loves et. =)

[baby] Sergio: baby baby baby =)
camie: what?
[baby] Sergio: may poem ako for you..
[baby] Sergio: wait..
camie: game
camie: !
[baby] Sergio: You came from my dreams,Filling my heart.Walking beside me,Holding me closeThe gentleness you bestowed upon meThe closeness we shareLeaves me in awe of you.
So many truths of dreams and desiresHeld so tight.Hidden just below the surfaceA heart no longer silentThe need to share the realityOf such purity of essence
You see me as I amI wear no mask before youStanding vulnerable, shy, soft, and lovingNo pretending, it is very realYou're not my imagination,But what was missing from my soul
A piece of cloth,Woven so close.Threads intertwinedEach touched by the other.Held tight, each making the other strongWith every thread, it becomes more completeOne in the same, each enhancing the other
Do we stand and questionThe purity of this moment
[baby] Sergio: Together in sight of a common goalOr merely brushing it aside, and settlingWith a mere existence
Will we have the courageTo open our hearts,Letting our souls reach out,Sharing completely
Knowing this could be ... that last chanceCould we just walk away ?Or reach for all the dreams to come true
camie: you just never fail to make my smile, do you?
camie: aww..love it. san mo naman nakuha yan?
[baby] Sergio: hehe.. thats what i do best baby! mwah

~*~

yeah.. =) love you! <3

ho-hum

i'm bored...yep..when did i never get bored? rawr.

i want my tiger ears na! joey love, where are they?? game nako maging tiger..haha! RAWRRR. (with matching hand gesture)

game nakong mangakit ng isang tao diyan..let's get it on, babe! haha! hussssssshhhhhhh...

see, bored bored BORED! ehk.

**i looooooooove you! congrats sa pagkapanalo sa PS2 game kanina! videogame freak..eek! haha! *mwahmwah*

life's good.. (yeah boi)

oh, so, so good! yupyup! i'm just so happy..why? we're ok na! =) all i need pala is palamigin ang ulo niya...woooohooooo!! yeah boi..aylaveet. =)

anyway, last night we went to our blockmate Danya's debut at Albergus Resto. [belated] happy birthday dearest!! =) it was a fun night..the food was ok.. hehe =) saya nung mga taga-hk..sobrang kulit! we had fun just by entertaining ourselves..haha. loves et. after that, i went home narin kagad...i was so darn sleepy na kasi. rawr. sergio and i went home na..uish. =) he spent the night here ;)

kanina naman, i went to araneta coll. to watch the UAAP basketball semis with my dahling Joey. =) ok, so i thought yung womens game lang ang papanoorin namin..but noooo! di na kami umalis ng araneta coz we stayed na to watch the other women's and juniors game plus the Ateneo-Adamson and Ue-Ust games..coolnees. sumakit ang ulo at major energy level down to the highest level ako..haha! di gna seryoso...ang hyper ko nung morning pero pagdating nung ue-ust game, wala na..bangag nako. hahaha!

congrats to all the winners! oh, oh! i so missed this: GO ATENEO!!!! haha! missed cheering that. =p

i gotta end this na. i'm super tired and my head's kinda hurtin' already..hehe. lovelove! *mwah*

* i loooooooooooooooooooooooooovvvveeeee you baby!! =) i'll never let you go! uish! =p *mwah*

hanging on

i just couldn't do it.

last night, vicka and i were talking about a probable solution to our problem. so i tried talking to him right after that. but when i heard his voice already, something stopped me from saying to or asking him what i was about to ask. i just can't..di ko kaya. i realized as we were "talking". so i decided to end our conversation and sobrang init na rin ng ulo mo and i don't want it to get worse. i just couldn't bear to prolong this agony..*sigh*

at hindi ko parin matake yung profile mo sa friendster...shit, natatakot ako.. =c

atleast, im not making kulit you anymore. i'm not making "habol" or something. i just want you to calm down and no matter how long that will take, i'm willing to wait. i know you don't want to talk to me right now so i'm just gonna shut up as well. i hope you're satisfied na with that...

i'm tired of messing up everything. i'm tired of wanting to correct that mess at that instant. if you want to prolong this, fine. i just want us to be ok and get back to normal..

oo, 1 week kitang ginanito. sorry na..di ko naman kasi ineexpect na maging ganito yung week natin eh.

Oh God, pls give me the strength to hang-on to this..coz i'm about to let go already and i really don't wanna do that. please, just give us another chance..

thanks vicka for lending me your ears last night..i really needed someone to listen. soulmates din tayo..haha. =) thanks din sa kabangagan mode kagabi..ALPP..the best, bentang benta eh. hahaha! =)

*i'm really sorry about everything...i know that i caused this problem and i'm going to fix it. just trust me..pls? that's all i need..

to sergio

Love
by Pablo Neruda

What's wrong with you, with us, what's happening to us? Ah our love is a harsh cord that binds us wounding us and if we want to leave our wound, to separate, it makes a new knot for us and condemns us to drain our blood and burn together. What's wrong with you? I look at you and I find nothing in you but two eyes like all eyes, a mouth lost among a thousand mouths that I have kissed, more beautiful, a body just like those that have slipped beneath my body without leaving any memory. And how empty you went through the world like a wheat-colored jar without air, without sound, without substance! I vainly sought in you depth for my arms that dig, without cease, beneath the earth: beneath your skin, beneath your eyes, nothing, beneath your double breast scarcely raised a current of crystalline order that does not know why it flows singing. Why, why, why, my love, why?

haaay...

one thing that i learned this day...

keep your friggin' mouth shut.

yeah boi. that's the one.



bring it on, babe.

losing it..

ok, so i'm starting to lose myself lately. i always get irritated, hot-tempered and so angry that fast, do some scandalous things (and i mean, scandalous), i always shout, hit, push, insist what i want...basically, i'm having tantrums and guess what??! i'm 19 already.

now, my boyfriend's complaining na "nasasakal ko na daw siya". shitty, what's happening to me?! i'm not like this naman before eh...i keep on repeating my unintentional mistakes and i just couldn't learn how to control myself...

total self-destruction. jeezaz!

i desperately need a cure for this. i need to get myself together and return to the old, normal, camie that i am. i need to regain my boyfriend's trust in me...i need help!!!

i need someone to slap me on the face and tell me, "grow the fuck up, Camie!!"

he/ she who does that, is my one true friend. =)

so, please...save me from this hell inside me...

*i'm REALLY sorry... =c

help!

shit, my boyfriend's being an ass again. jeezaz!

long story. no time to tell. rawr.

*save me..pls?

good morning

i hate it when the first thing that happens with your morning is a nag from your parents. yup. that happened to me awhile ago and it was the lamest nag ive ever heard. broken umbrella. how cool could my morning get? sheeze..

i broke [for the nth time] my new [take note] umbrella yesterday when i was in school. i didn't mind coz what's new? my umbrella keeps on breaking itself. funny coz i didn't do anything for it to break or something..but it just did. when i told my mom that i broke it, she was so cool with it. but my dad...haha, funny. he kept on nagging me and telling me how clumsy i am and stuff. never expected that from my dad. jeeezaz!

oh well. time to buy a new one for the nth, nth, NTH time. yey...new umbrellas coming up! =p

anyway, i went to sergio's place yesterday after knowing that i err, we didn't have our hk 92 class. he got sick after we ate lunch at the SC [screw you, sc! haha!] so i accompanied him going home. stayed for awhile at his place and went back to north ave. to meet up with my parents at sm north.

upon arriving there, we [my parents and i] decided to meet at the new mall bldg. of SM. so from the mrt station to this building i walked. pota...it was a VERY long walk that when i arrived there, i was so craving for a drink. but when i saw the shoes and the clothes there [we met at the hypermarket downstairs], i forgot about everything and just have to scan these pieces. haha. after that, went straight to my cousin's place, ate dinner, watched a bit, then went home already.

later, i'm going to have a ballroom practice with my partner for our dance compet next week. haay...katamad... pfft. =

* i looooooooooooooooooove you!! *mwahmwah*

what a day..

what a day. as in lahat ng energy ko used up..take note, i didn't dance. rawr. don't wanna make kwento anymore coz i really didn't like the things that happened kanina. thankfully, everything's ok already..thank you. =)

for all those i made "damay" with my "kasungitan modes" kanina, I'M SORRY...really. marami kayo, alam ko. i didn't mean na idamay kayo. sorry..

i'm really so thankful that everything turned out very well for us. i was about to give up...as in this close...whew. thanks baby. =)

anyway, we watched the UAAP Cheerdance Competition yesterday. wala, talo. haha. oh well, they were expecting it. minadali eh. dibale.. =p

i don't know why but i just don't feel like blogging today..haay..oh well...towel. [ngek]

"i choose to be different."

last friday was my [other] bestfriend's 20th birthday. [belated] HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOEY!! yuck, you're out of your "teen" already...tanda mo na! but i hate you coz you still look young! argh! haha..kiddin' love. =) anyway, we had brunch at philcoa with sergio. we ate so many food! well, kami lang pala ni serge yun. haha. =) then, she stayed with us sa UP for awhile and went to school already. aww...i missed you so much joey girl. hope that sergio and i made your day special....somehow. hehe. =) *mwah*

oh, and that afternoon, i finally wathced the devil wears prada. yupyup! i'm so glad that ive finally watched that movie..after a week of making kulit to everyone. haha. yey! =p and oh, the fun part there was that i watched it all by myself. hehe. ayaw kasi akong samahan ni sergio eh..i was so desperate na kasi. haha! so there i was, inside the movie house, with couples surrounding me, enjoying my holy kettle corn. very, very fun. =p the movie was good..Anne Hathaway was so hot! especially her clothes, super! hehe. too bad i wasn't able to catch the start of the movie..pero ok lang. steady parin. =)

and because of that movie, i caught a fever and a "severe" side stitch at the right side of my body...rawr. but it was still worth it. =p

ok, so later i'm gonna watch the UAAP cheerdance compet at the araneta coll. hmm...so what's in it for the UP Pep squad today? i dunno..let's just see later during the compet.

*loooooooooooovvvvvveeeee!! hehe. *mwah*

save me..i'm bored.

yeah..as in REALLY. BORED. =

wednesdays sucks..most especially when you're just stuck here sa house, with no gimmicks whatsoever. rawr.

i still want to watch the devil wears prada. super desperado nako. help me..

* i love you! mwahugz! <3

<3

yesterday was so fun!! it was our 8th monthsary and it was the first time that we were back together in school! oh yeah! =) 8 months na...yea boi...going strong. =) we had our lunch date at teriyaki boy, katipunan. then, nung afternoon, after our classes, we went out. actually, DOTA muna with the two hk boys for an hour then we went somewhere na. we were supposed to watch the devil wears prada, but due to an unexpected incidence (sergio got sick), we went to his house nalang para makapag-rest na siya. it was late na when we arrived at their house and it was raining so hard..so i stayed for awhile. but yung awhile na yun medyo tumagal so they let me stay for the night their. siyempre, natuwa naman si sergio boy. hehe. =) so there..he was sick and i took care of him. aww.. =)

we went to school kanina. i went with him sa infirmary para makapag-med cert. we had no classes sa hk 92. tapos, sa katipunan, we had a little misunderstanding that led to a mild fight. hehe. but all was well afterwards. didn't go to my afternoon classes becasue i went with him ulit pauwi sakanila. after a long, quiet and masungit drive, when we arrived sa house nila, we were ok na. thanks to sergio and his uniqueness of how to make me not mad and feel better. hehe. ;) bummed around a bit then i went home narin. =)

fudge, i didn't attend classes nanaman sa UP fil. oh well, thursday...promise! =)

nakaktamad na kasi eh. i dunno but i really want to dance but i'm friggin' lazy to attend classes. rawr. sana mawala na yung feeling natoh. =

*i love you so much! and i hope that you're feeling better na. don't forget your meds ok?! *looooove*

happy. very, very happy. =)

yey!

after 5 days of longing for him (haha)...i got to be with him! yey! =)

i dont wanna make kwento na. basta, ang super saya! the whole afternoon with him...yeyeye! =) loves it. i looooooooooooooooooooove him!! =) and i super duper uber missed him! haha =)

anyway, after that, i went to my cousin marlo's place. birthday niya kasi eh. [belated] HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARLO!!! much love!! =) his "party" was fun...and dami niyang friends. hehe. food trippin' and inuman sessions...i loved it. went home na at around 2:30am..all wasted and sh*t. haha! i just woke up actually and i have a terrible head ache. yawch! =p

later, i'm going to my tito. he's in the hospital kasi eh...Anaphylactic shock. yehes...first aid. ;)

* baby, baby, baby!!! i really had fun yesterday! just watching you sleep and stuff..weee! i love you!!!! *mwahmwahmwah* and oh, congrats! *hug* =)

day 5

ok, so it's very weird coz i've been blogging about the days i'm not with sergio. la lang..pansin ko lang. God, i miss him that much just to write about some stuff that aren't that important naman. haay...i miss spending time with him. rawr..

anyway, school was ok. quite boring as usual. besides not having my bf around, i didn't saw bries as well. aww..too bad for me. anyway, i was so desperate to watch The Devil Wears Prada that i made kulit my blockmates to come and watch it with me. but nooo...not successful. nobody even bothered to ask me when and where. haha. poor me..*sniff*

seriously, i'm so desperate to watch that movie. i dunno why but it causght my attention and made kulit my system to watch it. i read the book na...it was nice. that's why i wanna watch that movie ASAP to see if it's as good as the book. haha.

i need a (movie) date. are you intersted to be my date??? PLEASE????

*baby, i miss spending time with you na...nakakainis kasi ang tagal matapos ng week na to. argh. oh well, induction mo na bukas...goodluck! i know you'll do good..kaw pa. i love you so much! *mwah*

movie with me...please? ;)

day 4

ok, so my day went ok. i get to see sergio even for awhile...yey!!! hehe. he asked if we could meet because he needed the solicitation money na. hoo, palusot..you wanted to see me as well. haha! =p we met at AS. he looked so harrased na...poor baby. i so wish im allowed to go with you to take care of you the whole day...pero di eh. you have work and i have classes. wawa baby ko...dibale, i promise next week, you're gonna be well taken care of by me! for a week! hehe. well, i just wish that you'll always gonna take care of yourself...3 days nalng baby! lapiiiiit naaaaaaa!! haha! can't wait to be with you again. uh-huh! excited na me. =)

i went home early today. my mom was in UP and after i met sergio, i decided to go home with my mom. i didn't go to my badminton class because my mom didn't allow me to go na. i didn't rehearse din today becasue i have so many school works to do. rawr. promise sir van, next week. babawi ako. =) and di narin kasi ako pinayagan ng mom ko eh. rawr. iba talaga tong week na toh...very...lonely. oh well, i just can't wait for next week! =p

tomoroow's gonna be a brand new day. hope it's gonna be a happy day for me. =)

i love you and i miss u so damn much. i can't help it anymore...i want you by my side na talaga. rawr. ingat ka ok? *mwah*

day 3

just got home from our cwts project at Cupertino School, somewhere inside La Vista subd. it was a very fullfiling day for us..especially, for me. we taught some exercise and philippine games to the special children students of that school. it was very fun yet very tiring. the kids were very amazing. they were full of energy and very friendly. i cant help but smile everytime i talk to these children. they made my day special today. thanks guys. hope u had so much fun coz i did. =)

day 3 and i'm starting tomiss sergio badly. =c he's not texting nor calling me anymore. well i guess, he's very busy na with all the projects their group have. i understand that but i just can't help missing my baby badly...pfft. =|

i so wish this week will end soon....VERY SOON. i can't wait to see him, be with him, kiss him, hug him, fight with him (haha), etc. again. haaay...wait, wait, wait...my patience is being tested again. rawry.

* i miss you so much....sorry, but i can't help it. i love you baby..ingat ka diyan. =)

day 2

its a tuesday..day 2. well, it was a boring day.. i didn't go to my 8:30am class because i was throwing up the whole morning. fcuk this stupid stomach ache. argh. anyway, then i didn't have my 2:30pm class because our teach (ooh, shortcut. haha) was too lazy (i think) to attend our class today. yeah boi. i love UP teachers. if they dont feel like teaching, they wont. loves et. hehe. =p so i went home and now, i'm too lazy to go back to UP and attend rehearsals with UP filipiniana. well, my mom didn't allow me to go out again so steady lang. all i have to do now is to text sir van that i'm not going to attend rehearsals (again) today.

sh*t..i'm so not into doing anything this week. i'm too lazy to do anything..and i can't find any excuses to back that up. i just miss sergio...yeah, we text each other but i miss seeing him. and take note, 2nd day palang siya wala. takte. pfft.

oh well. ma reason nako kung bakit hindi ako makakarehearse ngayon. wala nakong pera at aalis pako bukas for our proj. for CWTS. nice.. =)

i wish that this week's gonna be that fast. i miss my baby too much already..

**uwi ka naaaaaaaaaaaa!!!! rawr. i love you. =p

day 1

ok, so it's the first day of my "no boyfriend for a week". how was it? hmm...a bit unusual. hehe. =)

i'm not used to not seeing sergio for hk 102 class, not having early lunch with him at around 10, not having to scold at him for not telling where the heck he is and stuff like that. weird...seriously. but he texted me at around 11am to go to as before 12nn. unfortunately, i wasn't able to go there coz i went home ng mga 10:30. malay ko ba.. =c oh well. tapos, the meds he asked me to get from his mom arrived kanina at around 3pm. i panicked a little becuase i have no idea how to get those 2 boxes of heavy (as in) meds to sergio who's at the AS that time. a little panick thing occured and finally, i took a cab and brought them to AS na. when we met, we're kinda quiet. well, i know for sure he was tired and i was tired also. there, understood. well, medyo sinungitan ako nung kasama niya pero ok lang. care ko. hehe. ;) then after some minutes of thinking how to get those inside AS, i said goodbye to him and we kissed. then i went home narin.

haaay...that was just the first day and i miss him so much already... *sigh*

6 more days to go...sad...*frown*

hell month

yup...but not because of my school, but because of my boyfriend. weird noh?

and since inoorasan moko kagabi and you're too sleepy to hear me out, i'm just gonna write everything that i want to say last night.

i know for sure that this month will be a "hell" month for the both of us. he has this induction thing and he said that the whole month he's going to be very busy. i said, ok and understood that. i let him do the things that he needed to do. i let him go to wherever he is needed even if he doesn't tell me kagad. i didn't mind. and when we talk at night, kahit na puro lait ang nakukuha ko (coz nagmamarunong ako..daw) i just accept it. i just say to myself, "baka super pagod lang toh...pabayaan ko na. shut up nalang." all of that i do, even if that's not my usual self, just because i understand your situation right now.

and for him, it's not like that. oo, i nag, i react, i usually make aguements with you and stuff but do you know why i do that? kasi you are not listening to me. you always say na pagod ka and youre sleepy...and you're like that when you're sleepy...ok, i know, i get that. but did it ever occur to you that i'm also like that when i'm worried about you? kasi naman, you don't even say where you're going and don't even reply to my texts...ako, i alot kahit konting time just to worry about you and ask where the heck you are. sana naman nagrereply ka kagad. so that i wont be waiting and looking for you all over the place. well, i already told you about that and thank you for doing it now. another thing, yung about yesterday, i was so tired and sleepy because i didn't have enough sleep, i was cramming and panicking the other night and i had a call time ng 6am...i'm sorry for being masungit. all i want lang naman kasi was to have some time alone with you..di mo ba gets yun? oo, you need to bond with your brods, pero cmon man, next week, magakakasama kayo and even if you're working you'll still have this bonding thing. all i was asking for was like 30 mins yesterday...compared to 23 hours and 30 mins and more you're going to have with them for the next few days. i'm sorry kung nadamay ko mga friends mo sa kasungitan ko. i was being quiet na nga eh. and i'm sorry if i didn't mingle with them yesterday. what do you expect? i was irritated na nga. i am masungit when i'm irritated...and if your friends have any problems with that, i'm so sorry..i'm just like that. kahapon lang naman yun eh...i bet the next time we're going to meet di nako ganun. nagkataon lang.

did you know what pissed me off yesterday? because i was expecting something from you, knowing that we're not gonna be together for the whole week next week. yeah, you texted me..you want to see me. i appreciate that. pero sana naisip mo man lang na 1 week tayo di magkikita and you could have spent some alone time with me. wala eh. nakita mo lang na medyo masungit ako, wala na. di na umeffort. oo nakakainins na masungit ako, pero sana man lang, kahit minsan, do something about that...make me feel better. maglambing ka naman..pero hindi eh. wala. naglaro ka nalang with your friends and you just asked if i was ok. yun.

maybe you're right...maybe all of this is because of you and your induction thingy. maybe i just couldn't fully understand what is instore for us this month. but i am trying to really understand all of them. i am actually. and for you, i'm not much of a help this month and i dont support you with your induction thing. but you're wrong. i do love to help you (even if you did not give me a chance to prove it) and you do have my full support. kasi naman, you always say na puro salita lang ako. di mo kasi napapansin, kaya kinukulit kita, kasi pnuprove ko sayo na kaya kong gawin lahat ng sinabi ko. but no..you're just too tired and sleepy to see that.

oh well, 1 week tayong di magkikita. it's the start of the week that i'm worried of. but i know you're going to be fine and you'll do good in your induction. i just pray that when you come back, everything will be alright na.

i love you so much..those are not just words. i mean them.

boredom

i'm totally bored. i have no classes na and i'm here at some internet caf at the bahay ng alumni...doing nothing. iw as supposed to do the handouts for hk 109 but unfortunately, i didn't receive the email of bries. sorry bri! cud u email it to me again? hehe. oh well..i just have to wait for it...*sigh*

i'm checking my friendster, multiply and blog all at the same time. how to kill time...perfect.

oh, yesterday, sergio was at my place. actually, he slept there last tues night because it was my mom's birthday (happy birthday mom! <3 ) and she let sergio sleep at our place. aww...how sweet. haha! came home late last tues..ate dinner at around 11pm na coz it was friggin' traffic papasok sa fairview. and slept at around 1am na. haha. coolness. =)

*** love you so much, baby love!!! *mwahmwah* =)

ok, so next week will be one hell of a week for me. no sergio for one week... =,c *sniff* imma miss my baby... *sad*

what makes camie happy? =)

1. God/Christianity (i just love attending sunday worships)

2. Sergio <3 ('nuff said. =) )

3. Dancing

4. white chocolates/ chocolates

5. sylvester the cat

6. the color orange (bright bright!)

7. flowers (more on the tulips)

8. the number 4

9. my barkada/bestfriends

10. unlimited ice cream!

11. puyatan moments with my bf

12. phone calls by sergio

13. inuman sessions with my barkada

14. lunch dates with sergio

15. flip flops

16. lip gloss

17. sweet nothings of sergio

18. clothes

19. accessories

20. camwhoring

21. going to sergio's place (adventure)

22. hanging out with sergio at his/my plcae ;)

23. tight hug

24. soft kisses

25. warm smiles from everyone (hehe)

and so much more..hehe. =)

partay!

last saturday, i went to dang's post-birthday party at Esquinita. but before going there, i went to sergio's place. la lang..just to prove something to him. haha. we just chilled (haha) there...bummed around and stuff. =) tapos, akala ko you're really not coming with me...i was surprised nalang that he took a bath, and his parents kept on asking me where that place is and how to get there and stuff...in fairness, napangiti mo ako. hehe. =) so, we were all dressed up and we went to timog na.

we took the mrt and we arrived at the gma-kamuning station at around 8:45pm. we waited for issa kasi sumabay kami papunta dun sa place. when we arrived there, nandun na sila dang and melai. so all of us had our dates except for...melai. aww...she was so pissed off sa date niya coz ayaw talagang pumunta. so, nagbonding nalang sila ni sergio. hehe. =) we had so many drinks and food..we just talked and talked and talked...alot. =) we had some pictures too. after that drinking session, we went to starbuck's just to have coffee and chill. after that, we went home narin.

sergio slept at our place. medyo kasi 2am na kami nakauwi eh. hehe. it's fun that he slept here...la lang. =) we were so sleepy and wasted na kasi. the next day, he also went with us sa lunch thingy namin sa bahay ng tita ko. he met my tita, tito and grandma who came from australia. after eating, he went home narin kasi may fiesta pa sakanila. aww... =)

super thanks baby for coming with me last saturday and yesterday. i had SOOOOOOO much fun! i looooooooooooooooove you so much! *mwah mwah*

basketball game

i just came from UP. i watched my baby's basketball game (05 vs 02). it was a close game but unfortunately, our batch lost. infairness, nag-OT pa sila ah..oh well. my baby did great...i'm impressed with his basketball skills. hehe. =)

and oh, i just realized something today. i was sop stupid for thinking of that for the past months. now, nakita ko na ng malaitan, i have nothing to worry about pala. haha. sergio knows this..let's just keep it to ourselves. hehe ;)

today yung shoot for zsa-zsa zaturna...too bad i wasn't allowed to join that. layo kasi eh...pagsanjan..pfft. =S pero super sayang yung 8,ooo pesos na bayad dun! 8 shoots kasi, 1,ooo per shoot. damn it...oh well. may dadating pa na opportunity yan...sana..hehe. =)

*nice game baby.. =) you were awesome kanina. i had fun watching you play and get so sweaty...so hot. haha! and oh, now i know i have nothing to worry about. but you still have NO right to do something bad behind my back..okay??? haha. i love you soooooo much!!! *hugs&kisses*

i have no friggin' idea...haha

i'm here at my grandma's place somewhere in kamias. we just came from medical city becasue my lolo was confined there naman. haay...heaven talaga dun sa place na yun. haha! =) went to CCF before that and attended a supposedly 1 hour and 30 mins service that turned out to be a 2 hour service...tiring yet motivating...inspiring din. hehe. =)

yesterday i went to sergio's place. we ate lunch at kfc katipunan then we went na to his house. nahuli pa nga kami ng mmda sa may malapit na sakanila coz naispatan ako ng isang mmda na hindi naka-seat belt. haha..stupid. so we're fined 250 pesos. oh yeah. =S baby, promise i'm gonna pay that fine. sorry... =)

oh well. hehe. still love YOU though.. =)

one week

ok. updaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaattttttttttttteeeeeee!!! =)

this week's been a hell. super tiring with all the dance rehearsals and the worrying (dont ask) that ive been through. but i cud say that i went all through that quite good...not. i look and feel awful na nga eh. rawr..

let's start it off with the never-ending wirrying moments that im going through since this month started. yep...the long waits for texts, replies and call from him just make this month very interesting and tiring for me. yeah...the sleepless nights and the "puyats" that i've been having coz i kept on waiting for his texts, etc. kahit inaantok na ako super at yung eyes ko ay super bulgy na, wala...hintay parin. pota..haha. haaay...

tapos, yung UPfil trainings pa. i got a lump on my lower back and some bruises sa knees and elbows ko. take not: elbows...both of 'em. haha. ewan. pesteng no matter what yan..core na gna eh ngkaganito pa katawan ko. rawry...exhausting yet super fun naman yung dance..hehe. *wink*

tapos ngayon, bagong issue naman...JEALOUSY. haha. mahabang story...basta napagod ako sa kakatampo at kakaisip ng mga stuff...rawr. in fairness, i was so jealous because of her, it, them, ewan na di nalang ako nagsalita and stuff. wow, something new...

and he's playing dota right now...katabi ko siay actually. haay...supposed to be my day with him...yeah, watching him play dota. sigh sigh sigh...well, atleast, he's not doing some stupid stuff...right? and we're gonna have lunch after this..ang tagal ng oraaaaaaaaaaaassss.... =c

don't blame me for still thinking about some stuff...i don't know how and what to react to what i've read sa inbox mo...yeah, i trust you but why am i still doubting??? assurance baby...i think i NEED that...

nagger

eeek! today, i just realized how it is to be a nagger. yep, as much as i don't want to be just like my mom, to my surprise, i was being like my mom. eeek! it just freaks me out... :S

ok, so here's the story. yesterday kasi, sergio wasn't reaplying to all of my texts the whole day. as usual, i got SO pissed off. the whole day yesterday i was acting like a bitch and it's like i hated everything yesterday...plus the fact that i called him a dozen of times last night when our conversation was suddenly cut off by the network and when i called him again, he wasn't answering his phone na. oh, i bet that his missed call list contains one entry...me. i got pissed off by that again and i fell asleep with that feeling.

SO, kaninang morning, i woke up so pissed. i went to school and was late for my 7am class because of the stupid traffic in commonwealth...so that just added to my pissed off thingy. hooray for me. anyway, after my hk 93 class, hk 102 naman. sergio didn't come to class so that made me worry and pissed off again...after class, i called him and asked where he was. he said that he's still at home and he just woke up. eto ang the best...my goodmorning greeting to him was *tantantan* a solid, high-pitched, morning breaker NAG. yep...i nagged at him endlessly that morning. siyempre, nabwiset naman si sergio. so when he arrived in school, ayan, masungit. total kasungitan. nabad trip nanaman ako...so, medyo nagkalabuan kami nung morning. he went na to his class and i sat at the benches outside. during my quiet time alone, i just realized how pathetic i was that morning. yuck, nagger si camie. sobrang iniiwasan ko kayang matulad sa nanay kong nagger din. nakakabwiset eh. but it turned out that i'm just like her. yikes...freakiness.. =S

anyway, after an hour and 30 mins of waiting, we finally cooled down na. ok na approach namin sa isa't-isa and nag move on na kami. i went to my badminton class na and he played basketball narin. yey. =)

baby, i understand why you were so masungit kanina...i'm sorry for ruining your morning because of my nagging... =c sorry baby..won't happen again, promise. =) and oh, one thing lang, magreply ka kasi diba? para di ako nabibwiset at nadadamay pa tuloy kita. just a simple, one-liner reply or text would be ok to me. okie? *mwah* i love you so much! i'm really sorry...
ok, so time to move on now. midterms namin tom sa hk 109. musta naman, 100 items...wow. oh well, gotta study na. toodles. =p

sunday

it's a sunday morning...and it's so freaking hot! argh! i'm here at an internet place near our house..sobrang init dito. and puro kids..haha! still, ang init...rawr.

anyway, birthday ni DANG ngayon!....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANGY!!!! enjoy your day! *mwah* i love you duday!!! and i miss u! kelan celebration natin??! haha! *mwah*

2nd day ng UPCAT ngayon. good luck sa lahat ng magtatake. and nasa UP nanaman si sergio...hmm...naglunch na kaya siya? musta naman kaya siya dun?? shux, i just cant help not to worry about my baby...*sigh* oh well, i just hope that he's being a good boy there. haha! =p

baby, please take care there ok? and don't tire yourself too much...baka mastress ka lalo diyan, magkasakit ka...dont forget to eat ok?? *mwah* i love you so much! and i can't wait to hear from you.. =)

haay..this day sucks. BORING. :S

finally...my internet's ok na. during the rainy days, it was kinda whacked. rawr. so, updaaaaaaaate!!! haha. =)

last sunday, we (UP Filipiniana) had a show in ateneo. we danced for a mass in commemoration of the feast of St. Ignatius. (oh yeah) there were a lot (as in) of people...and food! haha! after our performance, they gave us free food! lots of them actually. =) sobrang pig out..saya. haha. after that, my mom and dad picked me up in katipunan and we went home. i was tired...of eating. hehe. =)

this week's fun....got to spend it with my baby. loves et. uber. haha! =)

oh, yesterday was our 7th monthsary. yep, 7 months and still going strong! oh yeah!! =) we practically spent the whole day together...ate lunch at Wok Dis Way (as in, EAT LUNCH. haha) and just hanged around...*wink* had lots of fun with him. too bad nung hapon he had to go to do his thingies and stuff. aww.. =c oh well, i'm mjust so glad that we reached 7 months...who would ever thought of us still going strong?? with all the fights & misunderstandings we had before...we're just soooooo happy. yey! =)

*** i love you soooooo much sergio!!! i always do. =) thanks for yesterday! *mwah*

UPCAT today and tom...sergio's in UP, helping..haay...this month's gonna be so sad for me..he's so busy for his induction thingy and a week of not seeing him will just sucks...haaay...oh well. can't wait for this to end...

=)

tiredness

i never felt this tired for the past 3 months...rawr. something new but i like it. hehe.

been rehearsing for our show tom in ateneo. yep, actually, we're gonna dance for the mass of those Jesuits. feast day kasi ni St. Ignatius. =) so kanina, we rehearsed there. the dancing was ok...learned some new dance for tomorrow's performance. but! the fan dance in that singkil dance was....aaaargggh! struggle, super. hehe. we ended at around 6pm na..almost the whole afternoon ung rehearsals..rawr..

i have 2 blisters and a toe-sprain on my left foot. toe-sprain...yeah. so super sakit tuloy ng left foot ko. musta naman ang mga turns and grande jetes dyan..*sigh*

haaay...and he's not replying...sad, sad, sad... pfft. =(

oh well, i still loooooooove him!!! i love you, i love you, I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE YOU, SERGIO! =p *huuuugg!*

why are we living so far away from each other kasi eh..rawr..

and oh, i saw your shoutout..hmm...disappointed??? of what? is it because of yesterday when we didnt do....something?? haha! aminin..!=p

hahaha! la lang. *mwah*

sigh..

you know how it feels when you didn't see a person for a long time and you so miss him then finally, you guys see each other but never have the time alone with each other? diappointing noh? VERY actually.. =c

ok, so here's the deal. i missed him so much coz i didn't see him for 4 days. i got so excited when i saw him awhile ago in school. i was so thinking that we're gonna have some time together, since we missed each other so much. ok, so i was only WISHING. he asked if he could play billiards with our other blockmates..i said yes, eveb though deep inside i didn't want to. i did that coz he might complain that im being selfish again and stuff. and it was something new..atleast, not DOTA. still hoping that i could have some time along with him, i texted him and asked one of our classmates to tell him to come back at around 11am. but noo...he left his cell in his locker and our classmate forgot to tell him my message. *sigh* so there i was, waiting for no one. when he arrived at around 11:30 ( he had a 11:30 class), nakasimangot ako. i was kinda irritated coz i was so into being with him just for 30 mins only coz we won't have any time to be together after that. i had a class at 1 and he had a class at 4. then, i had training ng 4. super malabo na talaga na magkita kami. so super naghanap talaga ako ng time just to be with him coz i missed him so damn much. but no. he thought that i was mad or something..na inaaway ko nanaman siya. i just let him go to his class and i had lunch nalang...alone. well, atleast we saw each other for awhile pa before my class. after that, wala na. we didn't see each other na. i trained and he went to his meeting..

i was so damn disappointed. not at you (well, a little) but with circumstances. pero eto lang, sana you had the initiative to be with me..you know, just the two of us. matagal tayong di nagkita. sana man lang inuna mo muna ako bago sakanila.. =c

oh, pls don't think that i'm mad or something. i'm not. and i'm sorry if i acted that way kanina. i just want to let my bad feelings out through this blog. but i'm ok now.. =)

i love you so much baby.. =) *hug & kiss*

Martyr Niyebera
Kamikazee

Kinukumpleto mo ang araw ko
Sa tuwing inaaway mo
Pag gising sa umaga
Mukha mo ang nakita
Wala pang nagawa naka simangot na

At pag sapit ng gabi
Tampo lalong lumalaki
Ang gusto ko lambingan
Ngunit may unan na namamagitan

(chorus)
Ang almusal ay sigawan
Ang hapunan natin ay tampuhan
Ang merienda pagdududa

Pero mahal kita
Wala ng hahanapin pang iba
Handa akong mag tiis
Kahit na away away away na to

Nahuli lang ng ilang minuto
Di na kikibo
Na trapik lang sa kanto
Di naman gwapo
Naisip mo agad nang chicks ako

Simple lng naman
Ang pinag-mulan
Pinahaba ang usapan
Di naman kailangan
Mahabang away nanaman

(chorus)

Kahit na sabihin
Na naliligo ka sa sampay
Di mo masasabi
Na hindi kita minamahal
Ang daming mong babae
Wala ka pang trabaho
Ngunit kahit ganun
Ay nandito lang ako
Nandito lang ako

(chorus)

~*~

sergio asked me to listen to that song. i asked why, he just said that i should listen to that song. then he asked me if i checked my friendster lately..i said no and asked him why? he said again that i should listen to that song...

so, i got very curiuos and i checked my friendster. then i went to his account. now i know why he asked if i checked my friendster lately..i was surprised to see a line from that lyrics on his shoutout. first thing came to my head, the song. this has got to do something with the song that he asked me to listen to. so instead of downloading it in limewire, i just downloaded its lyrics. yup, the line that i saw as his shoutout was there..so i read the whole lyrics...

nice. that's all i can say.

now i wonder, do you really think that we're like that? la lang..you don't usually do that kasi eh. i mean, asking me to listen to songs that is somehow connected to us...*sigh*

i dunno...i'm scared right now. i'm scared that he might just leave me again. and what scares me more is that i think i'm not gonna go after him na if that happens...coz i got tired of running after him whenever we have "break-ups" or "cool offs"...

come to think of it, maybe it's just ME..maybe, i'm just thinking too much or maybe i just miss him so damn much and not seeing him for 5 days already makes me think like this...*sigh*

"all will be well"

oh, i know you're gonna read this, so feel free to comment..and pls write your name. thanks..

SONA

ok, so we don't have classes today. and its raining very hard. what does this mean?? BOREDOM. yep, complete boredom. i'm stuck here at home doing nothing..there's nothing good to watch on tv, no dvd's left for me to see, no food to eat (yup, starvation people) and my boyfriend's not in the mood to talk to me...i think. haay...life of a bum really sucks. most especially on rainy days..rawr. boring dude..*sigh*

anyway, it's my cousin alisa's birthday today...HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST!!! much love from your dear ate.. <3 too bad she's not having any "handaan" or something..atleast makakalabas ako ng bahay...aww...*sigh again*

i can't wait to go to school tom. kahit na super basa nanaman ang UP dahil sa ulan. atleast, there would be alot of people to hang around with and so many food to eat. and oh, i could also spend some QUALITY (emphasis) time with sergio baby..yey! haha. =) * i love you!! ;p

i know, i know...my entry's kinda whacked. senseless is the right word. sorry na me.. =p

bye na nga. toodles. =p

busy week

wow..finally, update. =) this week's been quite busy. with all the schoolworks and dance practices...i couldn't find time to go online and update my blog. sorry..

anyway, i went to bulacan kanina. it was kind boring coz i went with my parents and a tita with their "field work". the place was cool though..the sights and everything..nice. =)

i had lunch with vicka marie yesterday in katipunan. saya! bonding nanaman kami. hehe. well, we met at up at around 12 and nagpahatid kami kay boyfriend hanggang katipunan. too bad sergio wasn't able to come with us..infairness, nagtampo ako nun. well, a little. hehe. anyway, suepr pig out kami ni vicx. la lang. nakakatuwa lang. haha! hope we'll have more "lunch dates" to come dear! kasi naman eh..suepr conflict mga breaks natin. rawr. haha. aylavyew! <3

oh, i also spent the night last friday at sergio's place. la lang..*wink*

and i went to his place last wednesday. we were supposed to go to greenhills coz i have some "cellphone issues" but due to the very bad weather *ahem*, di kami natuloy. so we just stayed home and bummed around. saya nga eh..super lamiiiig! hahaha! :))

thank God, there will be no classes tom for us UP peeps. thanks, SONA. haha! suepr tinatamad akong pumasok eh...with the rain and everythang..i just wanna snuggle up here sa bed ko. but i wish my baby's here..para masaya! hehe. =p

* ilove you, i love you, i love you, I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE YOU!!! *mwah* huuug! ;)

post birthday blues

ok..officially, i'm 19 years old already. amp..super tanda ko na. my last eyar of being a teenager. grr! now, i'm really gonna enjoy my year this year. last hirit na eh. haay...and time flies so fast these days..*sigh*

hehe. nagdrama.. =)

anyway, my party yesterday/last night was so fun. all of my friends were here: MC barkada, UP friends...and i was surprised that there so many UP friends who came. coolness. well, an enexpected guest came and at first i was so furious about it. after one serious talk/convincing from my bf, ok na 'ko. can't do anything about it eh. anyhoo, my family was also here too..titos, titas, cousins plus their bf's (well, except for one.) it was one hell of a celebration with all the food and inuman sessions we had. wee! :) yeah...and sergio got so drunk nung gabi na...pinainom namin ng madaming tequilla eh. di sanay. hehe. aww...i had to take care of my baby tuloy nung nagsiuwian na mga cuz ko. cute-cute ng baby ko..parang...baby. hehe. =) well, i'm glad that he's ok na. had lunch with him kanina sa katip. wee! :) and oh, he gave me a basket of flowers for my birthday..tapos sinurprise pa niya ako nung morning. isn't that sweet and romantic or what??! haha! i love you so much baby!! thanks! =)

vicka (and sj), dang, issa, melai and joey: SUPER THANKS!!! you all made my bday extra special! *mwah* love you all so much!!!! *hugs and kisses* <3

UP people (dont wanna name it coz you're kinda many. hehe): thanks thanks! you made my day special too! sobrang saya niyo kagabi! hehe. hope u guys had fun and enjoyed the "drinks". haha! *mwah* love you too! see u in school! :)

oh, i have to tell one thing though...honestly, my bday was happy...but not that happy. well, everybody who came knows why. i just didn't like that idea. nagtatampo ako a little..but steady lang. wala nako magagawa eh. oh well. its done already...must go on with life now. hehe. :)

i got my hs yearbook na. FINALLY. it's nice naman...atleast, matino na ngayon. hehe.

oh, dang, i'll give yours when joey and i sees each other na. k? i'll text you. *mwah* :)

anothher week ahead of me...*gasp*

wee!!

happy bday to me...happy bday to me...happy birthday, happy birthdaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay....happy birthday to ME!!!!! =)

yey!!

haha! ok, so today's my birthdy...eek! i'm 19 already. ang tanda ko na, ampu..haha! oh well, still pretty though. haha! kapal! =p

anyway, yesterday was so sweet. sergio gave me this heart-shaped, glittery box that has about a hundered of little notes in it. those cute little notes are the reasons why he loves...a hundred of 'em. aww...so sweet. super, when i was reading them i can't help smiling..saya. =) thanks baby! *mwah* i love you so much! <3

so, may "party" ako later here sa bahay...i can't wait for that. all of my friends are coming. yey! excited na me. wee!! =)

what more could a girl ask for??? ;)

love

love..love...love. such a nice word. a wonderful feeling. its like you're in a trance...and you don't wanna snap out of it. its addictive. its so lovely. and what's magical about it is that it makes you so happy..so, so happy.üüü

yesterday was the day 2 of sergio's sweetness thingy. yep. last monday, a card. yesterday, 3 letters. err, should i say, lovely and sweet letters. =) he didn't give it directly to me. the first two letters were put inside my locker. then the last one was given to me by one of the "ates" at the kiosk. i was surprised to receive those letters...sergio rarely writes letters. and what's so sweet about them is that they contain poems. lovely poems that i think he wrote it himself. (right? hehe) =) that made my day...hanggang sa training, or before my training binasa ko siya. para ganahan akong sumayaw. hehe. trully inspiring.. loves 'em. ;)

kanina naman, i went to his place. la lang..lovers bum. hehe. =p i went there at around 9am...nothing to do, actually. just snuggled and stuff. ;) hehe. it was so nice just being with him and actually do nothing. you know, nakahiga lang kayo tapos wala lang...kwentuhan and stuff. i felt super special kanina. just knowing that he's beside me makes it special. with all the hugs and the kisses...saya! see, we don't need to really do something or go out somewhere...just being together can be so much fun for us. FUN FUN! hehe. ;)

that's why i love him soooooooo much! he never fails to make me happy and feel special. he never fails to surprise me with things, simple things that will actually make my day. his love is all i need to be inspired to go and live another day in my life. and i'm so lucky to have someone like him..i'm happy that i met him. :)

i love you, baby...so, so, very, very much! hehe. *mwah*

Funny how people react to certain things. like for example, when someone scanned someone else's blog and read something about him or her, he or she automatically feels that the author of the blog is pertaining to that certain person. well, yeah they do actually. ;) and its so amazing coz when that reader gets so affected by it, he or she bothers the author for some clarifications, even though it was already clarified in that blog entry. haha, weird. =p

ok, so i was referring to you. got a problem with that? yeah? then get yourself a blog and start writing about me..rather than saying some things behind my back. you know, it amazes me how you react to my blog entry...you're so affected by it. so, need i clarify things to you pa ba? cmon boy, it was easily said there. read again. =)

id prefer more when people tell me personally if they have some issues with me rather than hearing them from others...most especially when you know that it was my close friend you told it to. id rather not stoop down to that level where you just pretend to be my friend and when i turn my back, bad things come from your mouth...

simply amazing. haha.

anyway,i got a card from sergio kaninang morning. yeah..and i was really surprised. the content of the card was so sweet...i loved it. it made my day. (though someone had to ruin it that instant...steady lang.) uhm, baby...i really appreciated what you've done this day. looking forward this week...MY WEEK. haha! i love you so much sergio!! you just never fail to make me feel so darn special...yey! =)

Happiness. need i say more?? <3

" Tease me, please me, indulge me, abuse me..."

haha. loves et. yummy. ;)

anyway, i watched the opening of the UAAP '69 kanina at the araneta colliseum. i was with sergio and some of our blockmates. it was fun at first..happy-happy. then, nung pagkatapos na...ayan na. magulo nanaman. everything went complicated again..shit. =|

bakit ganun? all i ever asked is just to spend some time with you...you know, chill and hang-out lang. is that too much to ask??! i never ask for any material stuff from you..never made palibre and all that...just some time with you, that's just what makes me happy. cheezy na kung sa cheezy pero just being with you completes my day. i miss you when i'm not with you kaya nga i make it a point to spend my available time with you eh..lalo na yung sinabi mo na next month, 1 week or almost a month tayong di masyadong magkikita..nilulubos ko na nga eh. sorry ha..demanding yata para sayo yun eh...i'm really sorry...

and oh, i'm really sorry too if i scratched you accidentally kanina..nainis nanaman ako. i wanted to shout kasi para di kita masaktan but i can't. nasa mall tayo eh..nakakahiya. sorry na talaga...=,c

you know, sobrang i wanna quit na with my life. why? i always hurt the people that i love. and what's so sad is i keep on doing the same mistakes at di talaga ako madala. i dunno why...maybe sa sobrang ayoko silang mawala sakin, nagiging selfish ako na unconsciously nasasaktan ko na pala sila. i'm REALLY sorry for that...=,c what sucks more is that i always end up losing my love ones. and im so helpless about it. kaya nga super gusto ko ng magquit sa life eh..wala namang progress na nangyayari...lagi ko nalang siya nasasaktan and the more i wanna change and avoid that, the more na nasasaktan ko siya.. =,(

sana magkasakit nalang ako, yung tipong nakamamatay...la lang. kasi i'm scared to kill myself naman so i just wish that my body kills itself nalang..diba? insanity..fuck...

baby, i'm really, really sorry...am i still your girlfriend? i hope so...coz i'd go crazy again of you're gonna break-up with me..swear..

i love you so much..that's why i'm so sorry...please???

half way

today, sergio and i celebrated our 6th monthsary..yey! =) we never thought that we would last this long...with all the fights and misunderstandings we had for the past months..coolness. aww.. =p

i had so much fun this day. just a simple celebration with sergio...we were just together. sweet. =) he first gave me a letter...with a poem that he made himself. aww..kahit na super mushy yung poem, super sweet parin! thanks baby! *mwah* then he gave me a cake. i was surprised coz i thought he will never give me a cake with what i did on our 3rd monthsary..hehe. another sweet thing. yey. ;) i gave him a letter and a necklace..replacement yun sa nasira kong necklace niya. =p all in all, this day was super. it was so special because we celebrated our monthsary with no fights whatsoever. wee! love it. ;)

thanks so much baby for this day! i super, duper enjoyed celebrating our monthsary with you. =) i hope we would have many more monthsaries to come..anniv. na next ha? hehe. i love you oh-so-much sergio! i never stopped thanking Gid that he gave me someone like you. <3 *mwah* huuuuggg!!!

LOVELY. oh yeah! =p

anyway, last saturday i watched the UP Streetdance concert with joey girl. it was fun being with her...we were in awe with the dance routines of the UP street. super kita sa mga mata namin na manghang-mangha kami. hehe. cute. tapos, we ate dinner pa afterwards...aww..i miss those days. =) anyway, thanks joey for coming with me! next time ulit! *mwah* love u and missed u! =)

sunday was an adventure day for me. i went to sergio's house. oh, ha, san ka pa?! pinuntahan ko siya. hehe. =p it was his mom's bday din kasi eh...=) happy birthday mom, err, tita! (belated) =) anyway, it was a fun day...super hang-out lang sa room niya. snuggled and stuff. hahaha! =) super happy nga rin siya eh...i could tel. =p hehe. *mwah* loveyou loveyou loveyou!!! =)

shux, super naiinlove na talaga ako kay sergio...woopee! hehe. =)

hyperness mode on *toot*

ayan...HAPPY!!! =)

The Scientist by Coldplay
Come up to meet you,
Tell you I'm sorry,
You don't know how lovely you are.

I had to find you,
Tell you I need you,
Tell you I set you apart.

Tell me your secrets,
And ask me your questions,
Oh let's go back to the start.

Runnin' in circles,
Comin' up tails,
Heads on the science apart.

Nobody said it was easy,
It's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be this hard.
Oh take me back to the start.

I was just guessin',
At numbers and figures,
Pullin' the puzzles apart.

Questions of science,
Science and progress,
Do not speak as loud as my heart.

Tell me you love me,
Come back and haunt me,
Oh on I rush to the start.

Runnin' in circles,
Chasin' up tails,
Comin' back as we are.

Nobody said it was easy,
Oh it's such a shame for us to part.
Nobody said it was easy,
No one ever said it would be so hard.
I'm goin' back to the start.

Ahhooooooooooooooooo
Ahhooooooooooooooooo
Ahhooooooooooooooooo
Ahhooooooooooooooooo

happy..finally.

sergio ann i are finally ok. we are back together. yey! i'm so happy that he finally gave me another chance..thanks baby! imma prove to you that it's gonna be worth it this time. I PROMISE. =)

we talked last thursday night. he asked if i was home already and when i told him yes, he called at my house. it was hard to convince him at first...i poured out my emotions and told him everything that i feel after that cool-off thing. it was a long talk until he finally agreed to give it another shot. i was so overjoyed at that moment. i thanked him and told him that i'm not gonna let him down this time. i'm gonna stick to my words na. =)

i'm really thankful that he gave me another chance. i'll never screw this up this time. SWEAR.

yesterday was a happy day. sergio and i are sweet again and all that..i never felt so much happiness like that for 3 days..hehe. =) i love him so much that i don't wanna lose him again..NEVER. =)

thank God everything's fine now. thank you Lord. so much. =)

so, right now he's in katipunan playing dota. well, dota's still irritating to me but the heck, i allowed him to play. rather than seeing other girls, right? hehe. =p

i love you so much sergio...*mwah* =)

yey!!

day 1

god, its so hard for me to look at him and not even touch him or hug him like we used to. it's so freakin hard that we're classmates and we're not seated together anymore. it's just so freakin' hard for me to say hi or smile at him..it's so hard sergio...SO HARD..

i cried when i saw him. i just couldn't help it. i'm breaking into pieces and i couldn't contain myself anymore... =c

atleast, he gave my bag to me. that was sweet..but it isn't enough.. =,c

haay...hanggang kelan pa kaya na ganito tayo??? pagbigyan mo na kasi ako and i'll prove to you that your love is gonna be worth it this time. i swear...

what more on the following days...how much hurt can it get...

to sergio..

Tonight I Can Write -Pablo Neruda

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

Write, for example, "The night is shattered

And the blue stars shiver in the distance."

The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

I loved him, and sometimes he loved me too.

Through nights like this one I held in his arms.

I kissed him again and again under the endless sky.

He loved me, sometimes I loved him too.

How could one not have loved his great still eyes.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

To think that I do not have him. To feel that I have lost him.

To hear the immense night, still more immense without him.

And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.

What does it matter that my love could not keep him?

The night is shattered and he is not with me.

This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance.

My soul is not satisfied that it has lost him.

My sight searches for him as though to go to him.

My heart looks for him, and he is not with me.

The same night whitening the same trees.

We, of that time, are no longer the same.

I no longer love him, that's certain, but how I loved him.

My voice tried to find the wind to touch his hearing.

Another's. He will be another's. Like my kisses before.

His voice. His bright body. His infinite eyes.

I no longer love him, that's certain, but maybe I love him.

Love is short, forgetting is so long.

Because through nights like this one I held him in my arms.

My soul is not satisfied that it has lost him.

Though this be the last pain that he makes me suffer.

And these the last verses that I write for him.

~*~

my heart's aching whenever i say "i love you" and he doesnt say anything nor respond..does he still love me??? well, i know he still does but why are things like this? i'm really sorry for what i did yesterday..i crossed the line again. i broke my promise. but can you forgive me again? di ko talaga kaya yung ganito..can we be like before, with all the love and happiness??? nagsisisi nako sergio..i need you now. i need someone who'll hug me and kiss me even on the cheeks. and i couldn't find another person to that but you. i love you so much sergio..pls love me the way you love me before..coz i know you do. you were just hurt with what i did yesterday. i'm sorry if i'm full of mistakes. im sorry if i keep on messing it up. but not having you screws everything up. i woulnd't be happy again. you're my happiness right now sergio..do want to take that away from me? just give me my super last chance..and i'll prove everything that i say right now. i'll show you that i mean everything that i say. please??

goin crazy

yesterday, sergio waited for my badminton class to finish. aww..that was so sweet. then, after my class, he invited me to go with him to his swimming class. too bad i didn't come with him coz i have to learn some dance for the "initiation" thing for pep. i'm sorry baby...next time. =)

we had this "initiation" thing for pep. parang welcome to the family ek-ek nila. yeah. so, we cheered first sa casaa, then sa as steps, then sa may fc. it was so funny coz people don't actually care about what we were doin. bries and i joined the monday group coz..la lang. trip lang. hehe. too abd sergio haven't got the chance to see it. aww..he went "somewhere" daw. ok...hehe. =p and oh, i forgot to invite vicka as well. shit..i'm getting forgetful already. nyah. =S

i didn't train yesterday and today. mondays are no training days for me and today, well. long story. to cut it short, nag-away nanaman kami ni sergio to the point na nakipag-break siya sakin. fucker. i was really chasing him kanina. i was so crazy...i even slashed myself. creepy. i wasn't my self kanina. i didn't go to my last 2 classes and i even dared to go the middle of the street and tried to get hit by a car. fuck. i'm was a sick, paranoid, psycho girl kanina..nakakhiya kay sergio. shit...anyway, i calmed down naman when we were in LKB na. but then again, my mind's full of shit things. i really wanted to quit life kanina. i wanted to kill myself. i was having a emotional breakdown and it was so not me..

but all is well now. he didn't go to class and pinuntahan ako sa gym when i was alone there. he took back all that he said and kami na ulit. he told me that he really loves me so much. that was a relief. akala ko talaga he doesn't love me anymore..that's why i was being a psycho kanina. thank God everything's fine na.. =)

*baby, i'm REALLY sorry about what i did kanina. i know, it was my last chance and i said that if i did that again, breakan mo nako. fuck. forget that. di ko kaya eh..nakita mo naman kanina diba? i'm sorry baby...medyo dinemonyo ako kanina and i made a big deal out of a small ish. sorry..i love you so much and that's my happiness right now. pls don't take that away from me..pls? i dunno what to do if i lose you now..i'll be going crazy for pete's sake. i'm really sorry baby..thanks for taking back what you said kanina. thanks for saying that you still love me. thanks for loving me despite these...i won't do this again. this i swear na talaga. i'll act mature na with things and i wont irritate you na. and i wont get irritated that easily na. PROMISE talaga. i love you so much sergio..that's why i'm like this. call me crazy, but it's true. you're the reason for my happiness and your love is all that i need. thanks baby..*mwah* i love you.. =)

nadala na talga ako. this time, it's for real.

oh, to one certain person: if you have any problems with my childishness, why don't you try telling that to me personally. you don't have the fuckin' right to judge me..you don't know a shit about me. how dare you to poison my boyfriend's mind with your pathetic ideas...you're supposed to be a friend not an intruder. you don't intrude someone else's relationship and don't give fuckin' advices that you can't even apply to your self. if you're insecure coz people have loved ones, i'm so sorry for you. how can someone love you with what you're doing??? good for you, boy..good for you... =) this time, it's my words against yours.

weekend blast

my weekend was so fun. =)

yesterday, our classmate kyla had her debut at KKK resto at west ave. most of my blockmates were there. so fun! the food, the people, the place...my boyfriend. yeah, Very fun. =p i was part of the 18 treasures thingy. i, err should i say we (camie & sergio) gave kyla a scrapbook. i had a hard time thinking of what to say about our gift. hehe. anyway, after the program, everyone just started singing. i got sleepy. hehe. =) after the party, we decided to have coffee at starbuck's. after having a java chip frappe and caramel belgian waffle (my fave!), we went home already. but before going to our house, we brought Gica home first. ang layo ng bahay ni Gica! hehe. we had a hard time going here sa bahay from their place. we just asked for directions. haha! we arrived home at around 1:30am and slept narin shortly after. oh, he slept over here. la lang. hehe. ;)

kanina was fun too! my parents went out and we were left alone here sa house. we just bummed around. nothing to do..yeah. sure. haha! ;) had breakfast and lunch together. so sweet. =) he left at around 2pm. aww...his scent was left nga sa room where he stayed eh. i mise him already tuloy.. =c hehe. oh well, tom's a new day and another day for us! yey! =)

thanks for sleeping over here, baby..=) i had SO much FUN. =) i hope there would be alot of next times..haha! i'll see u in school tom dearie. i love you so damn much! *mwah*

i just love him more and more each day...haaay...*happy*

stress

the past week has been so tiring for me. damn. last tues, i started training with the UP Pep Squad. i also trained last thurs and yesterday. shit...kapagod. my body's so sore! i never realized that this sem was a very tiring sem for me. my HK subjects..my pep training. haggardness..rawr. oh well, atleast i'm still enjoying what i'm doing. goodluck nalang sa katawan ko. super feel ko bibigay na siya. nooo...hehe. :)

i was surprised last night when i saw sergio at the Aldaba hall. wow, he picked me up sa training ko. aww..sweet! :) hehe. he was with doy. they had a meeting kasi eh and it ended alte narin. anyway, after dressing up, we ate dinner at McDo philcoa. after eating, things were ok then after awhile, medyo nagkainitan nanaman kami ni sergio. i was, again, being stubborn. pero nakakainis talaga siya coz alam na nga niyang i was irritated na, sige, tuloy pa sa paghihirit. and the fact kasi na he picked me up from training diba? di dapat he should bring me home narin knowing that i'm gonna commute alone and it was kinda late and he knows it. but no...he let me commute parin. he was with me naman so ok lang pero still the fact na it was late na. he said that he was planning to bring me home naman talaga but he was waiting for me to ask him that. hello??! diba dapat automatic na yun na it was so late and you should bring me home??! you shouldn't wait for me to ask you that! given na yun na "responsibility" ng isang boyfriend. if you've done that earlier, i mean without arguing with me, that you could have gotten home earlier diba?? initiative. haay..ewan. well, the good thing is he said sorry when we arrived here at my house na. i was still a little irritated but finally i forgave him na. i said sorry narin and we said goodbyes na after. we were both tired and i understand that. i'm really sorry for being stubborn and hot headed last night. i love you so much.. =)

today's the debut of our classmate, kyla. Happy Birthday Kyla! much love! =) the prob is, i still dont have a gift to think na i'm one of the 18 treasures..haha! and i didnt go to our cwts today. my body's so sore. =c oh well. i gotta go. i have to do some errands pa. ciao. <3

body ache

i have a major body ache right now. my right butt cheek definitely hurts..rawr. i need a hug..pls??? hehe. =)

anyway, yesterday was the start of my training with the UP Pep Squad. yep. THE UP Pep Squad. haha. it was fun training with them. they were warm naman pala eh. they welcomed me and were so nice to me. cool. =) my friend Joey even watched me train with them yesterday. kaso she had to leace early...aww. hehe. thanks dearie! *mwah* anyway, we danced streetdance yesterday. it was so fun coz the routine was so cool to dance. in fairness, i had to memorize a long routine in that very instant. walang turo-turo..sunod lang. haha. well, i got to memorize most of the steps naman..di kasi uso sakanila ang mag mark eh. rawr. pero it was still fun. we also polished the liftings..and for the first time, i felt how to be a lifted by strong men. haha! it was so cool! nafeel ko kung pano maging flyer. yey! though the training was kinda tiring and i was so hungry the time it finished and i got home, it was so fun. =)

another good thing is sergio and i are ok na. super i dont want that to happen again. i felt so mnay emotions. that it frove me crazy...well, mild crazy lang. hehe. i love u so much baby! i cant afford to lose you now..=) huuuuuug! *mwah* and oh, thanks for the uhm..you know, yesterday. haha. *wink* love u my baby porkchop.. =) haha!

thank God walang training ngayon. my body's sore. hehe..

it's been a month since that day..there is still guilt..sad..haay.. = c

love hurts

"Once in your lifetime, experience love in its purest form-- try never demanding, dont ask, seek and call 4 attention. When that person commits a mistake, readily forgive without question. When he asks, give and then give some more. Never question or doubt his intentions. Accept what he offers, understand his negligences. Love fully. Love gently. You will experience this love but once. He will experience this love just once."

That was from Joey girl. I dunno if she wrote that or got it somewhere. hehe. Thanks dear..you made me feel better. :) i miss you..

All i ever wanted is for things to get back to what they used to be...very happy. I just want you to be happy..and feel content with everything that i'm giving you. in return, i just want appreciation. all i ever want is for us to be happy together again..what we were before you read my past blogs. that's all..

wishes can come true...right?

after a tiring day in school..

sergio was here awhile ago...=) our classes ended quite early that's why we decided to hang-out here at my house. almost 3 hours of bumming around...cool. i had a nice time with you, baby. =) i had fun. hehe. ;) i love you so much!! looooooooove!!! *mwah* =-*

anyway, it was a tiring and hot day for me. weird coz the sky was a bit dark and the weather was a little gloomy..it was so darn hot! i was almost dehydrated the whole day! hehe. thank God my last class didn't take that long...i love sir j! ang bilis lagi ng 1st day sakanya. hehe. ;)

bries is already training with the UP Pep. inggit me..haha! oh well, i'll just talk to coach lala if i could start training narin..medyo 1 taon niya ako kinulit last school year eh. i'll give it a try this time. atleast, i'm with bries na. safer. hehe. ;) and i'll make paalam narin to my mom...maybe she'll approve of it this time. hehe. :)

darn...classes on a saturday. f*ck this cwts..bakit naman kasi weekend eh. i so wanna sleep the whole day tom..argh..

oh well, gotta go. i'm gonna think of what i'll eat pa for dinner. my parents are out kasi and they might go home late. sad. hehe. toodles. <3

here we go again...i did it again last night. why do i have to spoil everything??? i thought we were ok na..damn..

when i arrived home, we were ok na. tapos, when he called, we were ok at first but things got a little off again. we started this petty argues and turned out pretty bad. we had to put down the phone with me crying and him so irritated again..

he proposed that we have a cool off muna. as usual, i disagreed. it was a hard process convincing him to not have this cool off. i got crazy, felt insane, cried alot and had my face & eyes all sore and painful. i asked him to call me on our landline because i really need to talk to him, hear his voice and say what i really feel that time. he eventually agreed and called. we talked and i tried convincing him to not to cool off with me. it was so hard because he had all these reasons and he was very sure of what he was doing. but i still tried until i said that this will be my last chance. if i screw up again, he have the right to break up with me without me disagreeing to him again. finally, we got things straight and we were ok again. we talked peacefully na and we were sweet again. thank goodness.. =)

ok, last chance. my last chance. i really had to stick to my word. i wont screw up again. i promise..no, i swear. i just can't afford to lose him..i just cant. i love him so much that it would really hurt me and drive me crazy if i lose him. funny as it sounds but its true. i would be very awful and it would be really hard. i just thank God for sergio's patience with me. i'm so lucky to have him.. =)

baby, i'm so sorry for what happened yesterday. i know i got a little carried away and i shouldn't have reacted that way. i know ive been stubborn and hard headed and i always forgot what we've talked about sa bahay ng alumni. actually, i didn't forget what we've talked about...im just too hard headed and i let my emotions come first..kaya i always cry. it's not your fault why i always cry..well, yeah sometimes but it's me who's makingg myself cry most of the time. i'm really sorry baby...you mean the world to me, sergio. you're very special and important..i love you so much.. =)

paranoia

i did a very stupid thing kanina. i felt so stupid becasue i promised myself that i will never do that again. but no...i still did it. knowing what the consequences are...haaay...i hurt my baby again...i'm so sorry... =,c

being an only child can be interesting. atleast you'll get whatever you want and walang kaagaw. you'll never have a fight with any siblings and all the attention is focused in you. yeah, it's fun to be an only child...depends on the circumstances.

when you're used to being selfish, childish and dependent when you were a child, you tend to bring those characteristics when you're grown up already. and when its time for you to change those attitudes, it becomes very hard. some people don't actually get it, but adjusting to situations when you're used to being adjusted to is a very difficult task to do. you go things the hard way and sometimes you tend to be emotional about your decisions. it sucks because people misunderstand you and they might get the wrong impression of you being "guilty" or "affected" in fact that you're just trying to prove something and the person won't just listen to you. we grow up in different kinds of situations and its really hard to adjust to different nature. but we try to do it just to not be judged or criticized by some people. we try to improve ourselves because we are proving to the world that we can be independent and certain about things even if we're used to being dependent and getting what you want all the time.

one thing i learned from my relationship with sergio is that you cannot get everything that you want. somethings require sacrifice on my part. and i should understand that my partner does not have the same perspective in life and i should respect that. i'm glad that he taught me those things, though we're going through it the hard way. i know i cna be stubborn sometimes but i admire his patience. and i'm really sorry if sometimes i test your patience...and i know that sometimes i cross the line. sorry baby... =c

i'm lucky to have my boyfriend right now...with all the bad things i've done and all the forgiveness i received from him..i'm just so lucky. from now on i will never act like that again. i'll consider your options and i'll know when to stop my "kadramahan". i'll tell you when i'm bothered by something and tell you if i get jealous...i wont keep you guessing this time baby..that i promise. if i break that promise again, you have the right to leave me. hard as it may be for me, i deserve that.

oh yeah, i need a psychiatrist. my emotions can sometimes be too much and it's getting hard for me already. it triggers my paranoia and i hate it when that happens...i tend to hurt myself.

*i love you so much, baby.. =) sorry for being childish again. i'll never let you down this time. promise. =) thanks for still loving me despite these..i'll change na talaga. *mwah* i love you.. =)

blast

my weekend was fun. fun fun FUN! hehe.. =)

last friday was sergio's bday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABYLOVE!!! haha! 19 ka na..tanda mo na. nyaha! *mwah* anyway, our day started when we met up at UP at around 8am. we finished our enlistments first. after enlisting, well, they played DOTA first and the girls (camie, danya & lalaine) were left at the gym. we waited for them for quite long..di na namin sila natiis hintayin at kumain na kami. hehe. when they finally arrived, we waited for awhile for sj and danya & armand do their things and we went na to sergio's place in pasay. *whew*

when we arrived at sergio's place, naabutan namin na nagprepepare palang mom ni sergio. so sergio asked me to paly this game sa net. well, di pala siya game! it's one of those things na may biglang scary face na lalabas with matching screaming sound. yeah..totally nakakagulat. siyempre, natakot si camie. eh anong ginagawa ni camie pag takot siya? umiiyak. and i did..i was so scared that i screamed (as in LOUD) and cried. aww...they were all laughing coz i was the only who got scared by that. yeah..anyway, after that, we ate and they left narin..aww..

sergio and i had some moments alone when his friends arrived. he introduced me to them. =) after that, his family members naman. ayun. super nahiya nako. haha! so we just stayed together for almost the whole night. it was so nice...i get to see him so happy on his birthday. aww..lovely. =) doy and i slept over at his place. coolness.. =)

the next day, we dropped off doy at the sakayan and we went to SM Mall Of Asia. Mahn, the mall was so huge! i was so amazed..hehe! we first went to this side of the mall where it overlooks the manila bay...so sweet. we took some pics on my phone, which was kinda malabo. after that, we went around and decided to buy tickets at the IMAX theater. we bought tickets for the movie/show called NASCAR. well, it was a 3d film..na mostly tinulugan ni sergio. hehe. it was cool..though super lakas ng sounds na nabingi ako. haha! after the film, we ate at sbarro. gawd, i was full. hehe. after eating, when sergio finally noticed that there were so many people, we went back to his house na. =)

i had so much fun with sergio. well, i always do naman eh. kaya nga i love him very, very much! everytime im with him, i'm so happy. aww.. =)

*thanks for the wonderful weekend baby! hope u enjoyed your bday with me! hehe. i luvee you porkchop! haha! ;) *mwah*

kanina, i went to the salon to have a foot spa & get my nails done. it was so relaxing..and my nails are very cool too! hehe. =)

tom, 1st day of classes na. can't wait to see my blockmates! and of course sergio! haha! =)

another up enrollment day for me. again, hassle. super tiring. oh well, atleast i got some of my major subjects na. 2 more to go and an elective and a pe 3 class..shiyet. goodluck. pfft.

anyway...share ko lang. =)

i have this hobby of making "kalikot" other people's cellphones. you know, look at their inbox, look for nice quotes then you "accidentally" read their personal messages. hehe =) kanina, i borrowed sergio's phone. first, yung sun phone niya. ok pa..puro quotes. then yung globe naman..ayan na. at first, i was ok..puro quotes pa eh. then when i got to the part where the old messages were, yan na..medyo nanlaki mata ko eh. well, i don't wanna say what the messages were about..basta it kinda made me stop and think for awhile. fine..i got a "little" jealous..and i was thinking that maybe he's doing something that im not aware of. yeah, i trust him..i really, really do. but there are times when you still think that there's something that you don't know. la lang. that moment struck me kanina. stupid noh? hehe. well, i asked him who those people were and he answered naman...well, except for one sender there. when i read her (i assumed that it was a girl..well, it looked like it) messages, i was so sure who she was already. the name gave me a clue that instant. and when i read her messages i was like, "hmm.." i got curious. and what made me wonder is that everytime i ask who those people are, i still have this little doubt about them. i guess that's normal...is it?
one things for sure, i trust him. whatever he says, i always believe him. sabi nga niya kanina when is aid that it's time for him to learn to erase his other messages, "ayaw mo nun, wala akong tinatago sau..." well, yeah he has a point but i still get jealous and curious whenever i read those messages. haha..i'm making a big deal out of this. la lang..napapaisip lang ako eh..well, this time. i read his phone messages a number of times already but only today i got struck by those messages..haaay...*sigh* paranoia..tsktsk..

and i realized that i was so darn wrong when i said that love can be without trust. nope..you cannot love a person if you don't trust them. shiyet..i just ate my words na sobrang pinandigan ko before. haha. funny me.. =)

but what's so nice about this is whenever i get jealous of these things, just a word from him quickly erases that feeling. i mean, just a sweet text or hear his cute voice when he's making "pacute" on the phone, i instantly forget that i'm jealous and he makes me smile again. la lang..i just find that sweet. =) oh well, i just hope that he's not like that with other girls..hehe. =p

* i love you baby..so much. =)

i went to UP kanina for my enrollment. as usual, HASSLE. hehe. super tiring and confusing..thank God sergio was there. yey. =) vicka looked horrible kanina..para siyang lantang gulay. haha. well, she was with nikki and sj..and they all looked, well, cute. sarap picturan. hehe. welcome to UP dearies..ano, kaya pa? hehe. =p anyway, another enrollment day for us...1 week nanaman toh..damn..pfft. :S

anyway, this is SO SWEET. read...

CaMiE's Testimonials

sErGiO 6/6/2006
The first time i saw herHer eyesheld me captivatedwhere I stood.Her smileto dazzle the sunand warm every corner of my soul.Her voicelike a sparkling streamwhich flows straight into my heart.Her walkand the way her gracefulnesstakes my breath away (syempre dancer.. hehe =p)Her hairabout which I dreamedcascading into my faceeverytime she leans over me.Her handswhose caress I craveto hold my facein their tenderness.Your armsI long to have around my waistas you pull me closeto your warmth.Her lipsthat i crave everytimewe get close....Most of alleverything you arechanged the way I feel about my life.I love you baby =p

o dibuh? that made my night. and made me so kilig! i blushed kaya after reading that...really. =) haha. musta nman ang sobrang inlove dyan?? hehe. la lang. =)
*thanks for the testi baby! i love you SOOOOOOOOOOOO much!!! mwah mwah mwah! at nanggigigil ako sayo ngayon. haha! *mwah* <3

today's a very special day..monthsary namin ni sergio!!! hehe. too bad we weren't together..oh well. kahapon naman magkasama kami eh. ;)

Sergio,
happy 5th monthsary baby!! wow..5 months na tayo. akalain mo yun??! haha! and you said that you'd never imagine that saying to a girl..aww..galing ko noh??? haha! told ya! =p
anyway, serious na. baby, thanks so much for everything you've showed and given me this past 5 months..hindi mo lang alam na sobrang na-aapreciate ko lahat ng binibigay mo sakin. even the littlest things..yeah. hehe. =) i learned so much from you: being independent, being "mature" and stuff like that. i never met a person like you. you're the only one whom i'm so comfortable with that i could show my real self to you..aww.. =) hehe. thanks also for being so patient with me especially when i'm having my moodswings, "kalabuan" days and when i'm acting childish. i know that sometimes you're getting fed up already because i always forget my mistakes kasi eh. I'm sorry baby..i know you get hurt whenever i'm doing these things..and i'm really sorry about that. i know also that you're kinda fed up with my sorries na..la lang. thanks for still loving me despite all those things. i'm so lucky to have you, someone so patient, kind and loving. i always feel blessed knowing that you're always by my side and i feel so content with my life right now. i wouldn't ask for anything more.(ay, ang mushy..haha) whenever i'm with you, i feel this kind of happiness that i couldn't explain and i just don't want the day to end. and i always look forward in seeing you & being with you. you're one of the reasons why i'm so happy with my life right now, baby. thanks for that. =) i just wish that our relationship will grow stronger and we'll have more monthsaries to come. =) i love you more and more each day, baby and i thank God that i met you. you're so special and i wouldn't want to lose you now coz i couldn't imagine my life without Sergio. =) happy monthsary again and i love you soooooo much! *mwah*

pre-monthsary =)

sergio went here kanina. yupyup! i invited him for lunch. it's like our pre-monthsary celebration. hehe. something new. no going to the malls, just here at my house. tipid kasi eh..sssh...haha! =p anyway, i had so much fun! i missed him so much kasi eh! he arrived at around 11am here, eh im still at the grocery, buying some food to eat. when i arrived, yan na. start na ng "fun". haha! *wink* =p bad trip nga coz he had to leave early. my mom texted me and told me na they're (my parents) are going home already...yeah, right. wala pa nga sila hanggang ngayon eh. argh! anyway, there's always a next time...right, baby??? haha! oh! i'm so excited narin next saturday! he invited me to go to SM Mall of Asia. ICe skating! hehe! well, i'm gonna teach how to glide, baby...that will be so fun. hehe! ;) i really had fun with my baby today...i was SO happy to see him! after 1 very long week...yey!!! happy happy! haha! (di rin obvious eh..haha)

* thanks for today baby! i hope you had a great time coz i sure did...SUPER! haha. =p yey! 5 months na tayo tom! excited ako!! haha! and i hope we're gonna have many more monthsaries to come..please??? hehe. *mwah* I LOVE YOU VERY, VERY MUCH SERGIO!! <3

i'm loving him more each day...gosh. hehe. ;)

anyway, monday's UP day for me and my barkada. wala lang. hang-out lang. and oh, issa's gonna introduce us to IJ. haha, la lang. excited na me. haha!

*** namiss kita ulit..darn. oh well, i'll see u soon! =)

oh sh*tty, i still don't have any idea what to give sergio on his bday....heeeeeeellllpppp!!!! pls? =) hehe

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i just came home from my cousin's place. i stayed there for a week...la lang. i was so darn bored here kasi sa bahay so i went there. i just don't like it here sa bahay. haha!

anyway, last saturday, JOey slept over here sa house. she arrived late due to the hard rain. i thought nga na di na siya tutloy kasi super lakas talaga nung rain. buti nalang pumunta parin siya. hehe. we watched Eternal Sunshine...and it was a good movie. something new for Jim Carey. i was so amazed by the movie..haha! tapos wala..puro kwentuhan na. i missed being with her. i missed talking to her too! i missed our usual hang-outs dito sa bahay...i so missed her! we were too busy kasi nung pasukan so we didnt have the chance for something like this. thank God na we're both free this summer and wala na talaga kaming magawa..haha!
*joey: thanks dude for coming here! i missed u so much! next time ulit ok? sorry i can't come tom..next time promise. =) *mwah* love u dearie!! =)

tapos, nung monday, my cousins invited me to watch x-Men 3 with them. well, i'm not into xmen stuff but i agreed narin. rare lang yung mga times na magyaya yung kuya ko eh! hehe. we watched xmen3 in gateway but before going there we stopped by at ateneo. so, musta naman ang pagiikot sa ateneo for like 45 mins? haha. when we passed by the HS building, i was so surprised..new faces sobra. so na-feel ko na tumatanda nako. damn. haha! we went back narin sa kuya namin and off we went to gateway. we were late for the 1:50pm show so we bought tickets for the 3pm show. tumambay muna kami sa timezone. then, after 30 mins of waiting, we went inside the cinema narin. the movie was ok..cool nung mga effects. tapos nung patapos na, alisa was telling us about this "super ending" at the end of the credits stuff. so we waited. ayan na..tapos to our surprise, *tadaaa!!* 5 seconds lang siya. yeah, some kind of a super ending huh? haha. we went na sa house nila after..

last wednesday, we went naman sa house ng ibang cousins namin. la lang..boredom. nangapitbahay lang kami ni alisa.. haha!

yesterday, our ate texted us and invited us for lunch at shangrila. alisa and i went there. we ate lunch and after eating, we looked around the mall to buy smething. at sa sobrang pag-iiokt, we didn't buy anything. haha. we went with our ate to her office somewhere at shaw. sobrang lamig...and boring. haha. we went tuloy sa red ribbon just to kill time..and eat cake. after an hour at red ribbon, we went back and waited for our ate. after that, we went to cubao to buy something for our cousin who had an accident. kuya francis had a motorcycle accident kasi and caused him an operation on his left arm. yikes! we bought Gonuts and we went narin afterwards sa St. Luke's hospital. afer an hour of pangungulit to our kuya and answering some stupid crossword puzzles, we went home narin.

today, we just stayed home. tapos it rained so hard pa kanina. complete with thunder and lightnings. shiyet..scary. my mom picked me up and we went home narin. God, i missed our house. i missed my room, my bed..my computer and my internet. hehe! oh, i missed our telephone too! la kasing dialtone yung phone dun eh..medyo nawindang naman ako kasi i can't communicate with sergio properly. haha. ;)

oh, may bagong puppy yung sila alisa. super cute. si Paris. terrier siya..cutie paris. i wish i have one...*ahem* hehe! =p

i just realized something..from now on, i'll update more often in this blog. la lang..i have an urge to erase my past blogs..de. wag nalang. bahala na mabulok yun. haha!

* to YOU: i miss you so damn much already..i can't wait too see you tom. yey! haha! I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU!!!! i'm so happy to have you baby..super. =) *mwahmwah*

he's going here kasi tom..la lang. ;) 5 months na kami sa sun..coolness! hehe! <3

oh wait..shoutout...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUSTIN!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHA & COCO!!!!

i love you guys so much! miss you! *mwah*