered that i have to update this because i said something like that yesterday. but i forgot what i'm supposed to write just now...haha! sorry...

what's happening to our country?! it's getting weirder and scarier. so many disasters had already occured. tsktsk. i pity our country...so much for having those EDSA Revolution stuff. no use. we're back to ground zero. *sigh*

oh well, we just have to pray...real hard. haaay...

ok, i'm getting all nationalistic and stuff...i'm freaking myself out. haha! i gotta go. later! :)

haha! ok, sergio's with me right now and he's reading my blog!! yikes! haha! :)

I LOVE YOU SERGIO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha, he's gonna read that. =p

got nothing to more else say...labo. later i'll update this. promise! hehe!

please, please stop reading my blog....tama na yan. hehe. I LOVE YOU!!! :)

realizations

thanks to my classmate, i just realized some things...and it's kinda sad because these might affect my current rel. fcuk. demnit. tss..

am i really over him? well, i know i am but there's something about what my classmate asked me that made me think if i'm really over him and if i've already moved on. well, having a new boyfriend right now is one proof that i've already moved on. nah...he's not a "rebound" or something, i really do love him! but the questions really bothered me...and i must admit, he has a point....a really BIG point.

haay....what happened kanina really bothered me. well, it affected me in a way na i was so not in the mood anymore kanina. i dunno...maybe i need to reconsider my feelings right now. i so hate doing that...it makes me too emotional and may cause something that i don't really like. haaay...

now, i'm struggling with my emotions...i so fcuking hate this feeling. everything's happening...again. the feelings, situations...they're all getting shitty. and i'm so afraid that i might lose another person...for like a month and 16 days...gad, i hope not. i REALLY hope not...

but hey, thanks for the "intimate" and "mind-buggling" conversation awhile ago, Andrew. though you kinda made me cry...haha! aylavyew! :)

to sergio: pls. don't doubt...i love you and i so mean it. i know that i'm over him and i chose to love you....kahit na sandali lang yung "moving-on stage" ko, you helped me and i didn't regret that. i NEVER did. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH...just always remember that. :)

*di dapat masyadong magseryoso....

the heck with that statement?! crap.

ok...i just woke up from my almost 20-hours sleep...oh shit. ang tagal ng tulog ko! waha! wasted mehn...and my head's a little whacked today. rawr.

anyhoo, i had lots of fun last friday and sat. yipee! :)

last friday, we went to the UP Fair. well, i didn't go in actually, sa labas lang but it was fun. i was with my blockmates and sergio. actually, we were waiting for somee of our classmates to go out kasi nga yung aming bonding ay naghihintay na. then after an hour of waiting, they finally went out and off we go to katipunan. we went to SHADE BAR. wala lang. inuman. tapos nung medyo nagkakalasingan na, ayan na...hot seat! hehe! well, the night got a little interesting for the 2 of my classmates...haha! new lovebirds! yey! :) anyway, we went back to the fair and went na to the sleepover thing. it was so fun! i super enjoyed my night. yipee! :)

the next day, sergio and i went to UP. he had a basketball game kasi which turned out na default sila kasi kulang sila sa players. late kasi dumating eh. tsktsk. hehe. tapos, we went na to vinzon's kasi my comm 3 thing siya dun at imimeet ko naman si joey. finally, joey arrived. we ate lunch at LKB (lutong kapitbahay). wala lang...kwentuhan. then, after eating, we went to UP Theater because she had this play she's required to watch. i met her boylet! yey! haha! :) tapos yun...a little more kwentuhan then we said our goodbyes na. aww...

i missed you so much joey girl! hope to see u again soon! i'll text you if i'm going to ust ok? love u dearie... :)

then i went back to sergio na. hinatid na niya ako pauwi. he stayed here for awhile then left na rin. :)

now, he's in laguna. bday kasi ng kabarkada niya. i'm missing him right now...rawr. haha! :)

i love you so much! *mwah* :)

i gotta go. i have a lot of fixing to do. ciao!

yum!!

serge went here kanina after class...err...he didn't go to his 2:30pm class na pala. hehe! :) wala kasi akong class ng 1pm eh...so 11:00am i was freeeeee!! hehe :)

anyway, i had fun...lots and lots of fun! thanks baby! :) and i'm sorry if u didn't go na sa swimming class mo...we had fun naman diba? wahahaha! I LOVE YOU!!! :)

ok, tom, we're gonna have a "block bonding" sa bahay ng classmate ko sa bicutan....mehn, ang layo. but surprisingly, pinayagan ako! at! over-night pa...yey! hehe! can't wait...atlast natuloy din yung bonding naming block...tagal na naming pinagplplanuhan eh. hehe. :)

now, i gotta fix my stuff na. goodnight! *mwah* toodles.ü

hearts day

i forgot to blog yesterday. sorry..anyway, i just wanna greet you guys a HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!! (well, belated. haha) Hope u lovebirds had alot of fun yesterday...coz I DID. waha! ;)

ANYWAY, valentine's was fun yesterday. i celebrated it with sergio and alot of things happened. 1st, he surprised me by giving me roses and a box of 3 SWISS chocolates. asan yung surprise dun? well, long story. basta, hindi maipinta (uish) ang aking reaksyon nung natanggap ko ito. i was so happy and well, surprised! haha! it was so sweet of him to come up with a "scheme" like that...he watched me pa sa gymnastics class ko which made me mess up my stunts. haha! :)

after school, well, actually, we didn't go to our 1pm class (hehe), we went here sa house. wala lang...we ate lunch (take-out sa mcdo!) and "fooled" around. hehe...well, yeah...that's all we did here. he went home at around 6pm na..and i had SO much fun with him! (thanks baby!) :)

kanina, he went here again sa bahay. la lang...ate lunch (again) and did alot of talking and....EATING. haha! well, he just left actually. i had fun...i ALWAYS have fun when i'm with him. which makes it so NICE. haha! labo.. :)

ang sakit talaga ng katawan ko...good thing i had a body massage sa F Spa sa may katipunan. saraaaaaap... :)

anyway, i gotta go. i'm sleepy...i think i'm gonna hit the sack for awhile. hehe. :)

ay! punta kayo sa UP FAIR! this week, feb. 13-18 sa may UP Sunken Garden. astig nung mga concerts sa gabi! araw-araw. friends, if you're going, text nyo ko! nga pala, di nako makakasayaw sa sat...dun sa mga nasabihan ko. kasi mag-oout of town pala kami. darn. oh well, basta punta kayo! okie?! alaysha! :)

shopping!!!

i just came from Divisoria...grabe, heaven. shopping to the max! hehe.. :)

bought a new pair of chucks, a cute orange polo shirt, cool shades, 3 cd's and uhm....i forgot. hehe. oh! valentine's card for my SPECIAL someone...hehe. well, i still dunno what to give him for tues...well, atleast may card na. a very good start. wehe. :)

i'm so tired...as in TIRED. nothing can describe how tired i am right now...i was out from 7:30am -5:30pm...how cool can you get?! mehn...almost 12 hours...whew. non-stop walking, driving, eating (hehe) and shopping...astig talaga mag-divisoria. ang saya! haha! :)

shux...Valentine's na. wala pakong gift! bahala na...i'll ask him first what our plans for on tues...para makapag-isip nako ng "gimmick" ko...hehe.. ;)

anyway, i'm so tired and i can't think of anything to write here...well, yeah. sorry..hehe. :)

*toodles*

** I love YOU!!! <3

yikee....

hinatid ako ni serge dito sa bahay! stig...yey! haha la lang! :) he stayed for like mga 30 mins??? layo kasi ng bahay eh..hehe. :)

ay! very funny story: we went to katipunan kasi kanina kasi we had a very long break. wala kasing anatomy class. so pabalik na kami ng UP then suddenly, i felt this kind of "gush" and i got a lil' scared na. i have my period kasi and its my 2nd day...anyway, so yun. hinatid namin yung iba sa gym tapos hatid na nya ako sa CAL for my 1pm class. nagpark na...tapos when i stood up, taran! ayan, may tagos na. buti nlang at may paper akong nilagay under my butt kasi white yung seatcovers ng car niya. safe na...eh kaso, yung tagos ay medyo malaki at ansa gitna! so panic mode naman si camie...here's the sweet part: we went to AS para bumili ng susuotin kong underpants kasi nga sobrang laki ng tagos ko. we went sa tiangge sa may AS Walk...i saw a skirt. tapos binili niya. ayun. wala lang...na-sweetan lang ako. hehe! :) then i went to my cw10 class na. cute ng skirt...may pang-valentine's nako! haha! :)

and oh...he gave me this chick toy...he got it from his swimming class. cutie. may chick nakong alaga at ang pangalan niya ay ser-yow. hehe! wee! :)

wala lang...feel ko lang i-share ang mga nangyari today. oh well. gotta go. i'm gonna sleep muna...hintayin ko lang text niya na nakauwi na siya. medyo PAsay pa ang bahay eh..hehe. :)

*bounce*

1st month!

yesterday, serge and i celebrated our 1st month anniversary! it was one hella of a day! hehe. ;)

i met up with him at SM north edsa. but before going to our meeting place, i went to the grocery and bought Chips Ahoy! Chewy Cookies. aww...hehe. then, i went narin sa may pizza hut to meet him. when we saw each other na, he gave me a Tulip (take note: a TULIP!) and we kissed. aww...how sweet! tulips are my fave and he's the first guy who ever gave me that...shux, he loves me! haha! anyway, we went to Ooody's Express to have lunch. well, ako lang pala kasi may nanlibre daw sa kanila ng lunch eh di pa 'ko kumakain nun. anyway, while waiting for my order, i gave him the cookies na. he was so surprised kasi it's his fave! when i saw the smile on his face, i was so inlove! haha! anyway, he got happy...and i was happy narin. then i ate na rin.

after eating, went to the cinemas to check out what movie to watch. we spotted Underworld Evolution and decided to catch that movie. we bought tickets and went inside the movie house. we were seated at the premiere section and it was so cool! haha! anyway, the movie was full of bloody stuff na nanghina ako...hehe. but it was so cool and great! we were all cuddly and stuff inside the movie house. hehe! ;)

after the movie, we went walking around the mall and checked some of the stores. sale kasi eh...pero ang dami talagang tao na we decided to walk outside nalang. dun the The Garden. ayun. while walking, we talked...it was so romantic kahit na maliwanag pa yun. everything was just perfect that i was so enjoying my time with him. he enjoyed as well. :)

we rode the mrt up to quezon ave. station. i dunno why...anyway, at quezon ave. he walked me to the fx terminal nad we said our goodbyes na. he went back to the mrt and went home narin. :)

i had a blast yesterday, baby! thanks so much! i thank God that he finally gave us a chance to share our love with each other! uish. hehe. :) i love you sooooooo much baby!!! *mwah*

ok, ngayon, i think may appendicitis siya ngayon. umaangal na masakit ang tyan eh. hay nako...kung anu-ano kasi ang ginagawa eh. wait, i'm gonna text him nga muna to check if everything's still ok with him...

gotta bounce. byee!! :)

one of the boys

ok, i'm here at a gaming place somewhere in katipunan...CYber Arena. yeah. i'm the only girl here..all of my boy blockmates are playing...yeah, you're right, DOTA. damn DOTA. what's up with that game even?!?!?!

haha...bitter. even my bf's playing...and i can't even interrupt him. arg.

anyway, i or should i say, we just had our anatomy lab practicals...well, i can't say na madali siya or something...steady lang. :) hehe.. ;)

ok, i'm still bored here and what pisses me off is that i can't think of anythng to write. rawr. i want MCDO....MCDOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!! haha! :)

i gotta go...my mind's completely blank right now. baka kung ano pa masulat ko..hehe. ;)

toodles.